star power

so as u know i dont really post about my day to day life...but this post is an exception...because yesterday is one of the BEST day in my life...
so here goes..it all happen when my dearest handsome told me that my FAVOURITE band of all is making their way down to malaysia...
so i set out on a quest to hunt down the tickets...so i finally bought 2 tix to go for the concert...1 for me and another for my sis...so fast forward to 1 MAY 2010...a day to remember...a day when







came to MALAYSIA
owh yeah!!!
so pictures i took speak more then my words...so here

waiting in line to get their autograph



my darl

my sister




The concert

BILL KAULITZ

TOM KAULITZ

BILL KAULITZ

ME

MY CRAZY SISTER


ALL HUMANOID

All my Tokio Hotel stuff

all stars...
-6 TH humanoid cd cover
-1 TH scream cd cover
-1 AAR drumstick
-1 RM 10, ry craike autograph
-2 RM 1- dylan graves autograph
-1 backstreet boys concert tix
-2 avril guitar pick ( 1-pink, 1-Black)
-1 AAR guitar pick
-1 GC good morning revival cd cover



zoom into me- tokio hotel
one day i will be ready to go,
see the world behind my wall
hugs & kisses <33333333

the beast - jefferson peters

in time of great annoyance one always wishes to rebel,
may it be against the sun or moon or stars,
like a jug of incents one is easily disposed,
the the beholder embraces the jug of which
keeps saves its precious contents
then worshiped its content till the river run dry,
then disposes of it;

tying the hinds of a donkey may be hard,
but tying the hinds of a donkey,
and its offspring together is impossible,
while the life of a donkey may be laborous and difficult
it has no inside,
everything is just as is,
labour is a choice, while the smart ones get away
the hard workers stays,
duped of freedom ever time is set clear,
while a wolf may get away with a sheep clothing
everyone can still tell the diffrence between a
donkey and a sheep
the intensity of the life of a donkey
is as much as a speck of dust gathered on a dukes coat
therefore kicking and bouncing is what
the beast would do...

dont you just wanna...

eat this right now


get this (massage i mean)


see this tree live


squeel at this picture


own this wig


own all this

live during this zaman


smash/punch/break this face


travel around like this


be a part of this


hug/calm this guy


came up with this idea


get tattooed by this guy


have this guys brain


get a tatoo like this


live in a world as magical as this


own this range of toy again


draw like this


create this range of master pieces


star in this musical


have eyes/hair like this


take a pic like this with the one u love


ROCK this look


have a casual conversation whith this guy


be featured in this movie/wear all d costumes


see him preform at least once


get tattoed up like her


get this hair cut

do this


play fetch with these creature


wear this shoe


ride this roller coaster


drive this car


go to this college


swim in this pool


laugh at this guy/see this n motion


go here for a holiyday


Rock out with her (PINK)

my family is a box of chicken rice...*smiles*

i was bored so this is what i did...
yes i know that im suppose ta put up stuff that i promised in the last post but im just gonna have to postpone that to a diffrent time...anyway heres wut i did...
not many people know that i have a collection of a very diffrent sort...its not your ussual stamp collecting
i collect the movie tickets that i watch...i dunno if u guys do it but yeah...it started way back when i went out with a bunch of friends n one of them said that he keeps the movie tickets of nice movie that he watch...n he was gonna keep that movie we were watching punya ticket...but for how long i dunno...(and that was my first ticket that i keep-i still got it now )n ever since then i always keep my movie ticket..sure many got lost in the process of transfering them from my wallet to my collection box so what i manage to get was this...and since i was kinda wanting to do this for a long time already, i decided to do it now...so i made a record n this is what i found out..

from the oldest ticket dating back to 2004
1. i have spend a total of RM1461.00 ++ (NOT counting the tickets that got lost) on movies alone..

2.the most cheapest movie =RM5
the most expensive movie = RM18 (i dint know movies can cost that much...its a 3-d movie btw)

3. the oldest ticket is
7 FEB 2004
GOTHIKA
18 pl 7.20p.m
cinema 2 seat N12
sunway TGV

4. the most recent is
16 FEB 2010
Percy Jackson
U 4.00p.m
cinema 10 seat F11
KLCC TGV

gonna keep on collecting them till i turn 99 n there totaly faded that the ticket is practicly crispy!!

thats about it ok im gonna sleep now...nites!!
trees- Keiko Matsui
come home i've been waiting for you
hugs n kisses <333333

all this

just post this to let ppl know that im not dead yet...
yes im indulging in everything chinese new year-ish
n all my ang pow-nes
yay!! didididi...
i think i just might do my next blog of all the things that i love...as in material things...mostly what i surround myself with/whats in my room...
since my new phone has a better (not d best in the world) but good enough for me, camera...i'll be taking pics of random things in my life that holds meaning to me...every individual thing means something to me either at that particular time or even now...sentimental things, simple things that bring me happyness just by looking at them...
purpuse: i moved alot since i was born/ when i could remember...taking residence in many diffrent places a rough total of:-
3 houses
5 apartments
and among this i've lived in 3 difrent countries
move to europe n back to asia 2 times

i've lost many things in the process of moving so much... thats y when now that i get the chance i'll make the next(hopefully) post of all sentimental things for my own save keeping...and im letting who ever reads my blog a little peek as to why i keep little meaningless things...

