sweet surrender

so today was my interview day...overall it went pretty well...so im glad...d dragon lady acctualy pretty nice...so the company im gonna go slave for is called "monica quen"...its like an oriental chinese clothes shop + british idia... its much cheong sam...some modern chillax clothes n alot of zen-ness...d place is pretty clam so i thing i'll be calm ish...my working hurs will b sort of bitchy its 10-8 its all d way in damansra heights almost reaching bangsar...its a meidum-ish sort of brand...but since it kinda major in cheong sam d next few weeks will b very hectic...n im joining them on d best time...next mon i start...n straight away d next day (tues) were goin ta pinang ta set up a stall for d chinese new year sales...n after that (i dunno when) is a trip ta melacca ta set up a stall der also...so yeah...lost of work...n they're not waisting ANY time...so here r sum stuff from d shop thats on sale...





n this is how d shop looks like




-to jake the son i never had...i love you
America's Suitehearts- fall out boy
hugs n kisses <333333333

let us run when the darkness fall

so its 3 more days till new year...n im so freaked out...im petrified of the next year...normally i love it when a new year comes...it usually means time for new things...but next year is just gonna b crazee...

1. im starting my internship on 4 jan...
2. i heard that my boss would b pretty strict
3. i hv to stand 3 months of this lady (the boss)
4. my final fashion show is next year...it has to be PERFECT
5. my course finish next year
6. impress italian lecturers with my collection n get a scholarship to italy
7. if no.6 does not turn out then, my visa is only up to next year november...which means either get a job or leave d country.

im so dead
neway so thats d update...im panicking n im gonna go print my resume for my internship...d interviews tmr at 11am by d way...hope i get accepted...

-i need your grip to keep me from falling apart
lass uns laufen- tokio hotel
hugs&kisses <333333

sleep is just a dream

its 3.21am n i cant fall asleep...tmr im goin out early with my darl...which means i NEED to get sum rest but for sum fucked reason i just cant sleep...i dunno wut happen to me but i guess im just being realy paranoid n thinking way to much...so rite now im feeling like a sad, lost, puppy that has been kicked around...

my future? well heres d perfect word to describe it....FUCKED...

yea pretty much considering i had ppl nice enuff to fuck it up for me...

before this i just wanted to bolt out of this demented country every chance i got dreaming big about other country n goin back to germany...living there...but then i met him...my darl...i love him and he makes me happy...many people around me cant seem to c that n i dunno why...right now he is d only one that has enough of my heart to break it...he change my life alot...not that i flipped it 180 just for him, but he make me realize all the little things i never realy used to give damn about...he makes me laugh when i dont even wanna smile...when im down he cheers me up, when im cold he warms me, when im in pain he makes me laugh so hard my pain is gone n my ribs hurt from laughing instead, even if i fall asleep every night n ditch him he still comes over n teman me...

the point is what im thinking of is that after my coll i MUST leave n these is one of the reason why i dont wanna leave...thats why i cant sleep...

-n so it goes...
please tell me what im suppose to do?
hugs n kisses<3

whe blue skys go grey

i feels the urge to bitch slap a certain someone....

btw...its my last day of coll today...so yea im kinda happy...i got d pattern pieces to make a kimono...whoooo and i got it in 1/4 scale...incase u guy dunno what that means, 1/4 scale is the size of barbie....so yeah i can make kimono for barbie...anyone wanna derma me 1 barbie doll? just so i can try out my next collection?


hugsnkisses <3333

i like to make myself belive that planet earth turns slow-ly

im a very good person in general...but i sometimes like to be an internet psycho like i like to treaten people with body-ly harm and that i will kung fu u...i also want ta let u know that i master in the ancient art of ORIGAMI(not true,i just had nothing to say)...ok babai...

-and now that youre eyes are sore from crying...
-SENDING christmas cheere! your way
-faye wong- track 2 (dunno d title)
hugs and drunken kisses <3333333

when ur dreaming fishes do acctually eat ur toe

i was about to go take a shower when my sis went in to take her shower...so now i just decided mite as well write a new post...so yeah just got back from 1u....so tired

