you are the styrofoam penuts to the poorly packed cardboard box of my heart <3

yay i just reach 500 drawing!!woohoo...yea its my assignment i supposse ta draw 1200 sketches so yea...umm im already half way...anyway im thinking of starting a vlog reli reli soon so yea u guys can watch me being awkward talking to d camera alone in my room n laugh at me but yea...so rite now im like watching as many random ppl vlogs on utube n being inspired...n learn ta not do stupid things on my 1st vlog...idk i'll probably start with a tag version n im gonna tag my friends so yea u guys gotta watch out i mite tag u...um i actually already started recording but my window is to bright so when i record u see me as just a black figure against a bright back ground...ok so thats d latest update...OWH yea n i already watch transformers which was awesome btw n im gonna go watch it again tmr...lets c...

owh liz show me a pic she found online n my 1st tot when i looked at it, it totally reminded me of my young time i dunno y..i mean i dunno d artist who did that pic juz a random art work but it just hit me but of cuz thats my opinion so yea i scanned my young pic n where is d art work side by side...u b the judge...



so yea im gonna go continue drawing sketch no.501 n be happy later ok babai

21 guns-greenday
-lets dance the beat is thumping-
hugsnkisses <333
denise

My heart is heavy because my idol died

a trademark move

king of pop

MJ at the peak of his sucess

Awesome voice

awesome moves

awesome-ness

ok so this morning can say so i woke up to a sad tragedy...yes the beloved king of pop just died...when aaron 1st told me i tot it was just sum joke...so went online and right there yahoo news "king of pop dies at 50"...i just sit there stunned, my brains cant process it n my mind cant accept it...

michael jackson- dead...NO! mj CANT die he wasnt just sum super star he was THE! freaking king of pop!hellow?!so yea im real sad i mean he was my childhood hero one of the first singer i ever liked...so yea mj was everything, he could sing,dance,make money...stars like mj only comes only once n i feel reli honored to have lived in the same era...listening to his songs is like taking a time machine back to when i first heard his song during my childhood...n i also feel that because he was part of billions of peoples lifes back when they were younger be it our parents generation or our generation he made impact where ever he went and because of that many people feel a certain bond as if they know him personally thus the loss of him was a lost to many many people...altho i have personally always wished to one day see him...did not have ta b a backstage pass i did not need to shake his hand did not need to witness a concert...just to see him actually there would hv made me happy...but now that would no longer b possible...but to me mj is still not dead yet...he still lives right here in my media player n in the hearts of the people he has touched...n i belive that many people will continue to talk about him of his songs of his greatness in years to come...He wrote songs that generations of yesterday, today and tomorrow will all keep on singing...so here watch this video to remind urself how awesome the great king of pop MICHAEL JACKSON really was

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4tEEXLbzcI&feature=PlayList&p=9A22164DEB6AC57D&index=0&playnext=1
uh yea about that i still hvnt found out how ta post vids here yet

neways juz leave me a comment in d chatbox of ur fav mj song...
OMFG!!!! i just realize tat in my last post i freaking wrote a quote fr MJ!!!FUCK!...(just call my name n i'll be there-fr one of his childhood songs)ok sumhow rite now im pretty FREAKED!

Earth Song-Michael Jackson
-heal d world make it a better place-
hugs&kisses <333
denise

shoot urself in d foot using a sharp piece of cheese...cheers

ok so heres a recap of my life lately...i think im pissing off everyone i know (well except for one person...i think)..i dunno y...all d while, honestly i have become to tame n to giving that i feel like many people have been climbing over my head...haizz i dun even know...i used to care ALOT for other peoples happiness that now when it comes time for reserving some for myself everyones is turning their back on me...i feel really sadden by this i mean i have always been there for EVERYONE staying up wayyyy past bedtime doin rediculous(cant spell) things just to keep that smile on their face .n now will no one really truely be happy for me? now that i have found my own happiness?i mean honestly u r parcticly among my longest known friend y r u so upset?...well in this state i really can c the people who truely care for me...at least i know now theres someone* there for me...he makes me smile all d time ( ich habt dich wirklich liebt <33)

another thing that really been upsetting me is another 2 friends n their relationship this one im reli sitting on fence im reli reli sori to both of u...both sides r my friend both sides i love both i really care about...both friendship i really value n cherish..n now that they messed up i really cant chooses at all so i decided to tell d truth to both sides...but omg what a big mistake that was...but i guess time will tell...so im juz gonna shut my big pie trap n wait 4 things to settle down i just hope both dun do stupid things to fuck life up for d rest of us...

