my mind my world

how far would you go?

2011-09-22T09:33:00.000-07:00

your love is my heroin,
your sharp word is what make my skin itches,
your pleasure is my victory
the frost that's there is what fuels me onwards
the guilt in your voice is what gives you away,
you turn your face,
you scream at me, but in reality who are you screaming at?

when u lie, u look away
when you are guilty, your eye softens
when your trapped, you lash out

u try to figure me out,
but u never will
because you look but u dont see
u hear but u dont listen
u touch but u dont feel

but even that, i love u so much
i'd cut my heart out and leave it on display
for all to see,

and that is the difference between us,
without honesty there is not trust,
and without trust there is no love,
when love is for the highest bidder
honesty is a hard virtue to maintain

so now tell me

2011-06-07T19:02:00.000-07:00

hey u! yes, please dont act like i dont know ur talking about me! if u wanna say it, why dont u spit in my face as u drool ur slimy words out?!

come on, u talk about having balls show me where they are.

your low gossip is what fuels me.

dont just talk about you, ur WHOLE family are a sneaky lot.

heres what i want to do...come a little closer...

BOOM

BAM!

POW!

well it sure sucks to be you, owh and for good measure please follow instructions

1. take right fist and extend out at face level

2. turn fist toward yourself

3. pull fist back with fast and sudden motion

TIP: bending the elbow makes it all the more easier

now that just makes me feel all warm inside...

oh, wait, what? u feeling offended? yea in case u dint know little girl... get a book called the dictionary look up sacarsm and learn bitch cuz I DONT GIVE A FUCK .

oh wait, there is some sort of bulge in my pocket let me get it oh here i got it...

oh look what i found...ok its for you, wait there seems to be more

look a whole collection!!! all for you soggy tits

i guess.....

not happy ? then GTFO...yea go look it up

push this button

dint work? here try this then

...that feel so much better now... =)

howls moving castle

-i dont give a flying fart in space

hugs & kisses

acid

feels like bacon...what do u say?

2011-05-19T21:54:00.002-07:00

so i found some cool pictures cuz im so bored during my lunch break like

while my coworker in the next booth is like typing away and here is what i found

hey lets gather around and all enjoy a lofty glass of coca-cora =)

this one is pretty cool

the total trust that the jumper has in the photograper is amazing

and this is for a little humor....

i always belive in the phrase "a pictures speak a thousand words"

and the lenghts a photographer goes to take them are even more priceless

and talking about shooting stuff i would love something like this to pop up when i get home from work some day

wouldnt u? check out another cool pic i found

yes its a camera...can u imagine u go up to some one and be like smile bitch ur on camera

BANG!

and the SPLAT!!

and then u die the death similar to a leaning tower of pluto!

or when ur at the air port and a sequirity guard goes all up in ur face saying 'ma'am, we need to do a sequrity scan' and then im gonna be like 'owh owh wait what?' "every body FREEZE BITCH!" GET DOWN!!! cuz...

im gonna comb my hair with my pistol comb while wearing my bread shoes

and before i say farewell to you...i would just like to tell the people in charge to put up more signs like this on the road , it would definitely make my day

sign reads: car balancing on the edge of a square box in anticipation of falling on to 3 large strips of bacon...yum!

ok good night my little flying monkeys!

i want to be a patchouli burger

2010-12-26T06:16:00.000-08:00

SO today i was just goin thru facebook u know trying to find some intresting vids of stupid
people doing stupid things that migt make me laugh, and so i came across this vid about this
really hot guy he calles himself Davey Wavey but i dunno if its his real name, sounds to
rhyme-ish so yea, back to the point, and he is gay DUH! all hot guys are gay...so anyway im not
gonna whine bout that...he got a bunch of vids...about like anything and he has this blog...n i was
just browsing and then this one post he posted really got me thinkin...bla bla long story short...when i die i want to be exactly like this worn out sneakers

UM...OKAY why in the world would u want to be a stinking pair of old gym shoes?
what an AWKWARD thing to be right?
so the story is that i want to be like this old stinking shoe cuz of its mental state...think of it...wouldn't u want to serve ur purpose? this shoe is so worn because someone loved it...they loved it to wear it ALL the time...they probably wore it everywhere.

im qouting
as davey weavy said -"When I die, I don’t want there to be a figurative tread untouched or a sole unworn. If there’s more than a few untwisting strings holding things together when I breathe my last breath, then I haven’t experienced or adventured to my full potential. I don’t want to die with possibilities unexplored or opportunities unrealized."
pretty deep right? so thats why i like to live my life one little adventure at a time, like trying something new, doing something diffrent...i always think that if u eat something weird that its just going to make you live that much longer...doing things that are our of my comfort zone...so yea, when i die, i dont want to be a new pair of shining adidas...i rather be a pair of old and fateful worn out sneaker. wrinkled, and worn by the choices i make while my body does its little dance of life..
SO to end this blog on a WAY lighter subject i'll just show u wuts my latest um...fetish? well not really but what ever, its my new obsession thing its the Dr.Martens incase u have been living under a freaking patchouli burger...they are this freaking awesome boots that are made during the war time that have war like qualities, there lean, mean and BAD ASS...they were 1st built to stand hard work and harsh weather and what not...and were later adopted but bad ass skinheads and soon earn the image of trouble makers, thief, and hardcore punks...so yea im gonna quit talking now so u can see how they look like...here..dont get jelous =)

these are the classics

the original 1980's version

the pair that im considering to buy 2nd hand from my fren

random guy lacing up his dr. martens

skin head

hardcore skinheads FREAKING AWESOME!!

a more human model wearing them...awesome right?

dr.Marten neon collection- (yeah eat ur heart out)

anybody who is anybody wears them love the yellow avril's

the sight of them just makes me thing of trouble makers

my lecturer's wife got this one...upclose they look better oh there shiny by the way

before u eat ur heart out i already ate mine...dr.Martens featuring Jean Paul Gaultier *dies*

they just scream BITCH dont they? LOVE!!

calf boots

these are how the pair that i wanted to get from my fren look like when there worn...hot and red

still dont like them?

check out the limited edition guitar hero version... BURN!

SO cute...

2010-11-26T09:34:00.000-08:00

im doing my research when i came across this picture...i found it kinda intresting...

*hint-look at the guys legs*...get it? haha

they say pictures worth a thousand words...well this one definitely speaks 1000 words for me

as forthis one...i wish my day could be replace by this..

Aquarious

2010-10-21T00:43:00.000-07:00

everybody is doing something there always going somewhere...but now i ask..what am i doing? where am i going?...i got a question from someone today...where do u see yourself in 5 years? honestly, i really cant tell you...its u ask me that same question 5 years ago i'd give you the same answer...but if it didnt matter then...would it matter now? does one get wiser as one get older? or does one choose to get wiser...u always read rich people being rich and how poor people became rich...but no one really tell u about middle class people...what happens to them? are we all just doomed?...does your life really follow a certain master plan? or is your life based on the decisions that you make?...

a dark mass

2010-10-07T01:10:00.001-07:00

what does it feel like
to see the dark mass spout
in front of u unexpectedly?

your body shakes with the sheer force
of the bark
each shout feels like a release

now ur looking at a pair of hand clutching
on the edge of the sink
distand , how very disconnected u feel

your head swirls your eyes start to roll
u breath but ur throat is clogged
by the remainder of the dark mass

and all you can do is pray for the
release

packing heave gear

2010-10-05T10:45:00.000-07:00

is the human imagination deeper then what it seems?

how do you know the limitation of your mind if every time you see something that triggers your senses you cant help but to imagine...what if it were you?

when somebody tells you a story do you imagined it the way it happen? or do u imagine how u wish it would have been?...
the human mind and eye crave action, destruction and tragedy more then anything. the prove is in everyday occurring things like when there is a building being demolished the crowd is always bigger, when theres a tragic movie people flock to the cinema. when somebody is acting a little different we gossip of the worst that could be. we like to see ourselves as hopeless creatures always looking at a higher power to make it better.

why do we crave to create drama out of everything that pass our way?

avatar- james cameron
-i was not the one to be shot light years into space
hugs&kisses

laying down a base fire

2010-09-15T02:13:00.000-07:00

how sick is this song?!!!love it!! it just makes me wanna get up and start dancing...WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

you know i know how

to make them stop and stare

as i zone out

im feeling really in the NEON mood

so i been doin much assignment...n i finally dyed a patch of my hair pink which turned blond but still looks GREAT! i feel more designer with this rather then just bland brown hair...so i still got alot of work to do i just update this to show that my blog is NOT dead...i'll try to put in some awesome pics of tattoo next time round...when im free

those dreamy blue eyes

2010-07-22T09:02:00.000-07:00

its been kinda long but i just wanted to say that im SUPER proud of my sister...in cheer 2010 to me she did the BEST...better then anyone out there...the commitment she spent, going for practicing, on SATURDAY MORNINGS...trust me i know after she keep bugging me to fetch her at 7 freaking am on SUNDAY mornings...i mean who actually wakes up at that kind of time on a SUNDAY?!!!during the weeks..no months before cheer 2010 she has been radiating with energy...sometimes she gets a little cranky like a typical teen but almost EVERYTIME shes just bouncing around the room n of the wall...cheer 2010 may not have given her an award but to me she wont the best n biggest award in my eyes...

honestly i NEVER particularly like cheerleaders...i still dont...n i probably never will..its just something about too much fake drama and the way they radiate false perkiness just disgust me, n d annoying part is that they dont just use it during their routine but they bring that attitude EVERY effing where they go...but this is just me just see my sister as a goofball doing all the splits and all that aerodynamic jumping, and karate chop flying kick whatever the hell u call that cheerleaders stunts...liz im SOO PROUD OF U!!i know i might not be there for many of ur event n things but im glad i was there to witness u beings in the ZONE n awesome

even if other people cant see, i saw all the hard work u put into making this work, from putting the squad together to collecting fees, finding a coach, coming up with ur own money, designing the uniform, choosing the color, finding a damn tailor, finding sponsors, sacrificing that 1 competition to teman me go c tokio hotel (even if u also wanted to see them) i know how much u also wanted to go to that competition, coming up with a routine, research, watching countless vids on cheering, learning from the vids, practicing on a lousy matress/mat with LIMITED space crashing into furnitures, staying up until dunno what time to do the banners n sign board...so yea even if i din rely give much of a damn, i still notice u doing all this n i salute u (world war 2 style)...if anyone asked me who my fav cheerleader in d whole world is i would say its you...

im so proud of u and i know that
chilli, bat, pierce, josh, pink, dunja, jeff, brownie and everyone from the acidjunkies are as proud of u as i am

A gunners day is never done

2010-07-01T08:52:00.000-07:00

so here is a dose of world war II history

facts:-

Between 1939 and 1945 the Allies dropped 3.4 million tons of bombs, An average of about 27,700 tons of bombs each month.
(thats 1 shit load of bombs)

80% of Soviet males born in 1923 didn't survive World War 2
(wonder what happen to the other 20%)

3 or 4 ground men were wounded for each killed
(so if i had a group of 5 ppl 1 is meant to die and the other 4 wounded)

6 bomber crewmen were killed for each one wounded
(bad statics)

There were 433 Medals of Honor awarded during World War 2, 219 of them were given after the receipiant's death

40,000 men served on U-Boats during World War 2; 30,000 never returned

The US Army had more ships that the US Navy.
(why?)

The German Air Force had 22 infantry divisions, 2 armor divisions, and 11 paratroop divisions. None of them were capable of airborne operations. The German Army had paratroops who WERE capable of airborne operations.
(haha...get it?)

84 German Generals were executed by Hitler
(better not get on his bad side)

Among the first "Germans" captured at Normandy were several Koreans. They had been forced to fight for the Japanese Army until they were captured by the Russians and forced to fight for the Russian Army until they were captured by the Germans and forced to fight for the German Army until they were capture by the US Army.
(koreans? really? so sesat)

in the concentration camps an average of 6000 jews were killed in the gas chamber daily
(my advise...dont be a german jew during WW II)

women's hair (shaved from the heads of victims before they entered the gas chambers) was recycled for use in products such as rugs and socks.
(SOCKS!!! out of dead ppls hair?can u imagine if ur feets were freezing in the night?...i'd rather let my toes drop off)

Most members of the Waffen SS were not German.
(let me guess...they were koreans?)

The only nation that Germany declared war on was the USA.
(so much for draging all of europe into war...)

best funny fact:-
A number of air crewmen died of farts.yes u read correct FARTS (ascending to 20,000 ft. in an un-pressurized aircraft causes intestinal gas to expand 300%!)

heres a poem written by a pregnant wife of a soider that went of to fight in world war II..

WAR BABY
He has not even seen you, he
Who gave you your mortality;
And you, so small, how can you guess
His courage or his loveliness?

Yet in my quiet mind I pray
He passed you on the darkling way -
His death, your birth, so much the same -
And holding you, breathed once your name.

- Pamela Holmes

thats all for now...nites...
dont let those torpedoes wake u...

