in my world people poop butterfly's yay!

ok o heres whats on my mind...im gonna be extreemly straight forward and blunt..please do be VERY offended/guilty if u've done me wrong lately cuz diz post is meant ta do that ta u...or do feel special n loved cuz u've done me good lately cuz i love u...n u hv not been like d rest of d jackasses lately... cuz this is 'my mind, my world' if u didnt want to know about it then y would u even read this? no names mention but i think u guys know who u are.

p/s: please dont ask questions

1.u have been the best...even if i never took d chance to get to know u for the younger part of my life.... i'll make it all up...i hope u appriciate everything i do...all d moments we share...all d dorky/goofy/stupid things...i'll try ta give u everyting u want...i honestly missed d times we spend at d old place in our own little world...where posters stared down at us as we drift to sleep n we imagines the world n the what if's...where we would create our own lifes in our mind...yes i still do think about those time n trust me there not gone...i know i dont say this often enuff but u really are the best...may d acidjunkies reign forever...

2.i just met u n already noone makes me feel as comfortable being myself...i am really really glad we met that day yes...we were so close ta not knowing d existance of each other but were here now and nothing can EVER change that...faith?luck? what ever it is im just glad for it...say what they want about us...as long as we know...u make me feel calm, exited, happy, glad, at peace, relaxed...the things u do make me admire ur courage,bravery,caringness,independence,n most of all your loyalty to friends even if they hurt you...

3.ARGGH!!! u know i like it n love it...why u had ta take it away??!!! y d fuck did u had to?! juz cuz u fucking can...well i show u what I FUCKING CAN...u know that i would be upset yet u still went ahead with that RETARDED plan of yours!!well i bet u think i have been tame u better watch it...i have not change one bit...oh no u have been gravely mistaken...u do this to hurt me?! just remember that i know how ta fucking hurt u back way worse...what im gonna do next u brought on urself!...from all this i have seen ur suffering n respected you but now u have push it too far...TOO FUCKIN FAR...i loved you and this is what u do to me...now u've broken this trust...i'll be a damn bitch for u to earn it back...

4.so u dont hv d balls to say it to my face? come on...whats your problem? dont u know how it feels? just to even feel it? or r u jelous cuz u cant share it? mayb u dont feel it yourself...i know that right now i might be gravely misjudging you ...but come on dont be such a hyppocryte what youre doing is not much right as what im doin...were all humans we all make mistakes sometimes we even know that were gonna make that mistake n ignore n d right way n make d mistake anyway...so now u hate me...but put urself in my position? i have tried to get it straight with u...u said ok but what this is i c? so u admit ur wrong? or u being a total hyppocryte again? goin back on ur own words...or is it a sort of revenge?please dont destroy what i have...cuz i never destroy what u had...


pink-boring <---awesome song!!!!

Uh that's hot
Iiiiiit's tasty
It's like a cupcake
It's cotton candy
It melts in your mouth
And lately
I been gettin hunger pains
When you lick your lips while you check me out

Fast car
Boring
Girlfriend
Boring
Got money
Boring
No-oh-oh-oh
Hot friends
Boring
Rock band
Boring
Not interested
No Tha-ank you

If you want me
You're gonna have to catch me
If you wanna touch my whoa-oa-oa
And if you catch me
You're gonna have to show me
How bad you really want my whoa-oa-oa

Yooooooou're Scrumptious
I kinda like it
I'm indecisive
I change my mind a lot
But you're hot (you're so hot)
But I think you kinda know it
Really hopin you don't blow it so bring it

You're tired
Boring
You're sore
Boring
You worked all day
Boring
Whoa-oa-oa-oa
Big boat
Boring
Black AmEx
Listening
Six pack
well, heh


If you want me
You're gonna have to catch me
If you wanna touch my whoa-oa-oa
And if you catch me
You're gonna have to show me
How bad you really want my whoa-oa-oa

Whoa-oa-oa-oa

If I let you catch me
It's because I think you're really cute
And if you don't get it right
I'mma be like really really mad

uh, insert rap here
12345678 Go
Go
That's hot

thank you-dido
if cotton candys where grey what colour would a magicians feet be?
hugs n kisses
xoxoxox
denise

sometimes its just really all about the dancing sandwitch

many people have collection and so i tot i'd share one of mine with you...i collect quotes be it a line from a movie,a famous quote,something out of a book,a pick up line,something scribbled on to the toilet cubicle what ever...here are some of me favorite quotes i got over a couple of years (some i made myself)