on a much much lighter note at least i get to see aaron today =) *smiles* ac made my day haha they played 'the O.C'...juz listening ta d theme songs makes me hapi alrdy...i beat aaron at pool again YAY!! haha tho he gave me chances again lol if not i'll b a pathetic player hahhaa...he tot me sum cool shots to make (of cuz i messed them up)he reli is a gud guy...i mean after a looooong day at work n suffering fr headache he still got d patience ta teach me...lol kudous for that...so yea im done blabing im gonna go sleep now...nites!! sweet dreams! dream of me!babai

let it be-Across d universe
-just call my name n i'll b there-
hugs n kisses <333
denise

purple giraffe

IM BACK!!! haha hey people... miss me? okay so heres d drill...im back fr my awesome trip ta redang...but i hvnt got any pic to post yet cuz i din bring cam n all d pic is wit my fren...dun wori there r pictures for u to see alot of awesome ones n sum stupid wan also duh!!... im not gonna write my whole trip down cuz it'll probably be like suuuuuuuuuuper duper long so yea...but alot of thing happen during this 1 week...i'll mention d nice n funny things oni...

so on my redang trip i went with my college buddies cyhthe, william, charls, nick, kary,ee sher n iris....along d way i discover that batu pahat ppl dun drink anything else but soya bean,cin chau n 100+...n d houses in johor are awesome! tall n thin haha...during d whole trip aaron teman me by msg so sweet n at least i din get bored...on my 10 hur trip GOIN to redang was intresting...alot of thing happen,i saw alot of things, heard alot of things n found out alot of things...den when we reach d dock thats when i took my 1st speed boat ride..when we finally reach d place was awesome d water was unbelivably clear (n salty) we stayed in something like a cabin...haha can u imagine? 6 ppl all under 20 yrs old stuck in one cabin haha i feel sad for our neighbours lol...on our 2nd night thats when we unleash all hell haha...we played 007 bang!,monalisa n pinang tree all drinking games...down 1 bottle black lable,1 joker n 1 jackpot wiskey we got so hammered 2 ppl throw up during d nite...took alot of stupid posing pic...so yea pretty much had fun d whole week...snorkel with many fishes, big one, small one,colourfull wan,i also saw nemo n dory haha...one fish even bite my finger, well not really bite la more like suck?...n i felt it but din c but charls told me i ter-kick one huge ass fish..haha sorry fish!!
so yea thats all i gotta say

some say-sum 41
-I'll wait here forever just to see you smile-
hugs & kisses <333
denise

there was a boy....

hey all those ppl reading about my life so far well here is what is...this is my last post for 1week now...as most of u guys noe...im gonna go redang tmr...well its today acctualy since its already 1.48am...so yea make sure u miss me yea! im gonna b gone for a full week...so dun do anything intresting ya cuz i duwan ta miss out on anything...haha so evil...ok im done...n if (touch wood) anything happen ta me on my trip i entitle all me belonging to melissa embert!<--that should make u hapi since u'll be getting all my cd's haha...ok so enjoy u time here while i enjoy my time there n i'll b back with 1million pictures...
ps to ma lil sista-->sorie for abandoning u...dun cry i will buy u stuff n bring bac sand n shell n pictures haha...
ok im done talking babai

stay young-we the kings
-come what may-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

a blue pig once told me....

restless,agitated,intense n juz plain crazy
ok so im reli reli bummed out cuz i dont get to join eun n aaron watch fighting<--i think thats d show name...n d step up actor is acting in it...sumthing tatum?i think...and now there gonna go makan or something shit i badly wanna join dem...dats one thing of having a paranoid old man around sumtimez...uggh 'no u goin redang tmr u gotta rest etc etc'...come on i mean i got 4 hurs or nothing to do-ness in d bus tmr...dont u think that i hv enuff time to sleep den?!!(but now got someone promise to teman me by sms so im looking forward to it already)and even now im so used to night activities so now that i hv nothing to do drives me crazy ,restless n agitated n since im still full of energy its ok if i go out it weares(cant spell) me down so i can sleep later...but now i got all diz hyperness all bottled up i probably cant sleep at all tonite...i feel like a 5yr old kid that juz drank 5bottle of cola n is strapped to a chair...yea imagine d scene 'exrteem hyperness n strapped ta a damn chair = not good'... n also i feel kinda guilty rite now i mean ysterday i say i can go hang out n now pulak stay home whole day n do nothing haizz...so yea...bah..im soooooooooooooooooooooo bored i probably do another post in like 5 mins...i mean that all thats left to do now realli...