2010-06-30T10:36:00.000-07:00

i need to bitch..like big time...
OMG!!!!! SO F**king frustrated, i feel intense and claustrophobic, my fingers feel like curling and my ears feel like i just heard an orchestra of fingernail scratching on a chalk board,

!!!! @%$#@%&^%$!!!!!...why cant they just have microsoft f**king words for computer genius and microsoft f**king words for normal people?! GOSH! ITS 1.30 freaking am, and i cant F**KIng get the DAMNED Page numbers right, cuz microsoft words apparently has a mind of its own to just put random numbers on random pages...when i put page 1 as page 1...page 3 becomes page 1 also then page 57 becomes page 54 and page 2 becomes page 4...then when i correct it page 1 has NO number...page 2 becomes page 3 and the rest of the pages are right...then i do it again and all my documents are gone...when i undo it all my documents are jumble...and it goes like that on and on for 30 freaking minutes...i mean W.T.freaking.H then when i go out and wanna start new, a message pops up... 'do u wanna save the changes made on this doc.?'...i mean SERIOUSLY? do u thing i wanna save any changes that u fucked up for me?...um let me check....NO!! so i go back in and try to do it again...n guess wut...lo and behold it all happens A.G.A.I.N!!!! BAH! UGGGH!!!!! i feel like shooting someone up the nostrils so the brain will come splattering out from the top! *shoots myself in the left knee* and dies..
i dont care now...im gonna go press publish post then im gonna click SHUT FREAKING DOWN and crawl into my BED and fall asleep..

kiss me im beautiful...

2010-06-25T07:50:00.000-07:00

WARNING: NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED
i love art
but among all the kind of art that i like, the one that i ABSO(FRAKING)LUTELY LOVE would have to be body art...yes any sort of permanent body modification. piercing,tattoo,branding,scarification etc etc...
as for now im gonna talk about a little bit about MY LIMITED knowledge about branding and scarification

branding - is very similar to branding a cow. farmers used this method to identify their life stock so that they dont get mixed up with their neighbors livestock. its more like burning the skin

scarification - is the straight forward cutting away of the skin...

this are some pictures of the traditional branding of a cow...
the branding iron is heated

then the red hot iron is pressed onto the skin

the outcome

this are some images of branding and scarification on people
this are some of the thing that BLOW my mind

this is the wound right after its been clean

this is the wound during the heaing process

THE PROCESS
the cutting away of the skin...not for the fainthearted

healing process

1st design freshly healed (still abit pinkish) and the biggining of the 2nd design

both design nicely healed

branding and tattoo combined

fade away style...LOVE the idea

Beautifully done

The MOST beautiful brandindg i have ever seen...the way the scar heal the thickness of the scar is all level and the artwork detail all included...i can say this is the most perfect one i've ever seen
artwork done by john joyce a true artist in my eye
I AM gonna get one of these....DEFINITELY,
hopefully in the not to distant future...

Now u know y i love body art?

pink - aerosmith
-you can be my flamingo
hugs& kisses <333

life is a mayo jar..the rest is just sand...

2010-06-21T01:17:00.001-07:00

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class

And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand

And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –

Things that if everything else was lost

And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.

star power

2010-05-02T07:19:00.001-07:00

so as u know i dont really post about my day to day life...but this post is an exception...because yesterday is one of the BEST day in my life...
so here goes..it all happen when my dearest handsome told me that my FAVOURITE band of all is making their way down to malaysia...
so i set out on a quest to hunt down the tickets...so i finally bought 2 tix to go for the concert...1 for me and another for my sis...so fast forward to 1 MAY 2010...a day to remember...a day when

came to MALAYSIA
owh yeah!!!
so pictures i took speak more then my words...so here

waiting in line to get their autograph

my darl

my sister

The concert

BILL KAULITZ

TOM KAULITZ

BILL KAULITZ

ME

MY CRAZY SISTER

ALL HUMANOID

All my Tokio Hotel stuff

all stars...
-6 TH humanoid cd cover
-1 TH scream cd cover
-1 AAR drumstick
-1 RM 10, ry craike autograph
-2 RM 1- dylan graves autograph
-1 backstreet boys concert tix
-2 avril guitar pick ( 1-pink, 1-Black)
-1 AAR guitar pick
-1 GC good morning revival cd cover

zoom into me- tokio hotel
one day i will be ready to go,
see the world behind my wall
hugs & kisses <33333333

the beast - jefferson peters

2010-04-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

in time of great annoyance one always wishes to rebel,
may it be against the sun or moon or stars,
like a jug of incents one is easily disposed,
the the beholder embraces the jug of which
keeps saves its precious contents
then worshiped its content till the river run dry,
then disposes of it;

tying the hinds of a donkey may be hard,
but tying the hinds of a donkey,
and its offspring together is impossible,
while the life of a donkey may be laborous and difficult
it has no inside,
everything is just as is,
labour is a choice, while the smart ones get away
the hard workers stays,
duped of freedom ever time is set clear,
while a wolf may get away with a sheep clothing
everyone can still tell the diffrence between a
donkey and a sheep
the intensity of the life of a donkey
is as much as a speck of dust gathered on a dukes coat
therefore kicking and bouncing is what
the beast would do...

dont you just wanna...

2010-03-15T07:28:00.000-07:00

eat this right now

get this (massage i mean)

see this tree live

squeel at this picture

own this wig

own all this

live during this zaman

smash/punch/break this face

travel around like this

be a part of this

hug/calm this guy

came up with this idea

get tattooed by this guy

have this guys brain

get a tatoo like this

live in a world as magical as this

own this range of toy again

draw like this

create this range of master pieces

star in this musical

have eyes/hair like this

take a pic like this with the one u love

ROCK this look

have a casual conversation whith this guy

be featured in this movie/wear all d costumes

see him preform at least once

get tattoed up like her

get this hair cut

do this

play fetch with these creature

wear this shoe

ride this roller coaster

drive this car

go to this college

swim in this pool

laugh at this guy/see this n motion

go here for a holiyday

Rock out with her (PINK)

my family is a box of chicken rice...smiles

2010-02-21T08:54:00.000-08:00

i was bored so this is what i did...
yes i know that im suppose ta put up stuff that i promised in the last post but im just gonna have to postpone that to a diffrent time...anyway heres wut i did...
not many people know that i have a collection of a very diffrent sort...its not your ussual stamp collecting
i collect the movie tickets that i watch...i dunno if u guys do it but yeah...it started way back when i went out with a bunch of friends n one of them said that he keeps the movie tickets of nice movie that he watch...n he was gonna keep that movie we were watching punya ticket...but for how long i dunno...(and that was my first ticket that i keep-i still got it now )n ever since then i always keep my movie ticket..sure many got lost in the process of transfering them from my wallet to my collection box so what i manage to get was this...and since i was kinda wanting to do this for a long time already, i decided to do it now...so i made a record n this is what i found out..

from the oldest ticket dating back to 2004
1. i have spend a total of RM1461.00 ++ (NOT counting the tickets that got lost) on movies alone..

2.the most cheapest movie =RM5
the most expensive movie = RM18 (i dint know movies can cost that much...its a 3-d movie btw)

3. the oldest ticket is
7 FEB 2004
GOTHIKA
18 pl 7.20p.m
cinema 2 seat N12
sunway TGV

4. the most recent is
16 FEB 2010
Percy Jackson
U 4.00p.m
cinema 10 seat F11
KLCC TGV

gonna keep on collecting them till i turn 99 n there totaly faded that the ticket is practicly crispy!!

thats about it ok im gonna sleep now...nites!!
trees- Keiko Matsui
come home i've been waiting for you
hugs n kisses <333333

all this

2010-02-16T08:37:00.000-08:00

just post this to let ppl know that im not dead yet...
yes im indulging in everything chinese new year-ish
n all my ang pow-nes
yay!! didididi...
i think i just might do my next blog of all the things that i love...as in material things...mostly what i surround myself with/whats in my room...
since my new phone has a better (not d best in the world) but good enough for me, camera...i'll be taking pics of random things in my life that holds meaning to me...every individual thing means something to me either at that particular time or even now...sentimental things, simple things that bring me happyness just by looking at them...
purpuse: i moved alot since i was born/ when i could remember...taking residence in many diffrent places a rough total of:-
3 houses
5 apartments
and among this i've lived in 3 difrent countries
move to europe n back to asia 2 times

i've lost many things in the process of moving so much... thats y when now that i get the chance i'll make the next(hopefully) post of all sentimental things for my own save keeping...and im letting who ever reads my blog a little peek as to why i keep little meaningless things...

i dream a dream-(original singer)

the rain is falling hard.
and its getting dark in here.
let us run free.
lets run when the darkness comes.
to where ever the wind blows.
be it the ends of the world.
i dont know what was.
i dont know what will be.
i know only that you are near.
that you are here.
to know all this this is us,
all this is we,
this..is...
ME -denise

smile though your heart is breaking

2010-01-31T09:18:00.000-08:00

my heart is aching

so many people im trying to please its just tearing me apart...one pull me this way n another d other way...so upset...my eyes are sore from crying already...im so tired...so tired...trying to please everyone is just bringing myself to pain...all this while im trying so hard to please all the one i love...now i feel so alone...i wanted it so bad to work out...i hate to ask this...but why?...why?

i feel so sad and alone i dunno what to do anymore...i want to talk it over...but it seems i cant talk to anyone...because speaking my point will bring more sadness unto the people i love...n because its the people i love that i trust this whole time to talk to that now i cant talk to anyone any more...but u probably wont get what im trying to say here...its ok...i dont expect u too...the feeling of sadd and lonelyness that im feeling is not possible to express in words...

i want to talk to you...but talking to u will only hurt u n turn our relationship in to a state where we love each other out of pity...n i DONT ever want that...i DONT want people to love me cuz they pity me...so crying is my ONLY option but i have no shoulder to cry on...just a cold lifeless pillow...

i feel so angry...and it bearks me heart even more...why do people still continue to love me? even if i hurt them so bad? wont it just be easier if everybody just give up hope on me?know that im a lost hope n start on? leave this mess i created for myself...beacuse of my selfishness i want everbody to love me...now...i dont have the capasity to love everyone back...n its all just crashing down on me...i wish that i could just stad by n watch my world crash around me rather then be under all the ruble....

i think i'll go to boston,
i think i'll start a new life,
where no one know my name.
boston- augustana
needs hugs n kisses denise

blueper

2010-01-27T06:31:00.000-08:00

some people are so touchy...say 1 thing they get pissed off dont say something they also get pissed off...i mean WTH?

n what is wrong with all these amature kids these day...there so annoying it makes me wanna eat a racoons bladder whole...i mean come on la...ur just a bunch of midgets please controll your retard lvl...stay where u should...dont go do sum fucktarded thing on pourpous where you know that someone if bount to take a picture of u n post it on facebook just to show everyone how much of a fucktard you really are...please u just look like a little midget jiggaboo on helium...do allow some capasity for a brain to grow in that full of shit skull that u got there...i just wished that some one was acctually there to see u develope some...probably of all d alcohol consumption u fucked it up yourself...u think u so cool just cuz u down 2345665665312 bottles of beer? i drink alcohol LESS often then you n yet when where at a party u cant hold your alcohol longer than 5 min of consuming it...thats now how u drink alcohol bitch...u suppose to be able to hold it...then call yourself a winner...gosh u never grow up...i hated u i always did, n i dont liked you...i never did...money can only buy you so many friends...and friends can only get you so far...1day youre gonna end up broke n lonely...then u wished you acctually did something that would save you...but till then i'll just watch you burn out...

"fire will always burn itself out, always"

now run along home to mommy...if im youre mommy i'd bitch slap you long ago n ask you to freaking grow a pair since you love it so much...im done with this bullshit

empire state of mine
hugs n kisses <33

in the shady side of youth

2010-01-16T10:33:00.001-08:00

overwhelmed all this hectic-ness is finally starting to take a toll on me...early mornings...everyday...no saturday/sundays sleep in for me...n late nights everynite cuz thats the only time i spend with the 1 person who i feel even cares at all for me...im gonna be 20 soon...many people say that i got my whole life laid out infront of me...but i think...really? is having a totaly uncertain future all that nice...well i atleast would like even if its just a little sad pitiful bit of hope...

i feel like a seed in a shady garden with fully grown trees sourrounding me... a seed produce by science using nature...2 completely diffrent world...i grow into a little plant with few leaves...nurtured by a kind lady..a lady called mom...she gave me water...but water alone wont keep me alive so my leaves start to turn brown...once in a while someone will come with an artificial light...n then they would leave and so will my source of light...then only recently came a guy n he notice something...that what im missing is sunlight...so he brought me out under the sun...took care of me...if there were even the slightest sign of weed he'll remove it...he loved me...so my bark became strong,my leaves become greener, but most of all my roots started to grow...but now rainy clouds threaten to blot out the sun...and the only way for me to live would be to cruely uproot me and send me to a different garden...

sweet surrender

2009-12-29T23:31:00.000-08:00

so today was my interview day...overall it went pretty well...so im glad...d dragon lady acctualy pretty nice...so the company im gonna go slave for is called "monica quen"...its like an oriental chinese clothes shop + british idia... its much cheong sam...some modern chillax clothes n alot of zen-ness...d place is pretty clam so i thing i'll be calm ish...my working hurs will b sort of bitchy its 10-8 its all d way in damansra heights almost reaching bangsar...its a meidum-ish sort of brand...but since it kinda major in cheong sam d next few weeks will b very hectic...n im joining them on d best time...next mon i start...n straight away d next day (tues) were goin ta pinang ta set up a stall for d chinese new year sales...n after that (i dunno when) is a trip ta melacca ta set up a stall der also...so yeah...lost of work...n they're not waisting ANY time...so here r sum stuff from d shop thats on sale...

n this is how d shop looks like

-to jake the son i never had...i love you
America's Suitehearts- fall out boy
hugs n kisses <333333333

let us run when the darkness fall

2009-12-28T19:32:00.000-08:00

so its 3 more days till new year...n im so freaked out...im petrified of the next year...normally i love it when a new year comes...it usually means time for new things...but next year is just gonna b crazee...

1. im starting my internship on 4 jan...
2. i heard that my boss would b pretty strict
3. i hv to stand 3 months of this lady (the boss)
4. my final fashion show is next year...it has to be PERFECT
5. my course finish next year
6. impress italian lecturers with my collection n get a scholarship to italy
7. if no.6 does not turn out then, my visa is only up to next year november...which means either get a job or leave d country.

im so dead
neway so thats d update...im panicking n im gonna go print my resume for my internship...d interviews tmr at 11am by d way...hope i get accepted...