i dream a dream-(original singer)

the rain is falling hard.
and its getting dark in here.
let us run free.
lets run when the darkness comes.
to where ever the wind blows.
be it the ends of the world.
i dont know what was.
i dont know what will be.
i know only that you are near.
that you are here.
to know all this this is us,
all this is we,
this..is...
ME -denise

smile though your heart is breaking

my heart is aching

so many people im trying to please its just tearing me apart...one pull me this way n another d other way...so upset...my eyes are sore from crying already...im so tired...so tired...trying to please everyone is just bringing myself to pain...all this while im trying so hard to please all the one i love...now i feel so alone...i wanted it so bad to work out...i hate to ask this...but why?...why?

i feel so sad and alone i dunno what to do anymore...i want to talk it over...but it seems i cant talk to anyone...because speaking my point will bring more sadness unto the people i love...n because its the people i love that i trust this whole time to talk to that now i cant talk to anyone any more...but u probably wont get what im trying to say here...its ok...i dont expect u too...the feeling of sadd and lonelyness that im feeling is not possible to express in words...

i want to talk to you...but talking to u will only hurt u n turn our relationship in to a state where we love each other out of pity...n i DONT ever want that...i DONT want people to love me cuz they pity me...so crying is my ONLY option but i have no shoulder to cry on...just a cold lifeless pillow...

i feel so angry...and it bearks me heart even more...why do people still continue to love me? even if i hurt them so bad? wont it just be easier if everybody just give up hope on me?know that im a lost hope n start on? leave this mess i created for myself...beacuse of my selfishness i want everbody to love me...now...i dont have the capasity to love everyone back...n its all just crashing down on me...i wish that i could just stad by n watch my world crash around me rather then be under all the ruble....

i think i'll go to boston,
i think i'll start a new life,
where no one know my name.
boston- augustana
needs hugs n kisses denise

blueper

some people are so touchy...say 1 thing they get pissed off dont say something they also get pissed off...i mean WTH?

n what is wrong with all these amature kids these day...there so annoying it makes me wanna eat a racoons bladder whole...i mean come on la...ur just a bunch of midgets please controll your retard lvl...stay where u should...dont go do sum fucktarded thing on pourpous where you know that someone if bount to take a picture of u n post it on facebook just to show everyone how much of a fucktard you really are...please u just look like a little midget jiggaboo on helium...do allow some capasity for a brain to grow in that full of shit skull that u got there...i just wished that some one was acctually there to see u develope some...probably of all d alcohol consumption u fucked it up yourself...u think u so cool just cuz u down 2345665665312 bottles of beer? i drink alcohol LESS often then you n yet when where at a party u cant hold your alcohol longer than 5 min of consuming it...thats now how u drink alcohol bitch...u suppose to be able to hold it...then call yourself a winner...gosh u never grow up...i hated u i always did, n i dont liked you...i never did...money can only buy you so many friends...and friends can only get you so far...1day youre gonna end up broke n lonely...then u wished you acctually did something that would save you...but till then i'll just watch you burn out...

"fire will always burn itself out, always"

now run along home to mommy...if im youre mommy i'd bitch slap you long ago n ask you to freaking grow a pair since you love it so much...im done with this bullshit

empire state of mine
hugs n kisses <33

in the shady side of youth

overwhelmed all this hectic-ness is finally starting to take a toll on me...early mornings...everyday...no saturday/sundays sleep in for me...n late nights everynite cuz thats the only time i spend with the 1 person who i feel even cares at all for me...im gonna be 20 soon...many people say that i got my whole life laid out infront of me...but i think...really? is having a totaly uncertain future all that nice...well i atleast would like even if its just a little sad pitiful bit of hope...

i feel like a seed in a shady garden with fully grown trees sourrounding me... a seed produce by science using nature...2 completely diffrent world...i grow into a little plant with few leaves...nurtured by a kind lady..a lady called mom...she gave me water...but water alone wont keep me alive so my leaves start to turn brown...once in a while someone will come with an artificial light...n then they would leave and so will my source of light...then only recently came a guy n he notice something...that what im missing is sunlight...so he brought me out under the sun...took care of me...if there were even the slightest sign of weed he'll remove it...he loved me...so my bark became strong,my leaves become greener, but most of all my roots started to grow...but now rainy clouds threaten to blot out the sun...and the only way for me to live would be to cruely uproot me and send me to a different garden...