-stay gold
-you dazzle me
-yes, you are exactly my brand if heroin
-childhood is a kingdom where nobody dies
-your laugh is my favorite sound in the world
-my gift is my song and this one's for you
-how do you always have an opinion?
-i used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
-we dont need anything were just wasting time
-one things true there always a brand new day
-so go make it happen
-and so it goes....
-the show must go on
-never look back, never look down and never let go
-good morning i see the assassins have failed
-i leave bite marks ---> (sexy sexy)
-i live for the nights i wont remember with the friends i'll never forget
-dont cry rockstar you might ruin your make up
-i wasnt on a mountain when it came to me
-i dont want a conversation i just want to cry infront of you
-if god is a dj,life is a dance floor, love is d rhythm then you are my music
-as the sun sets it reminds me where i wanna be...at a PARTY rocking the night away with you
-everytime my phone rings and i see your name appear...my heart smiles (one of my all time fav)
-im helpless when you smile
-if i dont feel your heartbeat youre to far away
-i want to rip up parts of your shirt and scream at your boobs (just pure brilliant)
-i'll wait here forever just to see you smile
-i dont care if its the moon as long as youre beside me im happy
-youre voice was the soundtrack of my summer
-everyone has a right to be stupid but youre abusing your privileges
-somethings are worth fighting for, somethings are worth dying for, but somethings arent worth a shit at all
-to walk within the line would make my life so boring
-i need to know that i've been to the extreem
-milk does the body good but DAMN how much did you drink? (best pick up line EVER!)
-so knock me off my feet just to make me feel alive
-tell me does she kiss like i used to kiss you?
-the greatest thing you'll ever lern is just to love and be loved in return
-is it enough to die?
-who's gonna call on sunday morning's?
-never say never
- i can do what she can do so much better
-your cant spell slaughter without laughter
-ice ice baby

ich bin da- tokio hotel
turn around i am here
hugs n kisses <333
denise

japanese ninja kung-fu pants

im covered in paint (were repainting d outside of our hus)...to tired to move so all i can really do now is to blog...yea...im gonna go shower in awhile...so i wanna blog bout sumthing but i dunno wat so i hv come up wid a few topic n finally choosen 1 which is...d list of my fav psychopath/ gruesome movie of all time...this are movies i highly encourage ppl who like psycho/ brilliant/ gruel movies....

1.saw 1-5 (pure genius-ness)
2.pathology (awesome plot)
3.hostel 1 &2 (but i oni watch part 2 sister was to freaked out to watch part 1)
4.perfume (love d story line)
5.sweeney todd (love d musical music)
6.awake (another awesone plot/ storyline)

well i think i got alot more but thats all i can think about rite now...so yea...if u guys r bored go buy/rent/borrow or even dwnld if u must trust me u wont regret it...honestly i prefer this kinda category of movies then followed by thriller,comedy,romance...i mean its better then those meaningless movies they making at least in this u can actually c someone really making an effort to think about d whole movie n plot n deaths...so yea...lol i noe u mite think im sum psycho myself for liking such things but honestly im just curious/ facinated by what goes on in a psycho's mind so yea...

so if u guys hv awesome similar movie plz tell me...i like ta watch more ok babai

flightless bird- American mouth
-you cant spell slaughter without laughter-
hugs & kisses <333
denise

i can rock a grannypantie better then you

so one of my teacher had this brilliant idea to add knitting into our study...n so we went to get sum material fr d shop where OLD ladies were all sitting n talking...i felt soooooooo embaressed(cant spell) to be even standing in d shop...so then my teacher went to pick d knitting sticks n wool n ask us ta pick d colours..which were all mild colours...can u belive they dint even have BLACK?!!

anyway got back to class then we start knitting which felt really stupid n awkward...i mean knitting is for OLD PEOPLE!! n so we were all getting tangled n stuff...while learning how ta knit i hv developed a GREAT respect for little old ladies who do knitting cuz getting started is FREAKING hard...so then after like 2 hours of being a bitch...i finally started to get a hang of it...yay n now its AWESOME i mean d stuff u can do is just reli cool...i know...i know....i sound like a granny but its reli satisfiying(cant spell) to see what all my hard work has built up to...