-i need your grip to keep me from falling apart
lass uns laufen- tokio hotel
hugs&kisses <333333

sleep is just a dream

2009-12-19T11:21:00.000-08:00

its 3.21am n i cant fall asleep...tmr im goin out early with my darl...which means i NEED to get sum rest but for sum fucked reason i just cant sleep...i dunno wut happen to me but i guess im just being realy paranoid n thinking way to much...so rite now im feeling like a sad, lost, puppy that has been kicked around...

my future? well heres d perfect word to describe it....FUCKED...

yea pretty much considering i had ppl nice enuff to fuck it up for me...

before this i just wanted to bolt out of this demented country every chance i got dreaming big about other country n goin back to germany...living there...but then i met him...my darl...i love him and he makes me happy...many people around me cant seem to c that n i dunno why...right now he is d only one that has enough of my heart to break it...he change my life alot...not that i flipped it 180 just for him, but he make me realize all the little things i never realy used to give damn about...he makes me laugh when i dont even wanna smile...when im down he cheers me up, when im cold he warms me, when im in pain he makes me laugh so hard my pain is gone n my ribs hurt from laughing instead, even if i fall asleep every night n ditch him he still comes over n teman me...

the point is what im thinking of is that after my coll i MUST leave n these is one of the reason why i dont wanna leave...thats why i cant sleep...

-n so it goes...
please tell me what im suppose to do?
hugs n kisses<3

whe blue skys go grey

2009-12-10T09:13:00.000-08:00

i feels the urge to bitch slap a certain someone....

btw...its my last day of coll today...so yea im kinda happy...i got d pattern pieces to make a kimono...whoooo and i got it in 1/4 scale...incase u guy dunno what that means, 1/4 scale is the size of barbie....so yeah i can make kimono for barbie...anyone wanna derma me 1 barbie doll? just so i can try out my next collection?

hugsnkisses <3333

i like to make myself belive that planet earth turns slow-ly

2009-12-05T01:38:00.000-08:00

im a very good person in general...but i sometimes like to be an internet psycho like i like to treaten people with body-ly harm and that i will kung fu u...i also want ta let u know that i master in the ancient art of ORIGAMI(not true,i just had nothing to say)...ok babai...

-and now that youre eyes are sore from crying...
-SENDING christmas cheere! your way
-faye wong- track 2 (dunno d title)
hugs and drunken kisses <3333333

when ur dreaming fishes do acctually eat ur toe

2009-12-02T06:43:00.001-08:00

i was about to go take a shower when my sis went in to take her shower...so now i just decided mite as well write a new post...so yeah just got back from 1u....so tired

1. tmr im having another fashion show.
2. had to go to the venue which is at (mardigras bar/club) for the brefing about tmr
3. was doing stuff d whole day getting redy 4 tmr
4. i stand practicly d whole day
5. my head is pounding
6. coordinating models *dies* (models are one of the worst creature to ever roam the face of the earth)
7.rehersal
8.listening to loud pounding music....mind u i love LOUD POUNDING MUSIC...but since the fashion show theme is 70's so yeap....LOUD POUNDING 70's *^&@$#%@*&*^ MUSIC.
(daddy.daddy cool, thats d way uh-huh uh-huh i like it uh-huh uh-huh)
9. to top of everything 2 freaking HUGE ASS STRAY DOGS (1 is a german shepered) decided to camp outside my house main gate...last time i had this but that was a skinny binny emo dog....but these 2 new stray dogs are like MASSIVE there like BEARS really BIG ones...not lying....i nvr seen a german shepered to huge b4....it must be a mutant dog...(there like jacob from twilight when he is a wolf). all this is due to cuz i got 3 female dogs...yay me...

but even if i am freaking tired im still rely psyched about tmr...another excuse to party party n drink (free flow) hahaha

ok i hear my sis is done...im gonna go shower now...babai

*people around me are being RELY hyppocrete (cant spell)

*i need to shoot myself in the foot*
the pounding of my head- denise
hugs n kisses <33333

i will stab u with my usb cable

2009-11-26T04:26:00.000-08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!! OMG!!!!! whoooo
right now i feel like a TOTAL GEEK!!!!i feel like this guy

ok wanna know why?
here it comes....i solved a rubicks...OMG!!!! i know rite
yea its abit impossible but i hey i finally did it...
haha i can check that off my to do list b4 i die lol...
all thanks to this guy 'pogobat' on utube...heres d link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IW_BBp3FPMQ
no i cant teach u cuz i cant solve it myself unless i refer to the vid
haha but go ahead to this guy he does it a little fast so u gotta hv patients and watch it over n over depends how fast u can learn...took me about 1 day? so u just gotta figure out anyway i got my cube as a christmas present last year and i manage to solve it only this year hahaha...mum bought it for me at toys'r'us so yea...its the 3X3X3 kind so its pretty easy...i guess...im gonna keep it to prove to some ppl that i solved then imma mess it up n try ta solve it again...yay...here a pic its not mine but its the same brand as mine...

warning i read some pages that dun simply buy random rubiks cube...cuz some of them are really not that nice...n d pieces/colour come out really fast and the original colour is
(red, blue, yellow ,orange, green, white)
some fake ones have (pink, purple,beige...etc etc)
just asking you to get the ori cuz its easier when u learn from the net...n its an investment so yea...haha thats all for now...
babai

- jagged little pill
yiruma- bella's lullaby
hugs and nerdy kisses...

lalalalala

2009-11-24T01:08:00.000-08:00

and so its the 24th of november...soo fast...in one month time it'll be christmas...just the chance ta get to relax and everything...im so exausted this few days and i dont even know why...i got a couple of ppls gift in my mind but i have gottan any of them yet...so now im thinkin...dads back so means i get to buy new stuff yeaps...oh and im so FREAKING addicted to facebook games its driving me crazy...yeap...the window display for ed hardy window is up already and i so proud of it...haha alot of hard work and we did it till 4++am...alot of hand work and stuff...now i dunno...something been goin on in my head...im no longer ejoying something im doin in my life im not gonna mention it but...i dunno...so yeap...so there are a bunch of movies that i cant wait ta watch.. new moon, princess n d frog, d next harry potter, 2012...n alot more...i know next year has a few good shows so yeah...cant wait....and i wanna go up ta genting again...soon...so yeap thats about all...

-i want magnum ice cream

blablablablablabalabla bloop

2009-11-17T22:58:00.000-08:00

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
just wanted to share this awesome news with u guys....
my newest assignment is....(drum rollssssssssss)

doing the christmas window display for ED HARDY official stall in KLCC!!!!whooooo...i tell u i cant be mush happier

1. ED HARDY= my top fav brand
2. millions of pop stars wear ed hardy people like bill kaulitz,beckham,madonna,d pussy cat doll,...
3. its a well know brand...and alot alot more reasons

so yea the management said...do a tropical christmas feel...so thats what we gotta do...
(yes it really is 4 d stall window, not just a regular assignment)
beats all you guy other extreemly boring homework/assignment
haha be jelous!
ok i gotta go research and brainstorm now babai!

alanis morisette - ironic
some thins are just really ironic
hugs and kisses <333333

the dance of the jumping potatoes

2009-11-16T04:08:00.000-08:00

heres my fashion show bitches!!! whooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! partayy lalalalalalala

my boy friend can drive better than your boy friends
hand alanis morissette
hugs n kisses

i will stab you with a piece of lemon- aid

2009-11-16T01:38:00.000-08:00

so this is my opinion on a song...
just hear this song on the radio, i remember hearing it as a kid during the 90's and i never rally paid any attention to the lyrics...but seriously...read the lyrics i think anyone can definately relate to this...haha loved it...i wasnt having the best day...and after hearing this song it totally made my day...it made me reliase that im not the only one having a bad day.(i mean when we having a bad day we tend to focus on ourself and forget that other people mite not be having the best day also)...and this singer perfectly put all the emotion into this song...she takes whatever bad thing and face it with a sense of humor..thats one of the reason why i like this song...able to take something negative and face it with a twisted positive sarcastic attitude...it also has a very 90's feel that will definately bring u back to the 90's zaman....the best zaman in my life....

i present to you
alanis morissette-ironic
(if ur a 90's kid u mite remember listening to it)

An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late (always happens to me in the morning)
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife (also always happens to me)
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think
A little too ironic...and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out

a traffic jam when youre already late
Alanis Morissette - Ironic
hearts and kisses <3333333333333
go figure

despo plan with 'soh hai' frens

2009-11-11T04:11:00.000-08:00

im gonna go genting....like tomorrow...totaly unplanned we go n do stupid things....

rule 1 - MUST wear only spaghetti strap shirt.
rule 2 - MUST weare shorts
rule 3 - MUST wear bikini top inside (no bras allowed)
rule 4 - if u ignore any of the rules above u are to spend d whole day with only your spaghetti strap top WITHOUT a bra.
rule 5 - u are allowed 1 jacket
rule 6 - must bring along a t-back/ g-string
rule 7 - if u forget rule 6 u have to take off your underwear and keep it in d car d whole day.
rule 8 - any make-up WE applied on ur face must not be rubbed off until all pictures are taken
rule 9 - u must not refuse if we wanna take ANY picture of you at ANY given time
rule 10 - try not to get hypothermia...

if im not lazy i will post the pictures...

peter picked a pack of pickeled pepper <3

2009-11-09T03:43:00.000-08:00

mixed emotion about everything...always happen when i read a story book...i tend to adopt the same emotion at the characters in the story...so rite now im just feeling kinda like bla... idk...i need to do something that will get my adranaline (cant spell) pumping...

so goin back in time...

diz afternoon...i got a bunch of fabrics that are like so brain-fart...there awesome beautiful,purdee, cute, brilliant...and everything else...yes they are and if i were u i'd be soo jelous but yeah...

last sat...i watch d time travellers wife (thats the book im reading now btw) wid my beautiful nana on sat...hvnt seen her in a long long time we did d ussual...*ahem* stupid stuff we always do when were out together...i spend ...half d day basking in total nana-ness yay!yea i almost cried during that movie...well to admit there was a stray tear...but only 1...so yeah...um kinda d best love story since the notebook...

-you can let go now, daddy
stan- eminem
hugs and kisses <333

caould i play with your twangger?

2009-11-05T03:55:00.000-08:00

hahaha i just really needed to share this with everyone lol....super...rainbow got alot of funny shit...
i high lighted sum of the super funny parts...go ahead and get a gud laugh
heres the video

00:17 - d guy almost said foreskin
00:25 - "i cant get it in"
"well you did last night"
00:54 - "yesterday we played with your balls"
"are we gonna play with your friends balls today"
01:36 - "jane's got 2 lovely meraka's"
01:47 - " we could hear you all banging away" (
" banging can be fun!"
"yes and i was banging away all last night with rod and rodger"
"yes but it broke my plucking instrument" (i nearly fell of my chair from laughing so hard)
02:36 - " you could bounce your balls at the same time if you like"
" or if you dont have any, you could ask a friend if u could play with his"
03:00 - " dont forget to get your twanggers out and play with your balls"

ice-cream originated from eating igloos

2009-11-05T03:08:00.000-08:00

just bang car
i learn a lesson today that camry is waaaaaaaaaaaay stronger than civic....like (x100000)
-no i wont explain further
babai

brain WAVE concert tonight!

2009-10-30T23:22:00.001-07:00

going to AAR now WHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait 4 these songs...

-dance inside
-dirty little secret
-i wanna
-swing swing
-move along
-it ends tonight
-night drive
-top of the world
-gives you HELL

muahahahhahahahaha...

-i'll give the final blow
-it ends tonight- AAR
muacks <5555

Go quiet through the trees

2009-10-30T19:36:00.000-07:00

so last nite i went to watch Jennifer's body with Megan Fox and it was awesome!!! sum parts freaked me out but over all d movie was REALLY AWESOME!!! and the soundtrack is my kind of music...anyway there was this 1 band in the movie called 'low shoulders' with the lead singer adam brody its not a real band...i think....its juz 4 d movie...anyway they sing an AWESOME...i dun think its adam brody's voice but what ever it still sounds good...heres d vid n lyrics...

All alone in an empty room
Nothing left but the memories of when i had my best friend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And i see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hanging over me
And your face, i can see...

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you
Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
Until i'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
About the places we would go when we were off
And all that we were gonna find.
And i remember our seeds grow
And how you cried when you saw
The first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
The branches hanging over me?
Can you see
The love you left inside of me?
In my face
Can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz i'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
Until i'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
No-oo... no-oo... no
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And i'm still here...

Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And i'm still here...
No...

Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And i'm still here...