1. tmr im having another fashion show.
2. had to go to the venue which is at (mardigras bar/club) for the brefing about tmr
3. was doing stuff d whole day getting redy 4 tmr
4. i stand practicly d whole day
5. my head is pounding
6. coordinating models *dies* (models are one of the worst creature to ever roam the face of the earth)
7.rehersal
8.listening to loud pounding music....mind u i love LOUD POUNDING MUSIC...but since the fashion show theme is 70's so yeap....LOUD POUNDING 70's *^&@$#%@*&*^ MUSIC.
(daddy.daddy cool, thats d way uh-huh uh-huh i like it uh-huh uh-huh)
9. to top of everything 2 freaking HUGE ASS STRAY DOGS (1 is a german shepered) decided to camp outside my house main gate...last time i had this but that was a skinny binny emo dog....but these 2 new stray dogs are like MASSIVE there like BEARS really BIG ones...not lying....i nvr seen a german shepered to huge b4....it must be a mutant dog...(there like jacob from twilight when he is a wolf). all this is due to cuz i got 3 female dogs...yay me...

but even if i am freaking tired im still rely psyched about tmr...another excuse to party party n drink (free flow) hahaha

ok i hear my sis is done...im gonna go shower now...babai

*people around me are being RELY hyppocrete (cant spell)

*i need to shoot myself in the foot*
the pounding of my head- denise
hugs n kisses <33333

i will stab u with my usb cable

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!! OMG!!!!! whoooo
right now i feel like a TOTAL GEEK!!!!i feel like this guy



ok wanna know why?
here it comes....i solved a rubicks...OMG!!!! i know rite
yea its abit impossible but i hey i finally did it...
haha i can check that off my to do list b4 i die lol...
all thanks to this guy 'pogobat' on utube...heres d link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IW_BBp3FPMQ
no i cant teach u cuz i cant solve it myself unless i refer to the vid
haha but go ahead to this guy he does it a little fast so u gotta hv patients and watch it over n over depends how fast u can learn...took me about 1 day? so u just gotta figure out anyway i got my cube as a christmas present last year and i manage to solve it only this year hahaha...mum bought it for me at toys'r'us so yea...its the 3X3X3 kind so its pretty easy...i guess...im gonna keep it to prove to some ppl that i solved then imma mess it up n try ta solve it again...yay...here a pic its not mine but its the same brand as mine...


warning i read some pages that dun simply buy random rubiks cube...cuz some of them are really not that nice...n d pieces/colour come out really fast and the original colour is
(red, blue, yellow ,orange, green, white)
some fake ones have (pink, purple,beige...etc etc)
just asking you to get the ori cuz its easier when u learn from the net...n its an investment so yea...haha thats all for now...
babai


- jagged little pill
yiruma- bella's lullaby
hugs and nerdy kisses...

lalalalala

and so its the 24th of november...soo fast...in one month time it'll be christmas...just the chance ta get to relax and everything...im so exausted this few days and i dont even know why...i got a couple of ppls gift in my mind but i have gottan any of them yet...so now im thinkin...dads back so means i get to buy new stuff yeaps...oh and im so FREAKING addicted to facebook games its driving me crazy...yeap...the window display for ed hardy window is up already and i so proud of it...haha alot of hard work and we did it till 4++am...alot of hand work and stuff...now i dunno...something been goin on in my head...im no longer ejoying something im doin in my life im not gonna mention it but...i dunno...so yeap...so there are a bunch of movies that i cant wait ta watch.. new moon, princess n d frog, d next harry potter, 2012...n alot more...i know next year has a few good shows so yeah...cant wait....and i wanna go up ta genting again...soon...so yeap thats about all...

-i want magnum ice cream

blablablablablabalabla bloop

WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
just wanted to share this awesome news with u guys....
my newest assignment is....(drum rollssssssssss)


doing the christmas window display for ED HARDY official stall in KLCC!!!!whooooo...i tell u i cant be mush happier

1. ED HARDY= my top fav brand
2. millions of pop stars wear ed hardy people like bill kaulitz,beckham,madonna,d pussy cat doll,...
3. its a well know brand...and alot alot more reasons

so yea the management said...do a tropical christmas feel...so thats what we gotta do...
(yes it really is 4 d stall window, not just a regular assignment)
beats all you guy other extreemly boring homework/assignment
haha be jelous!
ok i gotta go research and brainstorm now babai!


