Aquarious

everybody is doing something there always going somewhere...but now i ask..what am i doing? where am i going?...i got a question from someone today...where do u see yourself in 5 years? honestly, i really cant tell you...its u ask me that same question 5 years ago i'd give you the same answer...but if it didnt matter then...would it matter now? does one get wiser as one get older? or does one choose to get wiser...u always read rich people being rich and how poor people became rich...but no one really tell u about middle class people...what happens to them? are we all just doomed?...does your life really follow a certain master plan? or is your life based on the decisions that you make?...

a dark mass

what does it feel like
to see the dark mass spout
in front of u unexpectedly?

your body shakes with the sheer force
of the bark
each shout feels like a release

now ur looking at a pair of hand clutching
on the edge of the sink
distand , how very disconnected u feel

your head swirls your eyes start to roll
u breath but ur throat is clogged
by the remainder of the dark mass

and all you can do is pray for the
release

packing heave gear

is the human imagination deeper then what it seems?

how do you know the limitation of your mind if every time you see something that triggers your senses you cant help but to imagine...what if it were you?

when somebody tells you a story do you imagined it the way it happen? or do u imagine how u wish it would have been?...
the human mind and eye crave action, destruction and tragedy more then anything. the prove is in everyday occurring things like when there is a building being demolished the crowd is always bigger, when theres a tragic movie people flock to the cinema. when somebody is acting a little different we gossip of the worst that could be. we like to see ourselves as hopeless creatures always looking at a higher power to make it better.

why do we crave to create drama out of everything that pass our way?

avatar- james cameron
-i was not the one to be shot light years into space
hugs&kisses

laying down a base fire

how sick is this song?!!!love it!! it just makes me wanna get up and start dancing...WOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

you know i know how

to make them stop and stare

as i zone out

im feeling really in the NEON mood









so i been doin much assignment...n i finally dyed a patch of my hair pink which turned blond but still looks GREAT! i feel more designer with this rather then just bland brown hair...so i still got alot of work to do i just update this to show that my blog is NOT dead...i'll try to put in some awesome pics of tattoo next time round...when im free

those dreamy blue eyes

its been kinda long but i just wanted to say that im SUPER proud of my sister...in cheer 2010 to me she did the BEST...better then anyone out there...the commitment she spent, going for practicing, on SATURDAY MORNINGS...trust me i know after she keep bugging me to fetch her at 7 freaking am on SUNDAY mornings...i mean who actually wakes up at that kind of time on a SUNDAY?!!!during the weeks..no months before cheer 2010 she has been radiating with energy...sometimes she gets a little cranky like a typical teen but almost EVERYTIME shes just bouncing around the room n of the wall...cheer 2010 may not have given her an award but to me she wont the best n biggest award in my eyes...


honestly i NEVER particularly like cheerleaders...i still dont...n i probably never will..its just something about too much fake drama and the way they radiate false perkiness just disgust me, n d annoying part is that they dont just use it during their routine but they bring that attitude EVERY effing where they go...but this is just me just see my sister as a goofball doing all the splits and all that aerodynamic jumping, and karate chop flying kick whatever the hell u call that cheerleaders stunts...liz im SOO PROUD OF U!!i know i might not be there for many of ur event n things but im glad i was there to witness u beings in the ZONE n awesome


even if other people cant see, i saw all the hard work u put into making this work, from putting the squad together to collecting fees, finding a coach, coming up with ur own money, designing the uniform, choosing the color, finding a damn tailor, finding sponsors, sacrificing that 1 competition to teman me go c tokio hotel (even if u also wanted to see them) i know how much u also wanted to go to that competition, coming up with a routine, research, watching countless vids on cheering, learning from the vids, practicing on a lousy matress/mat with LIMITED space crashing into furnitures, staying up until dunno what time to do the banners n sign board...so yea even if i din rely give much of a damn, i still notice u doing all this n i salute u (world war 2 style)...if anyone asked me who my fav cheerleader in d whole world is i would say its you...



im so proud of u and i know that
chilli, bat, pierce, josh, pink, dunja, jeff, brownie and everyone from the acidjunkies are as proud of u as i am

A gunners day is never done

so here is a dose of world war II history

facts:-

Between 1939 and 1945 the Allies dropped 3.4 million tons of bombs, An average of about 27,700 tons of bombs each month.
(thats 1 shit load of bombs)

80% of Soviet males born in 1923 didn't survive World War 2
(wonder what happen to the other 20%)

3 or 4 ground men were wounded for each killed
(so if i had a group of 5 ppl 1 is meant to die and the other 4 wounded)

6 bomber crewmen were killed for each one wounded
(bad statics)

There were 433 Medals of Honor awarded during World War 2, 219 of them were given after the receipiant's death

40,000 men served on U-Boats during World War 2; 30,000 never returned

The US Army had more ships that the US Navy.
(why?)

The German Air Force had 22 infantry divisions, 2 armor divisions, and 11 paratroop divisions. None of them were capable of airborne operations. The German Army had paratroops who WERE capable of airborne operations.
(haha...get it?)

84 German Generals were executed by Hitler
(better not get on his bad side)

Among the first "Germans" captured at Normandy were several Koreans. They had been forced to fight for the Japanese Army until they were captured by the Russians and forced to fight for the Russian Army until they were captured by the Germans and forced to fight for the German Army until they were capture by the US Army.
(koreans? really? so sesat)

in the concentration camps an average of 6000 jews were killed in the gas chamber daily
(my advise...dont be a german jew during WW II)

women's hair (shaved from the heads of victims before they entered the gas chambers) was recycled for use in products such as rugs and socks.
(SOCKS!!! out of dead ppls hair?can u imagine if ur feets were freezing in the night?...i'd rather let my toes drop off)

Most members of the Waffen SS were not German.
(let me guess...they were koreans?)