But you're not coming back.
(And I'm still here breathing now)
And you're not coming back.
(I'. still here breathing now)
Cuz you're not coming back
(I'm still here breathing now)
Until i'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

adam brody=HOT

ps: megan fox is hot also

-I'm still here breathing now
-LOW SHOULDER - Through The Trees lyrics
hugs n kisses <333333333333333333333333333
xoxoxo

scream and shout, cream then pout

2009-10-29T05:19:00.000-07:00

things to do

-just do it
-do me
-doo-doo
-do do do...hehe he said doodoo
-do the makarena
-do the heller keller
-do the woogie boogie

just cu the sky is blue does not mean there are no gray clouds

scream is all i hear this days...
what am i doin wrong?
words dont make sence
its like being underwater
everything is blur, echoed and far away
trying to shut it all out
i love you but putting me under such a place
takes me back, yes all the way back
i've tried, i really did
i tried to be everything u needed
in trying i allowed myself to think it actually works
for awhile there it all seem to work
the perfect life, the perfect family
the perfect home,
is it true? did u ever really loved me?
i know im not suppose to ask such a thing
but thats whats goin on in my head
im strong yes, but im also only human
i do feel pain and i do feel hurt
u say i abandoned you
so now that i ditch MY life
just to spend time with you
you scream at me every chance you get
what am i suppose to do?
i am not trying to upset you
gosh that is the furthest thing from my mind
if i wanted to upset you
there are worst things i could do
and talking to you
thats the thing you made impossible
yes, it never was possible
no matter who i talk to
you're just gonna win anyway
and do what u do best
make me feel like...nothing...
you hit me...
did you even see if i was wrong?
so right now im sorry
for everything
im sorry for being a trouble
im sorry for ever coming into your life
im sorry for being there
im sorry for being here
im sorry for being now
im sorry for even being
im sorry, im sorry
crying and feeling sorry for myself
is no point under you rule
you made that extreemly loud and clear

where is the love now
its all just dissapated
and the question im asking is
was it even there?

the air is so dense with panic, i can even taste it
dirty little secret- AAR

up your bleep

2009-10-28T03:10:00.000-07:00

WooooooooHoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my laptop working again!!! yay...sumthing went be-jugies on my graphic card...so yeap warrenty solved money wise...n its done now its perfect...yay...its just my graphic card that went cacat...so all my memory n stuff is save...hah!

you can stick it in her sock...
this is it- michael jackson
hugs n kisses

a lost hope

2009-10-22T03:38:00.000-07:00

ok now u cross the dam border n im effing pissed...why would i call u? waste my bill only...i did my part, i try to get u ta talk but u running away...what impression does that give me? u think 4 urself...y u keep draging this on? u can stay pissed but u dont even make an effort to try and talk to me...i tot u were a better person than that...u got time to bitch in ur blog but no time to face ur problem or send a simple text, even msn or facebook? come on la...asking me to belive ur lame excues that u hv no time is abit stupid...i guess u can forget our friendship now...trying to mend things now is worthless i dont see the point if im doing the whole thing n ur just ignoring...

-did venus blow your mind?
drops of jupiter-?

nailpolish

2009-10-19T10:18:00.000-07:00

Deep Blue Sight
sailing the deep blue sea,
all by my lonesome
in my lonesome boat
waiting for the creatures of the blue
to take me down, down, down
into a place not known to mankind
this is where i will feel alive again
renewed and taken
something captures my sight

An Angels Harp
its the most beautiful sound yet
like a single not...hovering, unwavering
high above the others unmmovin
as the streem of steady low growl of the bass
pass it sits there,
the most beautiful thing
juz listening to it evokes amotion
able to move the mountaind of 'beor'
the mighty trees of 'wanwarlden'
and finally awaken the beast of its slumber

so youre brad pitt

2009-10-19T01:09:00.000-07:00

feeling really dissapointed... just wanna talk n clear things out...whats the problem? i dunno if ur doin it to avoid me or not...it could be my wrong judgment...but no matter how u try to drag this on sooner or later we gotta face it...i know that this past days are not to good for you...so? lifes a bitch and u gotta deal with things you dont like sometimes...so draging this on will only make u even more angry...the more time we think about it the more pissed we get so the worst the situation gets so...this is my point...i tried getting down to things 2 times n both time u ignore...why? do u think its worth it were angry at each other? why are we even angry at each other?...just my question...

-stand up for what u say
shania twain-that dont impress me much
hugs n kisses

enough said

2009-10-16T01:06:00.001-07:00

because this is hurting the people i love im letting it go...brushing it off my shoulders, like dirt...yes i am above all this.

go figure

diamond star ship

2009-10-16T00:51:00.000-07:00

i need to go for a swim...this few day i think im gonna take a swim suit where ever i go cuz ppl tend to call me unexpectedly n ask me go swim...i need to borrow someones cool dsl cam to take pic of my beautiful boyfriend

cuz i hv taken sum pic of my younger sis b4 n they turn out kinda perfect so yea im planning on my darl...just that i need a cam 1st...haha...mayb borow fr alex again... idk n the next venue is kinda perfect i plan everything ad...

i feel like painting...like landscape...or either some contemporary art...cuz i love contemporary art...

-its just 'click'
howie day- collide
hugs n kisses <333

starry starry night

2009-10-10T18:07:00.000-07:00

ok look if ur not happy with my post then why would you even bother reading it? why would you even bother coming back and checking to see if i continue dissing you? ok u want a piece of my mind? well ur gonna get it and dont say you dint ask for it

1. this is MY page - for YOUR little infant mind that cant think to much...the general defination is that this little page kinda belongs to ME....bummer for YOU ,I know rite?

2. in this space i am king - which means i rule and only i can set the rules. i say whats right n whats wrong. even if im wrong...im still right.

3.I am allowed to write, say, do, change, decorate anything I want.

4. YOU who are just a visitor get to ONLY READ. and think which i know is a little to much for you. bummer again

5.if you are unclear about what i said earlier please do read the HEADER and if you sadly cant find it, cuz it makes much more sence then yours. it says "MY mind MY world"

6.or u can even refer to my link bitch..it says deniselittleworld...go figure.

7.youre ok with me? well good for you but im not ok with you...bummer again!

my post are dedicated to no one and everyone...i write about things in general, rarely will i write about my daily life and wut coffee i had for breakfast in wut specific cup and how many calories i added to my body weight...c cuz those things i dont care about...i dont bother to record them down and think about them...i dont see the point or the good it brings out...

so if u do feel offended then good i was probably aiming at you and to all the people like you...u see, its just the way i work i will write what i like and think. it does not have to particularly be about a specific person unless i state...when i speak in a diff language infront of you. u think ur d only person i do it to? dont u think i kinda do it to alot others? why are you people so offended?

i know its your style to make everything i say about you...well im sorry if u feel that way...and im sorry you are immune to feeling that youre above all this..come on its a cruel world and it wont be me thats the only person that ur gonna be offended by...so please think...ur old enough 2

if u feel so bothered why then do you come back? just ignore me...i dont care...i wont feel any offence to have u not visit my page...i've been doing just fine before that anyway...you reacting the way u are just makes me even more happy...dont u see thats just waht i've been aiming for..GOSH!!

starry starry night
if i were a boy-beyonce knowls
hugs n kisses<3333333333>

rocking the nanny jammies

2009-10-09T01:18:00.000-07:00

do u know how good it feels to have my convers'ed foot smudging all your preppy lipstick around?...yea i win

i know u realy wish you were me right now..i reli enjoy seeing you make a fuss about this...thats how much of a bimbo you are...

some people are so touchy

-communication is alot like the wind
waldorfworldwide-good charlotte
hugs&&kisses <33

i found a small potato

2009-10-03T00:01:00.000-07:00

YES WHOOOOO!!!!! my fashion show is finally OVER!!! had a real great great great time...d venue was AWESOME, it set the mood just right. crazy backstage.

so in d morning woke up at 6.30 A.M then went ta pick up aron drove down ta pj pick up a few more friends n stuff...then went down to kl...(so cute my darl sleep beside me in d car snoring so loud summore...) anyway im just lazy ta write EVERYTHING taht happen down so im putting it down in point form yay!

-set up the place
-model arrive
-fitting for model
-lunch (d food SUCKED so bad so i din eat anything)
-dry rehersal
-with shoes rehersal
-get ready model hair & make up (SUPER LONG)
-set up more things at the venue
-stand by
-FASHION SHOW!!!

so i had a blast! it was really awesome had so much fun...of cuz all d ppl i love was there, thats the best part...so after the show hang out with my friends did some interview...took a million and 1 pics...then came the after party yay drank a little, dance with almost everyone there...we did jackass things like kissing a girl (omg)...IT WAS A FREAKING DARE

then after that we walked with alene n marcus to another club i dun rmb d name...i think it was maison?...haha danced with my darl...and that was the 1st time i ever i saw a real live pole dancer....so intresting...makes me wanna learn pole dancing...do some CRAZY stuff with my darl..so yea after that it was about 2am sumthing we went to mac.d all with red eye...ate a little then finally came home n slept till 2pm haha...

-rocking the house
the show must go on-moulin rouge
hugs and kisses

infant wizards will kill you in your sleep

2009-09-27T21:24:00.000-07:00

FUCK!!! MY FUCKIN MALE MODEL BAILED ON ME!!!!!!!..

my fashion show is in 4 FREAKING DAYS and i have NO male model!!! die die die!!!i juz hope ricardo have sum free models that can work for me!!SHIT!!!
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!-

*sometime when people speak in a diffrent language does not mean that they are talking bad or even talking ANYTHING a little bit related to YOU...so please dont have such a big head and dont let you ass overgrow your tiny pants...use your silly brain and think...imagine if u were to vacation to arab...then wat?u seriously gonna think everyone is talking about u?...come on seriously!!! dont think that ur that big and every1 wants to talk about u cuz NO one does...*

*/youre still a freaking infant so just try to controll your damn itchy pussy and stop sleeping around with every guy that gives you a chance...freaking cheap ass bitch...now u just look like a damn bitch on heat n that not a very pretty sight...mayb u do it cuz its d only time someone acctually notice you exist right?*

lots of love
-sitting here with nothing but your jacket on cuz i miss you
one foot wrong-p!nk
hugs and kisses<333

more teeth than a t-rexy YO!

2009-09-23T03:54:00.000-07:00

so here a quick update on my live...

1 .my darl is leaving me for a week...he'll b back next wed...soo long...n i miss him already
2. my fashion show is NEXT friday im exited n scared shit-less at d same time..yay
3. my garments are about 93% done...yeah
4. i have 5 more illustration to go
5. im panicking about my male model status...he still not confirm with me...*dies*
6. i bought p!nk's new album that i've been wanting ta get for ever (im listening to it now)
7. my darl left me with 3 AAR tickets WHOOOOOO!!! yeaH!! 10 oct im ready ta party
8. i MIGHT b watching d ugly truth tmr wid alene...
9. ricardo's gonna hv a pool side bbq party soon n i cant wait...
10. i finally 3-G'ed with someone...other than my family yay

so yea thats the quicky 10 happening in my life now...tho theres more but this is it for now...
p/s : P!NK'S VOICE = PERFECT (she was always my biggest hero)

-please dont leave me
i dont belive you -p!nk
hugs and kisses <3333

i'll give you 25cents, including your guy

2009-09-11T05:08:00.000-07:00

next time you think youre perfect...

TRY WALKING ON WATER BITCH

yay the stage is set
the lights are on
lets rock this town

thats all i gotta say about that

warning: live without boarders
super massive black hole-muse
hugs and kisses <3333333

in northpole they have seafood mafias

2009-09-06T09:56:00.000-07:00

and so im feeling much better tqverimuch...hang out with my darl jus now...was so stressed at d start of d day but when i saw him today everything fell back to place...i dont even rmb y i was so fruss ystrday...dont get me wrong im still fruss...jus not THAT fruss...which is a good thing...

*when two lovers meet in the dead of the night to share their forbidden love, thats when its the strongest and most passion filled...just the idea of risk adds everything to sweet temptation and bliss wrapped in each others arm...thats the best moment lived*

*right before an innocent man is sent to the scaffolks and he hugs his lover and bask in her glory and sweet scent for the last time, thats when the world stops and every second of that bitter sweet memory would be forever etched into his and her minds....he will knowingly replay it in his mind as a sharp piece of metal is about to set his spirits free..while she will carry this memory to the day she sees him again in a better place*

you're my sweet temptation
kiss the girl-Samuel E. Wright
hugs and kisses ( love love love)

...

2009-09-05T06:29:00.000-07:00

im not exactly in my best mood right now...i feel pissed at alot alot alot of ppl...sad, angry,stressed,dissapionted,defeated,lost...i really need to take a step back...everything is moving at a super sonik pace and i cant keep up...i wont mention details if not every1 will start being more of a bitch to me so yea...if u guys can take a hint then please stop bugging me and understand my situation here...i know we all cant understand ANYone EVER but u can c if someones falling apart...its freaking saturday...my ONLY day to chill and yet its been f**ked up by many people...i cant stand it..i cant even fall asleep cuz i got so many things still goin on...so yea im gonna go do d rest of my work now...

p/s: i lost my pencil box officialy now and 100 bucks of artline marker all gone (i think someone stole it)

underneath your clothes, thats my territory
i'll come for you-nickelback

2009-08-31T10:08:00.000-07:00

so tired rite now but i still feel like i wanna update...cuz my darl make me tired...>.<...n i got classes tmr...

so yeap...ystrday had bbq...thx again every1 for coming...sry to darryls gang for abandoning them halfway...hope u guys not mad n enjoy the food!!. so 2 of my MOST dearest friends came over...nana n taryna, i hvnt seen them in like 87654423345689 years...so happi...anyway had fun..well atleast i did hahaha hapi merdeka every1!!! whoot...ok thats all i gotta say about that

at 1st i tot u were superrior..but now i see ur like a damn bitch on heat..yea...u hv no clue how much i wanted to break your face...okbai

everyday im loving u more and more
punk rock 101- bowling for soup
hugs n muacks <333

sometime we just...

2009-08-29T11:41:00.000-07:00

some say ur never meant to grow up...
unlike you there, u damn wannabe's
right there u pushed me over the boarder
well now i c the fall wasnt to far
in this deep solitude
i feel...nothing...i feell absolutly nothing
i know i cant get rid of you
well i guess what they say about pest are true
ur gonna be there like a stupid price tag of life
like how u buy a pen n want to get the tag off
and instead u end up makind d whole pen sticky?
yeah thats what u worth...nothing..
so right there when u noticed that u could not
make my life hell
thats when ur life starts to fall apart
at the seems
u manage to get in my head
look whose the one troubled now
u laugh at me for being unable to step on
now look whos skirts caught
u cry for help
do i hear you?...yes i do
should i help u?...yes i should
will i help u?...let me think about it
now u quiver under my power
praying begging u were kinder
u feel insecure
well thats my power
one second of ur insecurity
to show ur weakness
was all i needed
scream all u like, be a bitch all u want
no one will hear u
there all gona cuz u chased them away
once ur at the top u stand alone
n thats where ur now
and ur scared...
i win

walking dead
chris brown- forever
hugs and kisses

tadpoles grapefruit yay!