alanis morisette - ironic
some thins are just really ironic
hugs and kisses <333333

the dance of the jumping potatoes

heres my fashion show bitches!!! whooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!! partayy lalalalalalala



my boy friend can drive better than your boy friends
hand alanis morissette
hugs n kisses

i will stab you with a piece of lemon- aid

so this is my opinion on a song...
just hear this song on the radio, i remember hearing it as a kid during the 90's and i never rally paid any attention to the lyrics...but seriously...read the lyrics i think anyone can definately relate to this...haha loved it...i wasnt having the best day...and after hearing this song it totally made my day...it made me reliase that im not the only one having a bad day.(i mean when we having a bad day we tend to focus on ourself and forget that other people mite not be having the best day also)...and this singer perfectly put all the emotion into this song...she takes whatever bad thing and face it with a sense of humor..thats one of the reason why i like this song...able to take something negative and face it with a twisted positive sarcastic attitude...it also has a very 90's feel that will definately bring u back to the 90's zaman....the best zaman in my life....

i present to you
alanis morissette-ironic
(if ur a 90's kid u mite remember listening to it)



An old man turned ninety-eight
He won the lottery and died the next day
It's a black fly in your Chardonnay
It's a death row pardon two minutes too late
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Mr. Play It Safe was afraid to fly
He packed his suitcase and kissed his kids goodbye
He waited his whole damn life to take that flight
And as the plane crashed down he thought
"Well isn't this nice..."
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Well life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
When you think everything's okay and everything's going right
And life has a funny way of helping you out when
You think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up
In your face

A traffic jam when you're already late (always happens to me in the morning)
A no-smoking sign on your cigarette break
It's like ten thousand spoons when all you need is a knife (also always happens to me)
It's meeting the man of my dreams
And then meeting his beautiful wife
And isn't it ironic...dontcha think
A little too ironic...and yeah I really do think...

It's like rain on your wedding day
It's a free ride when you've already paid
It's the good advice that you just didn't take
Who would've thought...it figures

Life has a funny way of sneaking up on you
Life has a funny, funny way of helping you out
Helping you out




a traffic jam when youre already late
Alanis Morissette - Ironic
hearts and kisses <3333333333333
go figure

despo plan with 'soh hai' frens

im gonna go genting....like tomorrow...totaly unplanned we go n do stupid things....

rule 1 - MUST wear only spaghetti strap shirt.
rule 2 - MUST weare shorts
rule 3 - MUST wear bikini top inside (no bras allowed)
rule 4 - if u ignore any of the rules above u are to spend d whole day with only your spaghetti strap top WITHOUT a bra.
rule 5 - u are allowed 1 jacket
rule 6 - must bring along a t-back/ g-string
rule 7 - if u forget rule 6 u have to take off your underwear and keep it in d car d whole day.
rule 8 - any make-up WE applied on ur face must not be rubbed off until all pictures are taken
rule 9 - u must not refuse if we wanna take ANY picture of you at ANY given time
rule 10 - try not to get hypothermia...

if im not lazy i will post the pictures...

peter picked a pack of pickeled pepper <3

mixed emotion about everything...always happen when i read a story book...i tend to adopt the same emotion at the characters in the story...so rite now im just feeling kinda like bla... idk...i need to do something that will get my adranaline (cant spell) pumping...

so goin back in time...

diz afternoon...i got a bunch of fabrics that are like so brain-fart...there awesome beautiful,purdee, cute, brilliant...and everything else...yes they are and if i were u i'd be soo jelous but yeah...

last sat...i watch d time travellers wife (thats the book im reading now btw) wid my beautiful nana on sat...hvnt seen her in a long long time we did d ussual...*ahem* stupid stuff we always do when were out together...i spend ...half d day basking in total nana-ness yay!yea i almost cried during that movie...well to admit there was a stray tear...but only 1...so yeah...um kinda d best love story since the notebook...



-you can let go now, daddy
stan- eminem
hugs and kisses <333

caould i play with your twangger?

hahaha i just really needed to share this with everyone lol....super...rainbow got alot of funny shit...
i high lighted sum of the super funny parts...go ahead and get a gud laugh
heres the video



00:17 - d guy almost said foreskin
00:25 - "i cant get it in"
"well you did last night"
00:54 - "yesterday we played with your balls"
"are we gonna play with your friends balls today"
01:36 - "jane's got 2 lovely meraka's"
01:47 - " we could hear you all banging away" (
" banging can be fun!"
"yes and i was banging away all last night with rod and rodger"
"yes but it broke my plucking instrument" (i nearly fell of my chair from laughing so hard)
02:36 - " you could bounce your balls at the same time if you like"
" or if you dont have any, you could ask a friend if u could play with his"
03:00 - " dont forget to get your twanggers out and play with your balls"

ice-cream originated from eating igloos

just bang car
i learn a lesson today that camry is waaaaaaaaaaaay stronger than civic....like (x100000)
-no i wont explain further
babai

brain WAVE concert tonight!

going to AAR now WHOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

cant wait 4 these songs...