gives you hell-AAR
-tonight will b d nite i will fall for u,cuz a guy like u is impossible to find-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

header

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA OMG!!! haha i cant stop cracking up when i look at my header pic...haha shit...its gonna be temporary hah but i cant help it...i gotta share t with d world!!! haha d artist is just brilliant

every sunday in d north pole it rains giraffe *true story*

hmm..ok so here goes...all d while i tot my fon is having battery problem but today i discover something heark breaking...its not batt problem its my fon...my poor baby...so my dad is urging me to buy new fon<--wow rite...but can u imagin i acctualy said no...yea i kid u not i do NOT want to change me fon...i mean i love it!! its my baby n besides all d other new fon jus looks weird...idk mayb im to fussy...so yea continue d story i went to a random fon shop wif my dad n ask fr original batt cost RM195!!omg! den d local wan is RM75...so we went to another fon shop diz time i ask my dad to stay outside n i go ask ori wan d lady say its RM90!! wtf rite...d other shop c my dad got white face so dey charge +105 bucks can u blive?!omg d bad side of being white in malaysia!!..anywayso thats when i discover that its not my batt problem its my fon ='( but i STILL duwan ta change new fon...so then went home had NOTHING to do so since i keep hanging out wif eun n aaron(fitness consultant)i feel pressure ta keep fit..so finally after sooooooooo long of not working out i finally did for 30mins(oh come on i mean i hvnt been working out in a long time so its better to start slow)anyway...after that on9 whole day then went out yum cha with non other then....eunzzzZZzZz n aaron I LEARN new game today haha...stupid but awesome game...play until my hand also shaking...haha "hey king"<--eunice(inside joke)..eunz n aaron later goin out ta sum awesome place c sun rize i want to join!! haizz but tobad i need beauty sleep<-- yes im a princess...haha i just fetch her back at 1am dey gonna leave at 3-4 haha good luck waking up eun!!...ok thats all i gotta say for now...babai
nitez

join me in death-HIM
-i dont want to be just another echo-
hugs n kisses<33
denise

d moon is made of cheese

im feeling really happy now i dont know y...probably some hapi hormones coming out...or is it that *someone* is talking to me idk...but what ever im hapi...i juz manage to finish 1/10 of my assignment<-better then nothing right? (god help me)

here is some of my perspective in...stuff..pholosophy?

-places changes people...
-i belive that every tiny thing u do effects d future even if it is just adding an extra dot on top of d letter i...
-miracles do happen n people just tend to ignore it...
-people around u change u no matter what u do or how u try to avoid it...
-d more u hang out with a person u will start to look like them...
-everything that happens to you is based on what another person did even if he/she is -not related to u<- pretty deep right?
ok im done talking about my philosophy view

good charlotte-dance floor anthem

-it gets better then u know-

hugs n kisses<333
denise

i rather make friends with a purple elephant

ok guys with accents are SO FREAKING HOT!! even d slightest hint of an accent turnz me on...heha(except for arabians-now thats annoying)yea and one in particular is really getting to me...idk probably my history of mix cultured-ness?anyway heres whats worth mentioning i have not been playing pool in like idk 1 n a half years?and guess wut i beat aaron!! who honestly has some awesome pool moves...ok well not realy beat beat la he let me cheat on my last few shots (what a gentle man) but considering that i hvnt picked up a pool stick in a looooooong time im doing pretty well...talking about pool really brings back old old old memories...for better or for worse i dunno...haha had a long history from pool probably thats d reason i've been putting of playing pool for a long time..to painfull..but come on right? i gotta face my demons some how...so yea...in d end i discovered it was not to bad and now...honestly i cant wait to play again. so yea went to watch 17 again (OMG!!) i know i know i never like zac effron i never did i just went to watch jus for some laugh and honestly i recomend it ta any1 who nids a laugh even if u hate zac...trust me...so yea im falling in love...shit...ok really my mind is really random right now and i need to say a few random things not relating to each other so that i can clear me head...ok eunice jus told me some very disturbing religous(cant spell)stuff that got me really wondering...im starting to read angels & demons by dan brown...destry rulz...zac effron looks hot in one scene in d 17 gain where he got out of d car and wore his glasses n leather jacket (come gals dun deny it even if u hate zac)...my mouse is not plugged in...my neighbour is a drummer...i need to watch kevin tarte real life...i never got a msg today ='(...im goin ta redang but somehow rite now at diz very moment i dunno why but surprizingly i got no mood ta go...i played pool diz morning...i need a full body massage...im typing in d dark...ok im gonna go read then sleep now babai

