sweet surrender

so today was my interview day...overall it went pretty well...so im glad...d dragon lady acctualy pretty nice...so the company im gonna go slave for is called "monica quen"...its like an oriental chinese clothes shop + british idia... its much cheong sam...some modern chillax clothes n alot of zen-ness...d place is pretty clam so i thing i'll be calm ish...my working hurs will b sort of bitchy its 10-8 its all d way in damansra heights almost reaching bangsar...its a meidum-ish sort of brand...but since it kinda major in cheong sam d next few weeks will b very hectic...n im joining them on d best time...next mon i start...n straight away d next day (tues) were goin ta pinang ta set up a stall for d chinese new year sales...n after that (i dunno when) is a trip ta melacca ta set up a stall der also...so yeah...lost of work...n they're not waisting ANY time...so here r sum stuff from d shop thats on sale...





n this is how d shop looks like




-to jake the son i never had...i love you
America's Suitehearts- fall out boy
hugs n kisses <333333333

let us run when the darkness fall

so its 3 more days till new year...n im so freaked out...im petrified of the next year...normally i love it when a new year comes...it usually means time for new things...but next year is just gonna b crazee...

1. im starting my internship on 4 jan...
2. i heard that my boss would b pretty strict
3. i hv to stand 3 months of this lady (the boss)
4. my final fashion show is next year...it has to be PERFECT
5. my course finish next year
6. impress italian lecturers with my collection n get a scholarship to italy
7. if no.6 does not turn out then, my visa is only up to next year november...which means either get a job or leave d country.

im so dead
neway so thats d update...im panicking n im gonna go print my resume for my internship...d interviews tmr at 11am by d way...hope i get accepted...

-i need your grip to keep me from falling apart
lass uns laufen- tokio hotel
hugs&kisses <333333

sleep is just a dream

its 3.21am n i cant fall asleep...tmr im goin out early with my darl...which means i NEED to get sum rest but for sum fucked reason i just cant sleep...i dunno wut happen to me but i guess im just being realy paranoid n thinking way to much...so rite now im feeling like a sad, lost, puppy that has been kicked around...

my future? well heres d perfect word to describe it....FUCKED...

yea pretty much considering i had ppl nice enuff to fuck it up for me...

before this i just wanted to bolt out of this demented country every chance i got dreaming big about other country n goin back to germany...living there...but then i met him...my darl...i love him and he makes me happy...many people around me cant seem to c that n i dunno why...right now he is d only one that has enough of my heart to break it...he change my life alot...not that i flipped it 180 just for him, but he make me realize all the little things i never realy used to give damn about...he makes me laugh when i dont even wanna smile...when im down he cheers me up, when im cold he warms me, when im in pain he makes me laugh so hard my pain is gone n my ribs hurt from laughing instead, even if i fall asleep every night n ditch him he still comes over n teman me...

the point is what im thinking of is that after my coll i MUST leave n these is one of the reason why i dont wanna leave...thats why i cant sleep...

-n so it goes...
please tell me what im suppose to do?
hugs n kisses<3

whe blue skys go grey

i feels the urge to bitch slap a certain someone....

btw...its my last day of coll today...so yea im kinda happy...i got d pattern pieces to make a kimono...whoooo and i got it in 1/4 scale...incase u guy dunno what that means, 1/4 scale is the size of barbie....so yeah i can make kimono for barbie...anyone wanna derma me 1 barbie doll? just so i can try out my next collection?


hugsnkisses <3333

i like to make myself belive that planet earth turns slow-ly

im a very good person in general...but i sometimes like to be an internet psycho like i like to treaten people with body-ly harm and that i will kung fu u...i also want ta let u know that i master in the ancient art of ORIGAMI(not true,i just had nothing to say)...ok babai...

-and now that youre eyes are sore from crying...
-SENDING christmas cheere! your way
-faye wong- track 2 (dunno d title)
hugs and drunken kisses <3333333

when ur dreaming fishes do acctually eat ur toe

i was about to go take a shower when my sis went in to take her shower...so now i just decided mite as well write a new post...so yeah just got back from 1u....so tired

1. tmr im having another fashion show.
2. had to go to the venue which is at (mardigras bar/club) for the brefing about tmr
3. was doing stuff d whole day getting redy 4 tmr
4. i stand practicly d whole day
5. my head is pounding
6. coordinating models *dies* (models are one of the worst creature to ever roam the face of the earth)
7.rehersal
8.listening to loud pounding music....mind u i love LOUD POUNDING MUSIC...but since the fashion show theme is 70's so yeap....LOUD POUNDING 70's *^&@$#%@*&*^ MUSIC.
(daddy.daddy cool, thats d way uh-huh uh-huh i like it uh-huh uh-huh)
9. to top of everything 2 freaking HUGE ASS STRAY DOGS (1 is a german shepered) decided to camp outside my house main gate...last time i had this but that was a skinny binny emo dog....but these 2 new stray dogs are like MASSIVE there like BEARS really BIG ones...not lying....i nvr seen a german shepered to huge b4....it must be a mutant dog...(there like jacob from twilight when he is a wolf). all this is due to cuz i got 3 female dogs...yay me...

but even if i am freaking tired im still rely psyched about tmr...another excuse to party party n drink (free flow) hahaha

ok i hear my sis is done...im gonna go shower now...babai

*people around me are being RELY hyppocrete (cant spell)

*i need to shoot myself in the foot*
the pounding of my head- denise
hugs n kisses <33333