so yea im kinda getting better but i can only do a scarf thing...not so pro to do sweater la...so free lessons to those that wanna learn...hahaha so i guess when im 80 yrs old, wrinkly, bored, half blind n have grand kids i'll probably spend my day knitting...i mean its an awesome past time..hahaha dam i sound like a granny...u should try listening to rock music while knitting..its real inspiring lol thats what i did....ok so here r sum bonus pic i took.(i know but this is d best camera i got in d hus rite now which is y sis fon =.='")

close up

capital M-E- taking back sunday
-i know d sound of a smile in your voice-
granny hugs & kisses (lovelovelove)
-denise-

penut better butterfly wings

yay yay people...sori if i abandoned this blog...but i juz ni reformatted my beloved baby (my lap top) duh...yea it was on d verge of coma so i asked sum friends to do surgery...so now my baby is all fixed up n awesome...haha...u guys better watch out my baby's gonna BLOW your mind!!!...ok yea im bored

anyway so my junior had a fashion show at inti-nilai which went as all fashion shows go...(a typical cycle) exited to chill to stress to boring to caotic to intense to blank to relax to proud... yay anyway went there was bored for 4 hurs doing nothing as usual played with d wigs n do stupid things...then d models finally came so did my work as make up artist damn d models can be reali bitch diva's...so yea got them dressed saw alot of boobies...then d show...blablabla...

anyway went to USJ4 leo iu ystrday...it was an intresting day...alot of intensity in d air...obviously lol (inside joke)...hang out wid aaron n eun (intense domo) lol haha was not expecting it but i saw my OLD OLD OLD buddies yay rhea naa,jenny n carmun...sadly taryna was not der...long time nvr c her ad...

these few days been having not enuff sleep damn...so tmr theres sum exiting news fr my teacher i dunno wut exactly it is but i guess it has sumthing to do with my clothes n design being send to italy n me goin der for holiday next year yeap...so its not confirm yet so plz dun get to exited...

on a diffrent topic how ever EVERY effing one der was so ridiculos with anticipation it was disgusting...falling off their seats to see how d 1st meet up would be like... do u guys seriously all think that i was born ystrday um HELLOW? i mean every freaking eyes were on both of us, even **** i could totaly c it in **** eyes...what? do ppl expect us to be all friendly hellohello?or mayb they all expect me to go over n say hi? be friendly? or be a total bitch? be a stupid? well that would hv been awkward...i mean i'd totaly love ta hv like a mind reading thing on that day jus to hear ppl stupid low shallow mind at work...i notice that many ppl r good at hiding feelings but they ALL SUCK at hiding expectation...i mean what u expect me to do? go right up ta *** n punch *** in d neck?...rip *** wrist veins out? smash *** blob of a head against d wall so *** brains will gloss d floor? or was it d other way round? *** coming up to me n do those things ta me?or mayb we we would suddenly all get along? *** was my old friend n were we best buds in kindergarden? now would that not be just sweet? come on ppl...u cant ALL be that shallow/stupid...another question i BET thats on EVERY one's mind even ****....do i feel treaten? its veri simple. no. y would i be? is it awkward? yea. u bet, since when was it ever NOT?gosh!

Wie Es Ist- Nevada Tan
-Kann und will es nicht riskieren dich und alles zu verliere-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

goop filled lamp

i feel like a freaking zombie rite now...i think im gonna sleep....i dun even know y im blogging...i juz have d urge even if i dunno wat im gonna type next...i belive that if u leave things as they are they will happen naturally...

low millions-eleanor (hvnt heard this in a loooong time)
-i really want this to work-
sQUEESeee n kisses *hearts*heart*heart*
denise


*nites* ZZZZzzzZZzZzZZzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzZzZZzzZzZzzz

if u look reli hard u can find a pizza bottle on the big toe of ur right index finger

soooooooooo yea this week been pretty intresting...d start of coll...stress...n other *ahem* unmentionable things which was also awesome....n yesterday was me first time EVER to a recording studio which by d way was AWESOME...so it goes like this...well long story short instead of goin ta makan we ended up goin ta wey liams coll...he's studying sum audio sumthing sumthing haha dunno wuts it called aaaanyway they hv like all those recording music thinggi n control board wit a million buttons that you always c in those artist recordings n stuff with d room n classic glass window n soundproove things n d mike n drums n guitar...so we decided to stay der with sum of wey liams friends which have like AWESOME voice...every1 der has like a super talent in music be it guitar,drums,vocals...so when i go der i feel so musical sumhow...so wey liam let me try playing drums n thats when i found out i have BAD hand leg coordination...yea reli terrible...so i was banging on those drums like a freaking 5yr old....i bet i was a disgrace of every1 der...but they were nice ppl so yea...so i jakun with EVERY thing der especially d controlboard...found out how ppl record stuff...saw one guy record drums...n how they set up d stuff...n they have this super huge speakers they call 5.1 surround sound which was another AWESOME thing so we played d untimate song linkin park-new devine haha (yea guys eat your damned foot!) i heard its on freaking mega surround sound WHAT UP!...ok i should shaddap now....babai...owh n btw i gotta wake up at 4 freaking A.M tmr morning n drive ta d freaking airport...yea u read rite...gosh 4 is like d time i sleep on saturday nites....so if u saw a thriller looking zombie tmr u noe its me...(ok tat was a lame joke)...i should reli stop talking now...bai

metro station-california
-shoot an apple of my head-
hugs n kisses <333
denise

if i could i'd go where ever you will go

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the stars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


eminem-beautiful
-was n would be- (go figure)
hugs&kisses
denise

my kangaroo has a foot like a right handed t-rex (beat that)

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so im like reli super duper hyper/bored/intense/stressed/happy?
okimdone

howie day-collide
-words are not what they seem sometimes u gotta look inbetween
hugs&kisses <333
denise

humming pink fuzzballs

NOOOOO!!! i got home to my worst nitemare...my most prize n beloved teddy is gone!!!! no DAMMIT! mum had this brilliant idea of throwing it away... all d while i know my mum hated it but i LOVED it...even if one leg is torn out n stitches mark here n der...i feel uber upset rite now n my hands are shaking...i CANT sleep without my teddy!!!! i mean its been there since i can remember...from d millions of teddys i got over my 19 years of life this one was my most loved teddy n now its gone...GONE!!!...another reson as to why im sooooo upset is cuz they dont make teddys of this material anymore...so i CANT get it any more...*sobs*...one more thing about me is that if i relli want to, i can get extreemly attached to things...i miss u my teddy...

good charlotte-broken hearts parade
-u make me so hot make me wanna shout so ridiculous i cant barely stop
hugs&kisses<33
denise

pink apples grow from grape trees

ok so last nite i had a MASSIVE headache but im feeling better now...still a little woosie but i'll b okay...so yea juz got a call fr alene jus now n yea she reminded me tat my lisence(cant spell) expires tomorow GREAT so yea n another thing is that for sum stupid reason d pos does not do it so i gotta go all d way ta jpj n i hv no freaking clue where that is...d best part is that jpj is closed today tmr n day after tmr...oni opens again on monday...so crappy...so now my only wori is how d hell m i suppose ta get to coll on monday?!!! i duwan take bus!! sobs cuz then i gotta wake up like SUPER early n walk a looooooong way...yea im not such a spoiled brat but its just that its d 1st day of coll reopen n i gotta bring about 3? bags so yea...n rite now i feel like bashing my head in for not doin it earlier...stoopid...
n i found back my long lost mp3!!!!! yay!...since i move hus i did not see it already n now i finally found it back...it sounds good to listen to long lost songs...brings bac memories...anyway so heres d list of my new old fav songs that were in my old mp3....

blink 182-miss u (my fav song during that time)
phill collins-u'll be in my heart (tarzan!!)
bon jovi-thank you for loving me (yes i go weak for this song)
many moore-cry (made me cry)
the used-blue and yellow (love the music n instruments)
five for fighting-100 years (meaningful)
Frank Sinatra-old man river (listening to the lyrics)
Elvis Presley-In the Ghetto (im not much of an elvis fan but this song lyrics moved me)
avril- Hot (what he makes me feel rite now)
coldplay- the hardest part (love the music)

my idea of a perfect wedding

Frank Sinatra-old man river
-turn around and take a look at me get the picture fixed in ur memory
hugs&kisses <33
denise