currently listening to: totale finternis - tanz der vampire

-ein mehr von gefuhl und kein land-

hugs n kisses<333
denise

ladybugs are actually flying buttons

ok so its like 3.11 am rite now....i cant freaking sleep and i cant really do anything rite now acctually...and im to lazy to write a super duper looooooooooong post...so yea im blogging about nothing and awkwardness...so i still got another 1200 sketches to do which is so boring...all thats on me mind is redang n d freaking 10 hur bus ride der...im leaving at 9.30 on diz sunday from pudu...i got my dad to bring me there but that probably b soooo idk...i mean come on dad really? i was just wishing someone else to drop me der...someone more idk young?like a friend...but what ever so yea im gonna shut up now and go read FINISH my book n try to fall asleep...i hope i can...this is d time when i wish someone would call me to chat until like 5? cuz im like a freaking owl rite now and i did NOT drink any coffee wadsoever...ok im gonna really shut up now
oh and if any of u play restaurant city i really need tuna and rice so feel free to trade wif me THX

babai nites...

currently listening to- from yesterday-30 seconds to mars

-when words fail...music speaks-

hugs and kisses<333
-denise-

cows have black spots because d sky is blue

okay my comp is being funni...a lil retarded mayb and my artist button (long story) aka d rite side ctrl button on my laptop is being stupid...yea my internet decided to go boogie idk...anyway im just typing this and hope that i can post diz...
anyway here what i really wanna say...ok ready?....

im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang,
im goin redang,im goin redang!!!!!!!WOOOOOOOO!!!!

ok i had to make a big deal of it come on!! its redang!!yea d last time i ever went out of kl to holiday was probably when i was like 12? which was to penang and that dosent really count cuz it was with my auntee...so this time its d classic college road trip,no parents, no adults, no rules, no boyfriend, and NO one ta hold me back yay! im goin with a bunch of friends that have no connection with any of my family and close friend so that means i get to do ANYTHING and get away with it...jelous? yea u should be...ok so im really exited...i mean d only other vacation spot i been to was penang and trengganu but apparently i got no memory of that just that there were many monkeys and fishes<--to eat...so yea it'll be a booze filled 6days away from home haha how awesome does that sound?!!but d down side is...i get to spend 29 hours on d road..yeap no kidding...i'll probably tell u d whole trip in another blog...so heres d before redang blog soon there is ta b an after redang blog...so yea im unreasonably young and i think that i better enjoy now then wait for back aches,grey hair,bad knee,kids,other tourist,global warming and polution ta ruin everything when im 50 so yea im so psyched!!!time ta pull out that bikini,down that drink and shake my money maker wooooooooooo YEAH!!
if im not mistaken this is where im headed...yea eat ur heart out



currently listening to- now that were done by metro station

-wont be seventeen forever-

hugs and kisses <333
-denise

dead circus and rotten tennis balls

every time every f**king time! OH MY GOD!!!....i dont know what to even say anymore...im just so angry so upset so ish-grrrrr-AHHH! i seriously dont know whats to do...what im feeling? idk anger, hatred, guilt?....yea alot of people come up with stupid stuff to say like when 'one door closes another opens' just cuz they cant freakin deal with life....yea and u know what else?! what they dont f**king tell u is that when that dam door closes it does not care if ur standing in between it just slams u in d f**king face! n u just gotta deal with that big bruise that on ur f**king nose from d door smack while u take for ever to f**king find d f**king key to d other f**king door...

if im messed up whos to blame? is it me? if he blames u would u push d blame straight to me? well im not buying into that shit no more

ok im done bitching
okbai

currently listening to- i can tell-saosin

-im nightmare a disaster,thats what u always say-

kicks and slaps
-denise-

if water lillys grow on d moon....

ok i just got back from wey liam's surprise partay...hope he liked it...and i was clearing out my phone and i found a couple of old pics...all stuck in der so i tot i'd post it....okok plz dun complain about d quality but im not like sum rich person who owns my own digital camera...so bite me anyway here it is....so here are sum pieces of my life captured in a frozen time...

me & alene-my 17 bday
me and chia - my 17 bday

alene,me,taryna,victoria,jenny-my 17 bday

darryl,alene,simon,me,philbert,jenny,taryna,victoria,wilson-my 17 bday

me,alene,taryna,jenny....-my 17 bday

summit toilet-leo forum i think it was 2007?

yes that is a JD bottle,yes thats an attendance sheet,yes we were drinking in class >.<

me on d right my causin on d left...i dont rmb d aunty tho....

tequila sunrise(aaron), screwdriver(eunice), blue lagoon(me!!)