2009-08-28T11:22:00.000-07:00

WHAT THE FUCK???!!!

i just had ta get it outta my system...why do i let u get to my head? ur a NOBODY to me
i wished u'd just DROP DEAD

you think ur so cool? well i wonder what daddy would say if he knew what his precious little princess was up to

-why r you so obsessed with me?
schrei - tokio hotel
hugs & kisses <3

on the east coast a dwarf must have 3 yellow sock

2009-08-26T04:07:00.000-07:00

everytime you love someone is because of something special

some u love them cuz of their personality -ricardo
some u love them cuz of there cool - sara
some u love them cuz of their playullness - aaron
some u love them cuz of their hair - evelyn
some u love them cuz of their randomness - melissa
some u love them cuz of their ability to love - momma
some u love them cuz of their smile - erick
some u love them cuz of the way they make you feel -noah
some u love them cuz of their skills - taryna (bsb)
some u love them cuz of the way they present themself - david
some u love them cuz of their passion - daniel
some u love them cuz of their pure awesomeness - georgie
some u love them cuz they are totaly diffrent from you - ah yi
some u love them cuz you can bully them senseless - domo eun
some u love them cuz of their crazyness - alene
some u love them cuz of their taste in music - wey liam
some u love them cuz of their taste in cars - papa
some u love them cuz of their taste in movies - marcus
some u love them cuz of their slang - neal
some u love them cuz of their photography skills - chun hien
some u love them cuz of their computer knowledge - alex
some u love them cuz of their jokes - darryl
some u love them cuz of their just themself - philbert
some u love them cuz of their singing voice - simon
some u love them cuz u share many awesome memory with them - nana banana

so these are the reasons why i love the ppl around me...if i missed your name just msg me...i will tell u why i love u >.<

-i love you the same way a geek love his rubix cube
waldorfworldwide- good charlotte
love and kisses <33333333333

if a fork was called a bubble what colour would a banana be?

2009-08-24T07:13:00.000-07:00

jus cuz im doing one thing its does not relate all to you...you probably wonder whats wrong with me...

you dont like the words i speak
or the thoughts i think
or the songs i like to hear
or the way i sing
you dont like the way i walk
or the things i talk i talk
or the way i swing my hand
and i know you'll never understand
just because i walk like obi1-kenobi
u people talk
but u dont really know me
well im glad cuz i dont ever wanna be like you
there a place inside my mind you never get

i dont want to live your 7-2, yes! i dont wanna live your boring life....u parade around in your pretty dresses and heels but im running faster than you in my jeans and chucks...i could feel your stare on me like a damn magicians hypnotized kangaroo...u had a choice...youre already stepping on my tail fur, a little closer and i will bite...i seriously wonder whats in that penut size thing u claim be your skull...u think im really that retarded? OWH wait u do cuz, thats the highest level your brain can think of...i hope that ring he gave you turns your finger green...well some of my decisions sucks but at least im still young...

-let go HAVE SOME FUN
lotsalovefrommebeeotch (go figure)
hugs and kisses<333

blue munchkins will one day rule

2009-08-19T05:23:00.000-07:00

so i saw something extreemly disturbing last night and my mental state of mind has been forever altered on the views of french people...and couples unable to give birth... so anyaway this post is a mix of alot of things but mainly is to show my my idols,heroes and role model...so here goes in no particular order

the man behind it all-tim burton

awesome tattooist- chris garver

awesome band-blink 182

my biggest hero, idol, role model-pink

awesome song writer/inspirational music-avril

radest tattooist in LA/Love everything about her-KAT VON D

sickest band-greenday

extreemly inspirational band,awesome song, meaningfll lyrics- good charlotte

u wish you could be like him- eminem

biggest idol- bill kaulitz

my fav historical icon- ann boleyn

MOST AWESOME stage preformer/AWESOME voice-kevin tarte

autumn scene- yiruma
-i already prove that i can be a real BITCH now i also wanna prove that i can sing like a mother fucker WHOO!!
hugs&kisses<3333333333

if d world was stuck in black n white i would parade around in a red dress

2009-08-11T06:00:00.000-07:00

WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! okayyyy...so i hv been a rebel lately haha not many ppl noe wut im up to so yea...but those who noe, i bet are super happy...doin *ahem* stupid things...haha SHHHH...ok so rite now im feeling super hyper idek y...must b that all juice my beloved dad made 4 me...n my dear bcome sick alrdy O.o n instead of being dead he come MORE hyper...alien child...anyway drink more water people!!! n dont get H1N1... anway heres what i really wanted ta say...wait for it..wait for it...

IM GONNA GO FOR A ED HARDY FASHION SHOW WHOOOOO!!!! YEAH!! WEEWOOWEEWOOWEEWOO
yeaps...this weekend...its gonna be hosted in a club...i dunno which one yet but i bet its gonna b awesome...i juz hope its at zouk...so yea this thurs im gonna go down ta klcc wid my lecturer n go do d styling/fitting/planning at ed hardy...gonna treat my eyes to ed hardy-ness...YEAH!!! n sat is d official day...well night actually...theres gonna be alot of fashion people,press,media bla bla bla...im nt sure but i think my teacher say that i get ta bring ppl in for free n drinks on d house...but thats not confirm yet...so if u guys r nice to me u mite get ta tag along......so yea thats pretty much all tat i wanted ta say...

by d way if u dint already noe ED HARDY is my ULTIMATE fav brand in d whole wide world n if anyone out there bought me ed hardy anything i would b d happiest gal in d world n i would love u for ever ahhaha...oh by d way...d cheapest shirt der is RM 399.99... so yea... eat ur heart out...smiles

viva la gloria-greenday
the night lit up like fireworks
hugs n kisses<333333333333333

if pigs could fly...i'd take up hunting

2009-08-09T09:34:00.000-07:00

so u really wanna know whats on my mind? well here a fucken piece of it!

messed up life
a blessing? a curse?
i also dont know...all these problems weighing me down..i just realised all d while i've been living off other peoples mistake...

i got enuff to worry about...so please if you have got a fuckin problem just swallow it up, cry it out on ur fucken pillow, shoot yourself in a foot n dissapear...look here i've said my sorries...i've done my apology...i've paid my dept so will you please just STFU!!! GOSH why do i even bother? u made me look like a fool,u made me sink so low all d way dwn to YOUR lvl just to gain ur apology i made myself a phatetic mooron just so u will accept my damned apology...so look if ur not happy u can just go die okay? i really mean it...im taking it ALL back...its a little to late for you now so just GOW AWAY! okay?ur like a little annoying bug that makes me wanna buy insect repellent n blast it from the air-cond...at 1st u really got me ok.. i felt guilty...but now?come on!...how long u gonna carry on this phatetic act of yours? this shit is just turning old...u really can win an oscar for ur acting skills

i love my sisteres
i love him...get over it (i dedicated this sentance to many many many people)

because you loved me-celine dion
-all of this dont matter cuz now i've got you
hugs n kisses<333

i kissed a girl and BANG ...dies

2009-08-07T01:52:00.000-07:00

so my head is pounding OMG...so i mite b goin swimming again later idk...i just hope my head stops pounding when i do...if not i'll b a partay pooper n that would be bad...must b from all the college stress idk...

i really need to the following for no particular reason
-shout at someone
-hit someone REALLY REALLY hard with my boxing gloves*wink wink*
-sleep
-swim
-fly
-paint
-draw sumthing that i like for myself n not for assignment
-play the guitar flawlessly
-jump of a cliff (n not die)
-meet edward cullen
-go karaokay-ing???
-play pool
-drink alcohol
-watch a freaking hilarious comedy (the kind that make u laugh till you cry)

yea thats pretty much what i need yay...ok im gonna go take a nap now...
ZzzZZzzzZzzzzZzZzZ

swing swing- AAR
-the birds will tell me the secrets of the world-
hugs and kissssses <3333

let it be...just let it be

2009-08-03T19:46:00.000-07:00

can we please just let it be? let go of it...do u really see a point in fighting?...just freak out let it go...please im asking u guys...just look back, is it really worth it? and why u guys fighting about now? i also dunno lah...i mean come on u guys should know better then to let something as small as this hurt ur friendship...from what i see all this is just one big mess...everyone is individually misunderstood...but in d end NO one will understand another person completely so lets not make any more judgements...lets just let it go...

contagious-avril
-so i walk out in silence
hugs and kisses <333
denise

flabby tea spoon...weewooo

2009-08-02T10:49:00.000-07:00

smiles.laughter.pasta.horror movie.work out....what more could a girl ask for?(trust me its way deeper than that)...

hate
tell me what it really means...does it last forever? when does it exist? how does it come to be?...is it really as bad as it sounds?does it have to be as bad?or is it all just overrated? why does everyone feel hate? do we choose it? or does it come naturally...d thing i wan to know is...can we forget it? give up?

why?why do u do that...honestly i admire you for it...u are one person unafraid to swallow their pride...let them have a go at the other cheek...a person has gotta love another so much just to do what u did...u dint need to lower yourself to that standard but u did...all i can say is that bravery is running so deep in your veins i can even smell it...u just let them humiliate you and u take it...from what i see youre gaining approval of someone...dont...let them come to you...he is not like everyone else..you dont have to please anyone...they will love you for who you are...u remind me so strongly of someone...anyone is so fortunate to have you in their lifes...i know i am...its good to know that good people still exists in this world...so here this is for you

cuz i can-pink
so is it gonna be like this forever?
hugs n kisses <333
denise

in my world people poop butterfly's yay!

2009-07-31T08:24:00.000-07:00

ok o heres whats on my mind...im gonna be extreemly straight forward and blunt..please do be VERY offended/guilty if u've done me wrong lately cuz diz post is meant ta do that ta u...or do feel special n loved cuz u've done me good lately cuz i love u...n u hv not been like d rest of d jackasses lately... cuz this is 'my mind, my world' if u didnt want to know about it then y would u even read this? no names mention but i think u guys know who u are.

p/s: please dont ask questions

1.u have been the best...even if i never took d chance to get to know u for the younger part of my life.... i'll make it all up...i hope u appriciate everything i do...all d moments we share...all d dorky/goofy/stupid things...i'll try ta give u everyting u want...i honestly missed d times we spend at d old place in our own little world...where posters stared down at us as we drift to sleep n we imagines the world n the what if's...where we would create our own lifes in our mind...yes i still do think about those time n trust me there not gone...i know i dont say this often enuff but u really are the best...may d acidjunkies reign forever...

2.i just met u n already noone makes me feel as comfortable being myself...i am really really glad we met that day yes...we were so close ta not knowing d existance of each other but were here now and nothing can EVER change that...faith?luck? what ever it is im just glad for it...say what they want about us...as long as we know...u make me feel calm, exited, happy, glad, at peace, relaxed...the things u do make me admire ur courage,bravery,caringness,independence,n most of all your loyalty to friends even if they hurt you...

3.ARGGH!!! u know i like it n love it...why u had ta take it away??!!! y d fuck did u had to?! juz cuz u fucking can...well i show u what I FUCKING CAN...u know that i would be upset yet u still went ahead with that RETARDED plan of yours!!well i bet u think i have been tame u better watch it...i have not change one bit...oh no u have been gravely mistaken...u do this to hurt me?! just remember that i know how ta fucking hurt u back way worse...what im gonna do next u brought on urself!...from all this i have seen ur suffering n respected you but now u have push it too far...TOO FUCKIN FAR...i loved you and this is what u do to me...now u've broken this trust...i'll be a damn bitch for u to earn it back...

4.so u dont hv d balls to say it to my face? come on...whats your problem? dont u know how it feels? just to even feel it? or r u jelous cuz u cant share it? mayb u dont feel it yourself...i know that right now i might be gravely misjudging you ...but come on dont be such a hyppocryte what youre doing is not much right as what im doin...were all humans we all make mistakes sometimes we even know that were gonna make that mistake n ignore n d right way n make d mistake anyway...so now u hate me...but put urself in my position? i have tried to get it straight with u...u said ok but what this is i c? so u admit ur wrong? or u being a total hyppocryte again? goin back on ur own words...or is it a sort of revenge?please dont destroy what i have...cuz i never destroy what u had...

pink-boring <---awesome song!!!!