The only nation that Germany declared war on was the USA.
(so much for draging all of europe into war...)


best funny fact:-
A number of air crewmen died of farts.yes u read correct FARTS (ascending to 20,000 ft. in an un-pressurized aircraft causes intestinal gas to expand 300%!)


heres a poem written by a pregnant wife of a soider that went of to fight in world war II..

WAR BABY
He has not even seen you, he
Who gave you your mortality;
And you, so small, how can you guess
His courage or his loveliness?

Yet in my quiet mind I pray
He passed you on the darkling way -
His death, your birth, so much the same -
And holding you, breathed once your name.

- Pamela Holmes


thats all for now...nites...
dont let those torpedoes wake u...

i need to bitch..like big time...
OMG!!!!! SO F**king frustrated, i feel intense and claustrophobic, my fingers feel like curling and my ears feel like i just heard an orchestra of fingernail scratching on a chalk board,






!!!! @%$#@%&^%$!!!!!...why cant they just have microsoft f**king words for computer genius and microsoft f**king words for normal people?! GOSH! ITS 1.30 freaking am, and i cant F**KIng get the DAMNED Page numbers right, cuz microsoft words apparently has a mind of its own to just put random numbers on random pages...when i put page 1 as page 1...page 3 becomes page 1 also then page 57 becomes page 54 and page 2 becomes page 4...then when i correct it page 1 has NO number...page 2 becomes page 3 and the rest of the pages are right...then i do it again and all my documents are gone...when i undo it all my documents are jumble...and it goes like that on and on for 30 freaking minutes...i mean W.T.freaking.H then when i go out and wanna start new, a message pops up... 'do u wanna save the changes made on this doc.?'...i mean SERIOUSLY? do u thing i wanna save any changes that u fucked up for me?...um let me check....NO!! so i go back in and try to do it again...n guess wut...lo and behold it all happens A.G.A.I.N!!!! BAH! UGGGH!!!!! i feel like shooting someone up the nostrils so the brain will come splattering out from the top! *shoots myself in the left knee* and dies..
i dont care now...im gonna go press publish post then im gonna click SHUT FREAKING DOWN and crawl into my BED and fall asleep..

kiss me im beautiful...

WARNING: NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED
i love art
but among all the kind of art that i like, the one that i ABSO(FRAKING)LUTELY LOVE would have to be body art...yes any sort of permanent body modification. piercing,tattoo,branding,scarification etc etc...
as for now im gonna talk about a little bit about MY LIMITED knowledge about branding and scarification

branding - is very similar to branding a cow. farmers used this method to identify their life stock so that they dont get mixed up with their neighbors livestock. its more like burning the skin

scarification - is the straight forward cutting away of the skin...

this are some pictures of the traditional branding of a cow...
the branding iron is heated

then the red hot iron is pressed onto the skin

the outcome


this are some images of branding and scarification on people
this are some of the thing that BLOW my mind








this is the wound right after its been clean


this is the wound during the heaing process





THE PROCESS
the cutting away of the skin...not for the fainthearted


healing process

1st design freshly healed (still abit pinkish) and the biggining of the 2nd design


both design nicely healed





branding and tattoo combined


fade away style...LOVE the idea


Beautifully done



The MOST beautiful brandindg i have ever seen...the way the scar heal the thickness of the scar is all level and the artwork detail all included...i can say this is the most perfect one i've ever seen
artwork done by john joyce a true artist in my eye
I AM gonna get one of these....DEFINITELY,
hopefully in the not to distant future...




Now u know y i love body art?


pink - aerosmith
-you can be my flamingo
hugs& kisses <333

life is a mayo jar..the rest is just sand...

When things in your life seem, Almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class

And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
And proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.

The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again
If the jar was full... They agreed it was.

The professor next picked up a box of sand

And poured it into the jar.. Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded
With an unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced Two cups of coffee from under the table
And poured the entire contents Into the jar, effectively
Filling the empty space between the sand.
The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, As the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life..
The golf balls are the important things - God, family,
children, health, friends, and favorite passions –

Things that if everything else was lost

And only they remained, your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter Like your job, house, and car.

The sand is everything else --
The small stuff.

'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life..

If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are
Important to you.

So...

Pay attention to the things That are critical to your happiness.
Playwith your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time
To clean the house and fix the disposal.

'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand
And inquired what the coffee represented.

The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.

It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.

star power

so as u know i dont really post about my day to day life...but this post is an exception...because yesterday is one of the BEST day in my life...
so here goes..it all happen when my dearest handsome told me that my FAVOURITE band of all is making their way down to malaysia...
so i set out on a quest to hunt down the tickets...so i finally bought 2 tix to go for the concert...1 for me and another for my sis...so fast forward to 1 MAY 2010...a day to remember...a day when







came to MALAYSIA
owh yeah!!!
so pictures i took speak more then my words...so here

waiting in line to get their autograph



my darl

my sister




The concert

BILL KAULITZ

TOM KAULITZ

BILL KAULITZ

ME

MY CRAZY SISTER


ALL HUMANOID

All my Tokio Hotel stuff

all stars...
-6 TH humanoid cd cover
-1 TH scream cd cover
-1 AAR drumstick
-1 RM 10, ry craike autograph
-2 RM 1- dylan graves autograph
-1 backstreet boys concert tix
-2 avril guitar pick ( 1-pink, 1-Black)
-1 AAR guitar pick
-1 GC good morning revival cd cover



zoom into me- tokio hotel
one day i will be ready to go,
see the world behind my wall
hugs & kisses <33333333