haha g-string...long story (not mine)

my batman etching...not done yet its been what...a year...well i need my inspiration

heineken-stylo fashion week 2008'

stylo fashion week 2008' (my working outfit)

left=my sister, right=me (sunway lagoon-my 19bday)

well thats all for now folkz...im pretty sleepy so nites...>.<

currently listening and obsessing with:
Jon Schmidt - cherished moments <--REALLY AWESOME!!!! ( d 1st song on my music player)
Jon Schmidt - love story meets viva la vida

-if all else fails then i'll jump for you-

hugs and kisses<333
-denise-over and out-

ok warning to people who dun reli give a dam...this blog is about me whining about how sick i am so if u dont wanna read just click on sum of my other friends link by d side bar ----> i bet they have better things to say so here goes...dont tell me i didnt warn u

ok so it all started mainly on sunday...my sister who is sooooooo prone ta flu as always....got d friggin flu...well "cold" thats what she calls it anyway. yea and as we are sisters i stupidly but gladly ask her ta teman me watch one tree hill which means spending 3-4? hours straight beside a sick person (i know how stoopeed of me rite?)

and so on monday i could feel myself getting sick but what ever rite its juz sum flu...so went to coll...blablabla...i was thinkin to myself how boring todays gonna b. n juz as i was finishin coll den a call fr william came yay..he ask me if i was free n wanted ta teman him n cherly go shopping n i was like ok y not? but in d end no one had car xcept me n i tot well ok i'll fetch dem...i mean if i dint go means i'd b staying at home bored senseless rite?

so we went out shopping...haha william called me to teman him so he wont be bored but in d end im a girl rite? and everything was on sale so i bet he was d one bored stiff...anyhow while shopping another friend eunice called me she asked if i was free n it did not involve me driving...so i was like ok what u wanna do...i expected a reply like-ok lets yum cha at tanjung later....but instead a reply came u wanna go to genting later...?

haha n i tot my day was gonna be totaly boring. so i juz stood der mind blank...mind u i was still sick at dat time...n i was like um ok y not rite haha...i mean im gonna have as much fun as i can while im still young n not let sum stoopid flu stop me fr havin fun...so den about 7 sumthing i bring cherly n william back...went home did sum things 4 me daddy, shower,got dressed...n by that time it was about 8.30....yea i shower really long i dunno y...

so den eunice came...her sister was driving...went to piramid fetch aaron and off to genting...our little road trip was fun alot of talking n bonding?...so when we reach der it was about 10 sumthing (fyi-d last time i went to genting was when i was 12?)walked around abit...saw ALOT of lala people...my stupid nose was running like a freaking water pump...really embrassing...den we sat at starbucks. i had my ussual orange juice yes i go ta star bucks n drink orange juice as for many people out der who dont know...(i hate coffee but i love starbucks) hah weird rite?

so we jus sat der talked chilled alot of jokes were made about me during diz time...ppl can be so evil sumtimes but anyhow...walked back ta d car...do stupid things...haha (not gonna say what)-go figure-made alot of jokes about eunice n her height haha n sumthing about d moon n her transforming into a half wolf cuz it was juz a half moon...get it? no? nvm...n sumthing about her head being to big hahaha

so we begin our road trip back...with d windows down...liz is gonna love diz-natural aircond (save d planet woohoo!)...slept awhile,talked,joked...so den we send aaron back to puchong 1st...and almost hit a...wait for it...a COW...yea im not kidding a freaking COW...what in d world of purple magic mountains is der a COW doing in d middle of a highway in puchong?! i mean wtf!! rite?! haha so we panicked missed hitting a bloody demented cow by 3 freaking inch...got home n KO..

so den yesterday thats when my flu really bite me in d ass...gosh my nose was still running,my brains felt like it was made of liquid n was sloshing around in me skull,i was sweating ever 5 mins but i was freaking freezing,i could not stand longer then 5 mins without breaking out in sweat, could not think straight...slept for 2/3 of d day...i guess me being young n not letting d flu get to me was not d best way to put it...n i think going ta genting was pushing it but honestly i dont regret it one bit...

so went ta d doctor at nite checked my temp was 38.7 yea...n he gave me sum med n sum nasty white liquid stuff<---bleh i absolutely freaking hate hate hate liquid med ugggh...slept more...woke up diz morning could not think straight...mum wanted ta go out n eat so yea drove ta ss15 but unfortunately d shop is not open so by that time i still could not think straight n i was shaking but i was not gonna ruin my mums breakfast so we went to mac.d n i vould not freaking side park!!! i had to reverse 4 freaking times...gotta be kidding me!...yea so got back slept even more and finnally wrote diz blog... yeap...now im still not feeling well but not feelin that bad either...so yea im probably gonna go sleep more...nites...

-and so it goes...-

hugs and kisses <333
-denise-