Uh that's hot
Iiiiiit's tasty
It's like a cupcake
It's cotton candy
It melts in your mouth
And lately
I been gettin hunger pains
When you lick your lips while you check me out

Fast car
Boring
Girlfriend
Boring
Got money
Boring
No-oh-oh-oh
Hot friends
Boring
Rock band
Boring
Not interested
No Tha-ank you

If you want me
You're gonna have to catch me
If you wanna touch my whoa-oa-oa
And if you catch me
You're gonna have to show me
How bad you really want my whoa-oa-oa

Yooooooou're Scrumptious
I kinda like it
I'm indecisive
I change my mind a lot
But you're hot (you're so hot)
But I think you kinda know it
Really hopin you don't blow it so bring it

You're tired
Boring
You're sore
Boring
You worked all day
Boring
Whoa-oa-oa-oa
Big boat
Boring
Black AmEx
Listening
Six pack
well, heh

If you want me
You're gonna have to catch me
If you wanna touch my whoa-oa-oa
And if you catch me
You're gonna have to show me
How bad you really want my whoa-oa-oa

Whoa-oa-oa-oa

If I let you catch me
It's because I think you're really cute
And if you don't get it right
I'mma be like really really mad

uh, insert rap here
12345678 Go
Go
That's hot

thank you-dido
if cotton candys where grey what colour would a magicians feet be?
hugs n kisses
xoxoxox
denise

sometimes its just really all about the dancing sandwitch

2009-07-27T04:09:00.000-07:00

many people have collection and so i tot i'd share one of mine with you...i collect quotes be it a line from a movie,a famous quote,something out of a book,a pick up line,something scribbled on to the toilet cubicle what ever...here are some of me favorite quotes i got over a couple of years (some i made myself)

-stay gold
-you dazzle me
-yes, you are exactly my brand if heroin
-childhood is a kingdom where nobody dies
-your laugh is my favorite sound in the world
-my gift is my song and this one's for you
-how do you always have an opinion?
-i used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
-we dont need anything were just wasting time
-one things true there always a brand new day
-so go make it happen
-and so it goes....
-the show must go on
-never look back, never look down and never let go
-good morning i see the assassins have failed
-i leave bite marks ---> (sexy sexy)
-i live for the nights i wont remember with the friends i'll never forget
-dont cry rockstar you might ruin your make up
-i wasnt on a mountain when it came to me
-i dont want a conversation i just want to cry infront of you
-if god is a dj,life is a dance floor, love is d rhythm then you are my music
-as the sun sets it reminds me where i wanna be...at a PARTY rocking the night away with you
-everytime my phone rings and i see your name appear...my heart smiles (one of my all time fav)
-im helpless when you smile
-if i dont feel your heartbeat youre to far away
-i want to rip up parts of your shirt and scream at your boobs (just pure brilliant)
-i'll wait here forever just to see you smile
-i dont care if its the moon as long as youre beside me im happy
-youre voice was the soundtrack of my summer
-everyone has a right to be stupid but youre abusing your privileges
-somethings are worth fighting for, somethings are worth dying for, but somethings arent worth a shit at all
-to walk within the line would make my life so boring
-i need to know that i've been to the extreem
-milk does the body good but DAMN how much did you drink? (best pick up line EVER!)
-so knock me off my feet just to make me feel alive
-tell me does she kiss like i used to kiss you?
-the greatest thing you'll ever lern is just to love and be loved in return
-is it enough to die?
-who's gonna call on sunday morning's?
-never say never
- i can do what she can do so much better
-your cant spell slaughter without laughter
-ice ice baby

ich bin da- tokio hotel
turn around i am here
hugs n kisses <333
denise

japanese ninja kung-fu pants

2009-07-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

im covered in paint (were repainting d outside of our hus)...to tired to move so all i can really do now is to blog...yea...im gonna go shower in awhile...so i wanna blog bout sumthing but i dunno wat so i hv come up wid a few topic n finally choosen 1 which is...d list of my fav psychopath/ gruesome movie of all time...this are movies i highly encourage ppl who like psycho/ brilliant/ gruel movies....

1.saw 1-5 (pure genius-ness)
2.pathology (awesome plot)
3.hostel 1 &2 (but i oni watch part 2 sister was to freaked out to watch part 1)
4.perfume (love d story line)
5.sweeney todd (love d musical music)
6.awake (another awesone plot/ storyline)

well i think i got alot more but thats all i can think about rite now...so yea...if u guys r bored go buy/rent/borrow or even dwnld if u must trust me u wont regret it...honestly i prefer this kinda category of movies then followed by thriller,comedy,romance...i mean its better then those meaningless movies they making at least in this u can actually c someone really making an effort to think about d whole movie n plot n deaths...so yea...lol i noe u mite think im sum psycho myself for liking such things but honestly im just curious/ facinated by what goes on in a psycho's mind so yea...

so if u guys hv awesome similar movie plz tell me...i like ta watch more ok babai

flightless bird- American mouth
-you cant spell slaughter without laughter-
hugs & kisses <333
denise

i can rock a grannypantie better then you

2009-07-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

so one of my teacher had this brilliant idea to add knitting into our study...n so we went to get sum material fr d shop where OLD ladies were all sitting n talking...i felt soooooooo embaressed(cant spell) to be even standing in d shop...so then my teacher went to pick d knitting sticks n wool n ask us ta pick d colours..which were all mild colours...can u belive they dint even have BLACK?!!

anyway got back to class then we start knitting which felt really stupid n awkward...i mean knitting is for OLD PEOPLE!! n so we were all getting tangled n stuff...while learning how ta knit i hv developed a GREAT respect for little old ladies who do knitting cuz getting started is FREAKING hard...so then after like 2 hours of being a bitch...i finally started to get a hang of it...yay n now its AWESOME i mean d stuff u can do is just reli cool...i know...i know....i sound like a granny but its reli satisfiying(cant spell) to see what all my hard work has built up to...

so yea im kinda getting better but i can only do a scarf thing...not so pro to do sweater la...so free lessons to those that wanna learn...hahaha so i guess when im 80 yrs old, wrinkly, bored, half blind n have grand kids i'll probably spend my day knitting...i mean its an awesome past time..hahaha dam i sound like a granny...u should try listening to rock music while knitting..its real inspiring lol thats what i did....ok so here r sum bonus pic i took.(i know but this is d best camera i got in d hus rite now which is y sis fon =.='")

close up

capital M-E- taking back sunday
-i know d sound of a smile in your voice-
granny hugs & kisses (lovelovelove)
-denise-

penut better butterfly wings

2009-07-19T09:47:00.000-07:00

yay yay people...sori if i abandoned this blog...but i juz ni reformatted my beloved baby (my lap top) duh...yea it was on d verge of coma so i asked sum friends to do surgery...so now my baby is all fixed up n awesome...haha...u guys better watch out my baby's gonna BLOW your mind!!!...ok yea im bored

anyway so my junior had a fashion show at inti-nilai which went as all fashion shows go...(a typical cycle) exited to chill to stress to boring to caotic to intense to blank to relax to proud... yay anyway went there was bored for 4 hurs doing nothing as usual played with d wigs n do stupid things...then d models finally came so did my work as make up artist damn d models can be reali bitch diva's...so yea got them dressed saw alot of boobies...then d show...blablabla...

anyway went to USJ4 leo iu ystrday...it was an intresting day...alot of intensity in d air...obviously lol (inside joke)...hang out wid aaron n eun (intense domo) lol haha was not expecting it but i saw my OLD OLD OLD buddies yay rhea naa,jenny n carmun...sadly taryna was not der...long time nvr c her ad...

these few days been having not enuff sleep damn...so tmr theres sum exiting news fr my teacher i dunno wut exactly it is but i guess it has sumthing to do with my clothes n design being send to italy n me goin der for holiday next year yeap...so its not confirm yet so plz dun get to exited...

on a diffrent topic how ever EVERY effing one der was so ridiculos with anticipation it was disgusting...falling off their seats to see how d 1st meet up would be like... do u guys seriously all think that i was born ystrday um HELLOW? i mean every freaking eyes were on both of us, even **** i could totaly c it in **** eyes...what? do ppl expect us to be all friendly hellohello?or mayb they all expect me to go over n say hi? be friendly? or be a total bitch? be a stupid? well that would hv been awkward...i mean i'd totaly love ta hv like a mind reading thing on that day jus to hear ppl stupid low shallow mind at work...i notice that many ppl r good at hiding feelings but they ALL SUCK at hiding expectation...i mean what u expect me to do? go right up ta *** n punch *** in d neck?...rip *** wrist veins out? smash *** blob of a head against d wall so *** brains will gloss d floor? or was it d other way round? *** coming up to me n do those things ta me?or mayb we we would suddenly all get along? *** was my old friend n were we best buds in kindergarden? now would that not be just sweet? come on ppl...u cant ALL be that shallow/stupid...another question i BET thats on EVERY one's mind even ****....do i feel treaten? its veri simple. no. y would i be? is it awkward? yea. u bet, since when was it ever NOT?gosh!

Wie Es Ist- Nevada Tan
-Kann und will es nicht riskieren dich und alles zu verliere-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

goop filled lamp

2009-07-12T11:16:00.000-07:00

i feel like a freaking zombie rite now...i think im gonna sleep....i dun even know y im blogging...i juz have d urge even if i dunno wat im gonna type next...i belive that if u leave things as they are they will happen naturally...

low millions-eleanor (hvnt heard this in a loooong time)
-i really want this to work-
sQUEESeee n kisses *hearts*heart*heart*
denise

*nites* ZZZZzzzZZzZzZZzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzZzZZzzZzZzzz

if u look reli hard u can find a pizza bottle on the big toe of ur right index finger

2009-07-11T07:11:00.000-07:00

soooooooooo yea this week been pretty intresting...d start of coll...stress...n other *ahem* unmentionable things which was also awesome....n yesterday was me first time EVER to a recording studio which by d way was AWESOME...so it goes like this...well long story short instead of goin ta makan we ended up goin ta wey liams coll...he's studying sum audio sumthing sumthing haha dunno wuts it called aaaanyway they hv like all those recording music thinggi n control board wit a million buttons that you always c in those artist recordings n stuff with d room n classic glass window n soundproove things n d mike n drums n guitar...so we decided to stay der with sum of wey liams friends which have like AWESOME voice...every1 der has like a super talent in music be it guitar,drums,vocals...so when i go der i feel so musical sumhow...so wey liam let me try playing drums n thats when i found out i have BAD hand leg coordination...yea reli terrible...so i was banging on those drums like a freaking 5yr old....i bet i was a disgrace of every1 der...but they were nice ppl so yea...so i jakun with EVERY thing der especially d controlboard...found out how ppl record stuff...saw one guy record drums...n how they set up d stuff...n they have this super huge speakers they call 5.1 surround sound which was another AWESOME thing so we played d untimate song linkin park-new devine haha (yea guys eat your damned foot!) i heard its on freaking mega surround sound WHAT UP!...ok i should shaddap now....babai...owh n btw i gotta wake up at 4 freaking A.M tmr morning n drive ta d freaking airport...yea u read rite...gosh 4 is like d time i sleep on saturday nites....so if u saw a thriller looking zombie tmr u noe its me...(ok tat was a lame joke)...i should reli stop talking now...bai

metro station-california
-shoot an apple of my head-
hugs n kisses <333
denise

if i could i'd go where ever you will go

2009-07-08T10:26:00.000-07:00

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the stars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

eminem-beautiful
-was n would be- (go figure)
hugs&kisses
denise

my kangaroo has a foot like a right handed t-rex (beat that)

2009-07-06T00:22:00.000-07:00

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so im like reli super duper hyper/bored/intense/stressed/happy?
okimdone

howie day-collide
-words are not what they seem sometimes u gotta look inbetween
hugs&kisses <333
denise

humming pink fuzzballs

2009-07-04T22:13:00.000-07:00

NOOOOO!!! i got home to my worst nitemare...my most prize n beloved teddy is gone!!!! no DAMMIT! mum had this brilliant idea of throwing it away... all d while i know my mum hated it but i LOVED it...even if one leg is torn out n stitches mark here n der...i feel uber upset rite now n my hands are shaking...i CANT sleep without my teddy!!!! i mean its been there since i can remember...from d millions of teddys i got over my 19 years of life this one was my most loved teddy n now its gone...GONE!!!...another reson as to why im sooooo upset is cuz they dont make teddys of this material anymore...so i CANT get it any more...*sobs*...one more thing about me is that if i relli want to, i can get extreemly attached to things...i miss u my teddy...

good charlotte-broken hearts parade
-u make me so hot make me wanna shout so ridiculous i cant barely stop
hugs&kisses<33
denise

pink apples grow from grape trees

2009-07-02T23:16:00.000-07:00

ok so last nite i had a MASSIVE headache but im feeling better now...still a little woosie but i'll b okay...so yea juz got a call fr alene jus now n yea she reminded me tat my lisence(cant spell) expires tomorow GREAT so yea n another thing is that for sum stupid reason d pos does not do it so i gotta go all d way ta jpj n i hv no freaking clue where that is...d best part is that jpj is closed today tmr n day after tmr...oni opens again on monday...so crappy...so now my only wori is how d hell m i suppose ta get to coll on monday?!!! i duwan take bus!! sobs cuz then i gotta wake up like SUPER early n walk a looooooong way...yea im not such a spoiled brat but its just that its d 1st day of coll reopen n i gotta bring about 3? bags so yea...n rite now i feel like bashing my head in for not doin it earlier...stoopid...
n i found back my long lost mp3!!!!! yay!...since i move hus i did not see it already n now i finally found it back...it sounds good to listen to long lost songs...brings bac memories...anyway so heres d list of my new old fav songs that were in my old mp3....

blink 182-miss u (my fav song during that time)
phill collins-u'll be in my heart (tarzan!!)
bon jovi-thank you for loving me (yes i go weak for this song)
many moore-cry (made me cry)
the used-blue and yellow (love the music n instruments)
five for fighting-100 years (meaningful)
Frank Sinatra-old man river (listening to the lyrics)
Elvis Presley-In the Ghetto (im not much of an elvis fan but this song lyrics moved me)
avril- Hot (what he makes me feel rite now)
coldplay- the hardest part (love the music)

my idea of a perfect wedding

Frank Sinatra-old man river
-turn around and take a look at me get the picture fixed in ur memory
hugs&kisses <33
denise

you are the styrofoam penuts to the poorly packed cardboard box of my heart <3

2009-06-29T22:27:00.000-07:00

yay i just reach 500 drawing!!woohoo...yea its my assignment i supposse ta draw 1200 sketches so yea...umm im already half way...anyway im thinking of starting a vlog reli reli soon so yea u guys can watch me being awkward talking to d camera alone in my room n laugh at me but yea...so rite now im like watching as many random ppl vlogs on utube n being inspired...n learn ta not do stupid things on my 1st vlog...idk i'll probably start with a tag version n im gonna tag my friends so yea u guys gotta watch out i mite tag u...um i actually already started recording but my window is to bright so when i record u see me as just a black figure against a bright back ground...ok so thats d latest update...OWH yea n i already watch transformers which was awesome btw n im gonna go watch it again tmr...lets c...

owh liz show me a pic she found online n my 1st tot when i looked at it, it totally reminded me of my young time i dunno y..i mean i dunno d artist who did that pic juz a random art work but it just hit me but of cuz thats my opinion so yea i scanned my young pic n where is d art work side by side...u b the judge...

so yea im gonna go continue drawing sketch no.501 n be happy later ok babai

21 guns-greenday
-lets dance the beat is thumping-
hugsnkisses <333
denise

My heart is heavy because my idol died

2009-06-26T04:38:00.001-07:00

a trademark move

king of pop

MJ at the peak of his sucess

Awesome voice

awesome moves

awesome-ness

ok so this morning can say so i woke up to a sad tragedy...yes the beloved king of pop just died...when aaron 1st told me i tot it was just sum joke...so went online and right there yahoo news "king of pop dies at 50"...i just sit there stunned, my brains cant process it n my mind cant accept it...

michael jackson- dead...NO! mj CANT die he wasnt just sum super star he was THE! freaking king of pop!hellow?!so yea im real sad i mean he was my childhood hero one of the first singer i ever liked...so yea mj was everything, he could sing,dance,make money...stars like mj only comes only once n i feel reli honored to have lived in the same era...listening to his songs is like taking a time machine back to when i first heard his song during my childhood...n i also feel that because he was part of billions of peoples lifes back when they were younger be it our parents generation or our generation he made impact where ever he went and because of that many people feel a certain bond as if they know him personally thus the loss of him was a lost to many many people...altho i have personally always wished to one day see him...did not have ta b a backstage pass i did not need to shake his hand did not need to witness a concert...just to see him actually there would hv made me happy...but now that would no longer b possible...but to me mj is still not dead yet...he still lives right here in my media player n in the hearts of the people he has touched...n i belive that many people will continue to talk about him of his songs of his greatness in years to come...He wrote songs that generations of yesterday, today and tomorrow will all keep on singing...so here watch this video to remind urself how awesome the great king of pop MICHAEL JACKSON really was

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4tEEXLbzcI&feature=PlayList&p=9A22164DEB6AC57D&index=0&playnext=1
uh yea about that i still hvnt found out how ta post vids here yet

neways juz leave me a comment in d chatbox of ur fav mj song...
OMFG!!!! i just realize tat in my last post i freaking wrote a quote fr MJ!!!FUCK!...(just call my name n i'll be there-fr one of his childhood songs)ok sumhow rite now im pretty FREAKED!

Earth Song-Michael Jackson
-heal d world make it a better place-
hugs&kisses <333
denise

shoot urself in d foot using a sharp piece of cheese...cheers

2009-06-23T10:37:00.000-07:00

ok so heres a recap of my life lately...i think im pissing off everyone i know (well except for one person...i think)..i dunno y...all d while, honestly i have become to tame n to giving that i feel like many people have been climbing over my head...haizz i dun even know...i used to care ALOT for other peoples happiness that now when it comes time for reserving some for myself everyones is turning their back on me...i feel really sadden by this i mean i have always been there for EVERYONE staying up wayyyy past bedtime doin rediculous(cant spell) things just to keep that smile on their face .n now will no one really truely be happy for me? now that i have found my own happiness?i mean honestly u r parcticly among my longest known friend y r u so upset?...well in this state i really can c the people who truely care for me...at least i know now theres someone* there for me...he makes me smile all d time ( ich habt dich wirklich liebt <33)

another thing that really been upsetting me is another 2 friends n their relationship this one im reli sitting on fence im reli reli sori to both of u...both sides r my friend both sides i love both i really care about...both friendship i really value n cherish..n now that they messed up i really cant chooses at all so i decided to tell d truth to both sides...but omg what a big mistake that was...but i guess time will tell...so im juz gonna shut my big pie trap n wait 4 things to settle down i just hope both dun do stupid things to fuck life up for d rest of us...

on a much much lighter note at least i get to see aaron today =) *smiles* ac made my day haha they played 'the O.C'...juz listening ta d theme songs makes me hapi alrdy...i beat aaron at pool again YAY!! haha tho he gave me chances again lol if not i'll b a pathetic player hahhaa...he tot me sum cool shots to make (of cuz i messed them up)he reli is a gud guy...i mean after a looooong day at work n suffering fr headache he still got d patience ta teach me...lol kudous for that...so yea im done blabing im gonna go sleep now...nites!! sweet dreams! dream of me!babai

let it be-Across d universe
-just call my name n i'll b there-
hugs n kisses <333
denise

purple giraffe

2009-06-21T22:54:00.000-07:00

IM BACK!!! haha hey people... miss me? okay so heres d drill...im back fr my awesome trip ta redang...but i hvnt got any pic to post yet cuz i din bring cam n all d pic is wit my fren...dun wori there r pictures for u to see alot of awesome ones n sum stupid wan also duh!!... im not gonna write my whole trip down cuz it'll probably be like suuuuuuuuuuper duper long so yea...but alot of thing happen during this 1 week...i'll mention d nice n funny things oni...

so on my redang trip i went with my college buddies cyhthe, william, charls, nick, kary,ee sher n iris....along d way i discover that batu pahat ppl dun drink anything else but soya bean,cin chau n 100+...n d houses in johor are awesome! tall n thin haha...during d whole trip aaron teman me by msg so sweet n at least i din get bored...on my 10 hur trip GOIN to redang was intresting...alot of thing happen,i saw alot of things, heard alot of things n found out alot of things...den when we reach d dock thats when i took my 1st speed boat ride..when we finally reach d place was awesome d water was unbelivably clear (n salty) we stayed in something like a cabin...haha can u imagine? 6 ppl all under 20 yrs old stuck in one cabin haha i feel sad for our neighbours lol...on our 2nd night thats when we unleash all hell haha...we played 007 bang!,monalisa n pinang tree all drinking games...down 1 bottle black lable,1 joker n 1 jackpot wiskey we got so hammered 2 ppl throw up during d nite...took alot of stupid posing pic...so yea pretty much had fun d whole week...snorkel with many fishes, big one, small one,colourfull wan,i also saw nemo n dory haha...one fish even bite my finger, well not really bite la more like suck?...n i felt it but din c but charls told me i ter-kick one huge ass fish..haha sorry fish!!
so yea thats all i gotta say

some say-sum 41
-I'll wait here forever just to see you smile-
hugs & kisses <333
denise

there was a boy....

2009-06-13T10:43:00.000-07:00

hey all those ppl reading about my life so far well here is what is...this is my last post for 1week now...as most of u guys noe...im gonna go redang tmr...well its today acctualy since its already 1.48am...so yea make sure u miss me yea! im gonna b gone for a full week...so dun do anything intresting ya cuz i duwan ta miss out on anything...haha so evil...ok im done...n if (touch wood) anything happen ta me on my trip i entitle all me belonging to melissa embert!<--that should make u hapi since u'll be getting all my cd's haha...ok so enjoy u time here while i enjoy my time there n i'll b back with 1million pictures...
ps to ma lil sista-->sorie for abandoning u...dun cry i will buy u stuff n bring bac sand n shell n pictures haha...
ok im done talking babai

stay young-we the kings
-come what may-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

a blue pig once told me....

2009-06-13T02:26:00.000-07:00

restless,agitated,intense n juz plain crazy
ok so im reli reli bummed out cuz i dont get to join eun n aaron watch fighting<--i think thats d show name...n d step up actor is acting in it...sumthing tatum?i think...and now there gonna go makan or something shit i badly wanna join dem...dats one thing of having a paranoid old man around sumtimez...uggh 'no u goin redang tmr u gotta rest etc etc'...come on i mean i got 4 hurs or nothing to do-ness in d bus tmr...dont u think that i hv enuff time to sleep den?!!(but now got someone promise to teman me by sms so im looking forward to it already)and even now im so used to night activities so now that i hv nothing to do drives me crazy ,restless n agitated n since im still full of energy its ok if i go out it weares(cant spell) me down so i can sleep later...but now i got all diz hyperness all bottled up i probably cant sleep at all tonite...i feel like a 5yr old kid that juz drank 5bottle of cola n is strapped to a chair...yea imagine d scene 'exrteem hyperness n strapped ta a damn chair = not good'... n also i feel kinda guilty rite now i mean ysterday i say i can go hang out n now pulak stay home whole day n do nothing haizz...so yea...bah..im soooooooooooooooooooooo bored i probably do another post in like 5 mins...i mean that all thats left to do now realli...

gives you hell-AAR
-tonight will b d nite i will fall for u,cuz a guy like u is impossible to find-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

header

2009-06-12T10:54:00.000-07:00

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA OMG!!! haha i cant stop cracking up when i look at my header pic...haha shit...its gonna be temporary hah but i cant help it...i gotta share t with d world!!! haha d artist is just brilliant

every sunday in d north pole it rains giraffe true story

2009-06-12T10:40:00.000-07:00

hmm..ok so here goes...all d while i tot my fon is having battery problem but today i discover something heark breaking...its not batt problem its my fon...my poor baby...so my dad is urging me to buy new fon<--wow rite...but can u imagin i acctualy said no...yea i kid u not i do NOT want to change me fon...i mean i love it!! its my baby n besides all d other new fon jus looks weird...idk mayb im to fussy...so yea continue d story i went to a random fon shop wif my dad n ask fr original batt cost RM195!!omg! den d local wan is RM75...so we went to another fon shop diz time i ask my dad to stay outside n i go ask ori wan d lady say its RM90!! wtf rite...d other shop c my dad got white face so dey charge +105 bucks can u blive?!omg d bad side of being white in malaysia!!..anywayso thats when i discover that its not my batt problem its my fon ='( but i STILL duwan ta change new fon...so then went home had NOTHING to do so since i keep hanging out wif eun n aaron(fitness consultant)i feel pressure ta keep fit..so finally after sooooooooo long of not working out i finally did for 30mins(oh come on i mean i hvnt been working out in a long time so its better to start slow)anyway...after that on9 whole day then went out yum cha with non other then....eunzzzZZzZz n aaron I LEARN new game today haha...stupid but awesome game...play until my hand also shaking...haha "hey king"<--eunice(inside joke)..eunz n aaron later goin out ta sum awesome place c sun rize i want to join!! haizz but tobad i need beauty sleep<-- yes im a princess...haha i just fetch her back at 1am dey gonna leave at 3-4 haha good luck waking up eun!!...ok thats all i gotta say for now...babai
nitez

join me in death-HIM
-i dont want to be just another echo-
hugs n kisses<33
denise

d moon is made of cheese

2009-06-11T10:08:00.000-07:00

im feeling really happy now i dont know y...probably some hapi hormones coming out...or is it that *someone* is talking to me idk...but what ever im hapi...i juz manage to finish 1/10 of my assignment<-better then nothing right? (god help me)

here is some of my perspective in...stuff..pholosophy?

-places changes people...
-i belive that every tiny thing u do effects d future even if it is just adding an extra dot on top of d letter i...
-miracles do happen n people just tend to ignore it...
-people around u change u no matter what u do or how u try to avoid it...
-d more u hang out with a person u will start to look like them...
-everything that happens to you is based on what another person did even if he/she is -not related to u<- pretty deep right?
ok im done talking about my philosophy view

good charlotte-dance floor anthem

-it gets better then u know-

hugs n kisses<333
denise

i rather make friends with a purple elephant

2009-06-10T10:00:00.000-07:00

ok guys with accents are SO FREAKING HOT!! even d slightest hint of an accent turnz me on...heha(except for arabians-now thats annoying)yea and one in particular is really getting to me...idk probably my history of mix cultured-ness?anyway heres whats worth mentioning i have not been playing pool in like idk 1 n a half years?and guess wut i beat aaron!! who honestly has some awesome pool moves...ok well not realy beat beat la he let me cheat on my last few shots (what a gentle man) but considering that i hvnt picked up a pool stick in a looooooong time im doing pretty well...talking about pool really brings back old old old memories...for better or for worse i dunno...haha had a long history from pool probably thats d reason i've been putting of playing pool for a long time..to painfull..but come on right? i gotta face my demons some how...so yea...in d end i discovered it was not to bad and now...honestly i cant wait to play again. so yea went to watch 17 again (OMG!!) i know i know i never like zac effron i never did i just went to watch jus for some laugh and honestly i recomend it ta any1 who nids a laugh even if u hate zac...trust me...so yea im falling in love...shit...ok really my mind is really random right now and i need to say a few random things not relating to each other so that i can clear me head...ok eunice jus told me some very disturbing religous(cant spell)stuff that got me really wondering...im starting to read angels & demons by dan brown...destry rulz...zac effron looks hot in one scene in d 17 gain where he got out of d car and wore his glasses n leather jacket (come gals dun deny it even if u hate zac)...my mouse is not plugged in...my neighbour is a drummer...i need to watch kevin tarte real life...i never got a msg today ='(...im goin ta redang but somehow rite now at diz very moment i dunno why but surprizingly i got no mood ta go...i played pool diz morning...i need a full body massage...im typing in d dark...ok im gonna go read then sleep now babai

currently listening to: totale finternis - tanz der vampire

-ein mehr von gefuhl und kein land-

hugs n kisses<333
denise

ladybugs are actually flying buttons

2009-06-09T12:11:00.000-07:00

ok so its like 3.11 am rite now....i cant freaking sleep and i cant really do anything rite now acctually...and im to lazy to write a super duper looooooooooong post...so yea im blogging about nothing and awkwardness...so i still got another 1200 sketches to do which is so boring...all thats on me mind is redang n d freaking 10 hur bus ride der...im leaving at 9.30 on diz sunday from pudu...i got my dad to bring me there but that probably b soooo idk...i mean come on dad really? i was just wishing someone else to drop me der...someone more idk young?like a friend...but what ever so yea im gonna shut up now and go read FINISH my book n try to fall asleep...i hope i can...this is d time when i wish someone would call me to chat until like 5? cuz im like a freaking owl rite now and i did NOT drink any coffee wadsoever...ok im gonna really shut up now
oh and if any of u play restaurant city i really need tuna and rice so feel free to trade wif me THX

babai nites...

currently listening to- from yesterday-30 seconds to mars

-when words fail...music speaks-

hugs and kisses<333
-denise-

cows have black spots because d sky is blue

2009-06-08T04:20:00.000-07:00

okay my comp is being funni...a lil retarded mayb and my artist button (long story) aka d rite side ctrl button on my laptop is being stupid...yea my internet decided to go boogie idk...anyway im just typing this and hope that i can post diz...
anyway here what i really wanna say...ok ready?....

im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOO!!!!

ok i had to make a big deal of it come on!! its redang!!yea d last time i ever went out of kl to holiday was probably when i was like 12? which was to penang and that dosent really count cuz it was with my auntee...so this time its d classic college road trip,no parents, no adults, no rules, no boyfriend, and NO one ta hold me back yay! im goin with a bunch of friends that have no connection with any of my family and close friend so that means i get to do ANYTHING and get away with it...jelous? yea u should be...ok so im really exited...i mean d only other vacation spot i been to was penang and trengganu but apparently i got no memory of that just that there were many monkeys and fishes<--to eat...so yea it'll be a booze filled 6days away from home haha how awesome does that sound?!!but d down side is...i get to spend 29 hours on d road..yeap no kidding...i'll probably tell u d whole trip in another blog...so heres d before redang blog soon there is ta b an after redang blog...so yea im unreasonably young and i think that i better enjoy now then wait for back aches,grey hair,bad knee,kids,other tourist,global warming and polution ta ruin everything when im 50 so yea im so psyched!!!time ta pull out that bikini,down that drink and shake my money maker wooooooooooo YEAH!!
if im not mistaken this is where im headed...yea eat ur heart out

currently listening to- now that were done by metro station

-wont be seventeen forever-

hugs and kisses <333
-denise

dead circus and rotten tennis balls

2009-06-06T03:51:00.000-07:00

every time every f**king time! OH MY GOD!!!....i dont know what to even say anymore...im just so angry so upset so ish-grrrrr-AHHH! i seriously dont know whats to do...what im feeling? idk anger, hatred, guilt?....yea alot of people come up with stupid stuff to say like when 'one door closes another opens' just cuz they cant freakin deal with life....yea and u know what else?! what they dont f**king tell u is that when that dam door closes it does not care if ur standing in between it just slams u in d f**king face! n u just gotta deal with that big bruise that on ur f**king nose from d door smack while u take for ever to f**king find d f**king key to d other f**king door...

if im messed up whos to blame? is it me? if he blames u would u push d blame straight to me? well im not buying into that shit no more

ok im done bitching
okbai

currently listening to- i can tell-saosin

-im nightmare a disaster,thats what u always say-

kicks and slaps
-denise-

if water lillys grow on d moon....

2009-06-05T10:26:00.000-07:00

ok i just got back from wey liam's surprise partay...hope he liked it...and i was clearing out my phone and i found a couple of old pics...all stuck in der so i tot i'd post it....okok plz dun complain about d quality but im not like sum rich person who owns my own digital camera...so bite me anyway here it is....so here are sum pieces of my life captured in a frozen time...

me & alene-my 17 bday
me and chia - my 17 bday

alene,me,taryna,victoria,jenny-my 17 bday

darryl,alene,simon,me,philbert,jenny,taryna,victoria,wilson-my 17 bday

me,alene,taryna,jenny....-my 17 bday

summit toilet-leo forum i think it was 2007?

yes that is a JD bottle,yes thats an attendance sheet,yes we were drinking in class >.<

me on d right my causin on d left...i dont rmb d aunty tho....

tequila sunrise(aaron), screwdriver(eunice), blue lagoon(me!!)

haha g-string...long story (not mine)

my batman etching...not done yet its been what...a year...well i need my inspiration

heineken-stylo fashion week 2008'

stylo fashion week 2008' (my working outfit)

left=my sister, right=me (sunway lagoon-my 19bday)

well thats all for now folkz...im pretty sleepy so nites...>.<

currently listening and obsessing with:
Jon Schmidt - cherished moments <--REALLY AWESOME!!!! ( d 1st song on my music player)
Jon Schmidt - love story meets viva la vida

-if all else fails then i'll jump for you-

hugs and kisses<333
-denise-over and out-

2009-06-03T01:31:00.000-07:00

ok warning to people who dun reli give a dam...this blog is about me whining about how sick i am so if u dont wanna read just click on sum of my other friends link by d side bar ----> i bet they have better things to say so here goes...dont tell me i didnt warn u

ok so it all started mainly on sunday...my sister who is sooooooo prone ta flu as always....got d friggin flu...well "cold" thats what she calls it anyway. yea and as we are sisters i stupidly but gladly ask her ta teman me watch one tree hill which means spending 3-4? hours straight beside a sick person (i know how stoopeed of me rite?)

and so on monday i could feel myself getting sick but what ever rite its juz sum flu...so went to coll...blablabla...i was thinkin to myself how boring todays gonna b. n juz as i was finishin coll den a call fr william came yay..he ask me if i was free n wanted ta teman him n cherly go shopping n i was like ok y not? but in d end no one had car xcept me n i tot well ok i'll fetch dem...i mean if i dint go means i'd b staying at home bored senseless rite?

so we went out shopping...haha william called me to teman him so he wont be bored but in d end im a girl rite? and everything was on sale so i bet he was d one bored stiff...anyhow while shopping another friend eunice called me she asked if i was free n it did not involve me driving...so i was like ok what u wanna do...i expected a reply like-ok lets yum cha at tanjung later....but instead a reply came u wanna go to genting later...?

haha n i tot my day was gonna be totaly boring. so i juz stood der mind blank...mind u i was still sick at dat time...n i was like um ok y not rite haha...i mean im gonna have as much fun as i can while im still young n not let sum stoopid flu stop me fr havin fun...so den about 7 sumthing i bring cherly n william back...went home did sum things 4 me daddy, shower,got dressed...n by that time it was about 8.30....yea i shower really long i dunno y...

so den eunice came...her sister was driving...went to piramid fetch aaron and off to genting...our little road trip was fun alot of talking n bonding?...so when we reach der it was about 10 sumthing (fyi-d last time i went to genting was when i was 12?)walked around abit...saw ALOT of lala people...my stupid nose was running like a freaking water pump...really embrassing...den we sat at starbucks. i had my ussual orange juice yes i go ta star bucks n drink orange juice as for many people out der who dont know...(i hate coffee but i love starbucks) hah weird rite?

so we jus sat der talked chilled alot of jokes were made about me during diz time...ppl can be so evil sumtimes but anyhow...walked back ta d car...do stupid things...haha (not gonna say what)-go figure-made alot of jokes about eunice n her height haha n sumthing about d moon n her transforming into a half wolf cuz it was juz a half moon...get it? no? nvm...n sumthing about her head being to big hahaha

so we begin our road trip back...with d windows down...liz is gonna love diz-natural aircond (save d planet woohoo!)...slept awhile,talked,joked...so den we send aaron back to puchong 1st...and almost hit a...wait for it...a COW...yea im not kidding a freaking COW...what in d world of purple magic mountains is der a COW doing in d middle of a highway in puchong?! i mean wtf!! rite?! haha so we panicked missed hitting a bloody demented cow by 3 freaking inch...got home n KO..

so den yesterday thats when my flu really bite me in d ass...gosh my nose was still running,my brains felt like it was made of liquid n was sloshing around in me skull,i was sweating ever 5 mins but i was freaking freezing,i could not stand longer then 5 mins without breaking out in sweat, could not think straight...slept for 2/3 of d day...i guess me being young n not letting d flu get to me was not d best way to put it...n i think going ta genting was pushing it but honestly i dont regret it one bit...

so went ta d doctor at nite checked my temp was 38.7 yea...n he gave me sum med n sum nasty white liquid stuff<---bleh i absolutely freaking hate hate hate liquid med ugggh...slept more...woke up diz morning could not think straight...mum wanted ta go out n eat so yea drove ta ss15 but unfortunately d shop is not open so by that time i still could not think straight n i was shaking but i was not gonna ruin my mums breakfast so we went to mac.d n i vould not freaking side park!!! i had to reverse 4 freaking times...gotta be kidding me!...yea so got back slept even more and finnally wrote diz blog... yeap...now im still not feeling well but not feelin that bad either...so yea im probably gonna go sleep more...nites...

-and so it goes...-

hugs and kisses <333
-denise-

blue lagoon,screwdriver and red martinies

2009-05-31T04:34:00.000-07:00

so last nite and d nite b4 was awesome!! went out wif eun,aaron n d next day liz also join us...yea had fun, enjoyed, chill, listen to loud thumping music, drank a little... my sort of scene...and i just discovered that martinis taste FREAKING AWESOME!!! haha yea no joke...i think fr now on thats what im gonna drink everytime i go ta a bar...played sum "bull shit" haha love that game but can never ever win but it was awesome anyhow...so yea i probably go der every friday n saturday for d rest of my life...i took a pic of our drink but my camera sucked so much its blur n stuff...so im not gotta post it up...but i probably post it when i get d copy from aaron...haha gud guy jus met him n already hes so nice >.< omg...

to sumone....
-such a gentleman is hard to come by
-ur probably d most gentleman among d rest
-i want u
-i want u to treat me right,with kindness n respect...i do belive u could.
-i think i have fallen in love with u even of my not wanting commitment

-die welt im tageslicht hat keine jemals glücklich gemacht-
-the existance of day light had made no one lucky-

my top songs now
-joe black - child catcher
-joe black - the tragic tale of peter scarecrow
-tanz der vampire - unstillbar gier
-tanz der vampire - carpe noctem
-tanz der vampire - totale finsternis
- the script- the man that cant be moved

hugs and kisses <333
-denise-

Dind Ding Ding Round 1

2009-05-29T03:12:00.000-07:00

Yay!!

hear-yee hear-yee!

everybody out there i finally create a blog...
and y?u may ask...after so long..

well ysterday evenin i saw my sister was so into her blog n editing d fonts n colourin her words n stuff,looks fun den at nite i went out wid sum friends to watch terminator (which is awesome btw) n later went to yam cha....n when we were talking suddenly talk about blogging..n all my friends that own a blog were like talking dam exited bout it...so i decided to open one =) yay me..

so as this is my first blog im probably gonna keep it short n sweet >.< but i can feel another blog coming soon....already plannin wut to write...so yea i dun think its b long till i update...i think it will b tmr...

-stay gold-

hugs and kisses <333
-denise-

my mind my world

how far would you go?

feels like bacon...what do u say?

i want to be a patchouli burger

Aquarious

a dark mass

packing heave gear

laying down a base fire

those dreamy blue eyes

A gunners day is never done

kiss me im beautiful...

life is a mayo jar..the rest is just sand...

star power

the beast - jefferson peters

dont you just wanna...

my family is a box of chicken rice...*smiles*

all this

smile though your heart is breaking

blueper

in the shady side of youth

sweet surrender

let us run when the darkness fall

sleep is just a dream

whe blue skys go grey

i like to make myself belive that planet earth turns slow-ly

when ur dreaming fishes do acctually eat ur toe

i will stab u with my usb cable

lalalalala

blablablablablabalabla bloop

the dance of the jumping potatoes

i will stab you with a piece of lemon- aid

despo plan with 'soh hai' frens

peter picked a pack of pickeled pepper <3

caould i play with your twangger?

ice-cream originated from eating igloos

brain WAVE concert tonight!

Go quiet through the trees

scream and shout, cream then pout

up your *bleep*

a lost hope

nailpolish

so youre brad pitt

enough said

diamond star ship

starry starry night

rocking the nanny jammies

i found a small potato

infant wizards will kill you in your sleep

more teeth than a t-rexy YO!

i'll give you 25cents, including your guy

in northpole they have seafood mafias

...

sometime we just...

tadpoles grapefruit yay!

on the east coast a dwarf must have 3 yellow sock

if a fork was called a bubble what colour would a banana be?

blue munchkins will one day rule

if d world was stuck in black n white i would parade around in a red dress

if pigs could fly...i'd take up hunting

i kissed a girl and *BANG* ...dies

let it be...just let it be

flabby tea spoon...weewooo

in my world people poop butterfly's yay!

sometimes its just really all about the dancing sandwitch

japanese ninja kung-fu pants

i can rock a grannypantie better then you

penut better butterfly wings

goop filled lamp

if u look reli hard u can find a pizza bottle on the big toe of ur right index finger

if i could i'd go where ever you will go

my kangaroo has a foot like a right handed t-rex (beat that)

humming pink fuzzballs

pink apples grow from grape trees

you are the styrofoam penuts to the poorly packed cardboard box of my heart <3

My heart is heavy because my idol died

shoot urself in d foot using a sharp piece of cheese...cheers

purple giraffe

there was a boy....

a blue pig once told me....

header

my family is a box of chicken rice...smiles

up your bleep

i kissed a girl and BANG ...dies

every sunday in d north pole it rains giraffe true story