-dance inside
-dirty little secret
-i wanna
-swing swing
-move along
-it ends tonight
-night drive
-top of the world
-gives you HELL

muahahahhahahahaha...

-i'll give the final blow
-it ends tonight- AAR
muacks <5555

Go quiet through the trees

so last nite i went to watch Jennifer's body with Megan Fox and it was awesome!!! sum parts freaked me out but over all d movie was REALLY AWESOME!!! and the soundtrack is my kind of music...anyway there was this 1 band in the movie called 'low shoulders' with the lead singer adam brody its not a real band...i think....its juz 4 d movie...anyway they sing an AWESOME...i dun think its adam brody's voice but what ever it still sounds good...heres d vid n lyrics...




All alone in an empty room
Nothing left but the memories of when i had my best friend
I don't know how we ended up here
I don't know but it's never been so clear
We made a mistake, dear.
And i see the broken glass in front of me
I see your shadow hanging over me
And your face, i can see...

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you
Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
Until i'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees

I remember how we used to talk
About the places we would go when we were off
And all that we were gonna find.
And i remember our seeds grow
And how you cried when you saw
The first leaves show.
The love was pouring from your eyes.

So can you see
The branches hanging over me?
Can you see
The love you left inside of me?
In my face
Can you see?

Through the trees
I will find you;
I will heal the ruins left inside you.
Cuz i'm still here breathing now
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
Until i'm set free.
Go quiet through the trees.

Cuz you're not coming back
And you're not coming back
No-oo... no-oo... no
You're not coming back...
You're not coming back...

Take my breath as your own
Take my eyes to guide you home

Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And i'm still here...

Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And i'm still here...
No...

Cuz i'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
I'm still here breathing now...
And i'm still here...

But you're not coming back.
(And I'm still here breathing now)
And you're not coming back.
(I'. still here breathing now)
Cuz you're not coming back
(I'm still here breathing now)
Until i'm set free
Go quiet through the trees.

adam brody=HOT

ps: megan fox is hot also

-I'm still here breathing now
-LOW SHOULDER - Through The Trees lyrics
hugs n kisses <333333333333333333333333333
xoxoxo

scream and shout, cream then pout

things to do

-just do it
-do me
-doo-doo
-do do do...hehe he said doodoo
-do the makarena
-do the heller keller
-do the woogie boogie

just cu the sky is blue does not mean there are no gray clouds

scream is all i hear this days...
what am i doin wrong?
words dont make sence
its like being underwater
everything is blur, echoed and far away
trying to shut it all out
i love you but putting me under such a place
takes me back, yes all the way back
i've tried, i really did
i tried to be everything u needed
in trying i allowed myself to think it actually works
for awhile there it all seem to work
the perfect life, the perfect family
the perfect home,
is it true? did u ever really loved me?
i know im not suppose to ask such a thing
but thats whats goin on in my head
im strong yes, but im also only human
i do feel pain and i do feel hurt
u say i abandoned you
so now that i ditch MY life
just to spend time with you
you scream at me every chance you get
what am i suppose to do?
i am not trying to upset you
gosh that is the furthest thing from my mind
if i wanted to upset you
there are worst things i could do
and talking to you
thats the thing you made impossible
yes, it never was possible
no matter who i talk to
you're just gonna win anyway
and do what u do best
make me feel like...nothing...
you hit me...
did you even see if i was wrong?
so right now im sorry
for everything
im sorry for being a trouble
im sorry for ever coming into your life
im sorry for being there
im sorry for being here
im sorry for being now
im sorry for even being
im sorry, im sorry
crying and feeling sorry for myself
is no point under you rule
you made that extreemly loud and clear

where is the love now
its all just dissapated
and the question im asking is
was it even there?

the air is so dense with panic, i can even taste it
dirty little secret- AAR

up your *bleep*

WooooooooHoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my laptop working again!!! yay...sumthing went be-jugies on my graphic card...so yeap warrenty solved money wise...n its done now its perfect...yay...its just my graphic card that went cacat...so all my memory n stuff is save...hah!

you can stick it in her sock...
this is it- michael jackson
hugs n kisses

a lost hope

ok now u cross the dam border n im effing pissed...why would i call u? waste my bill only...i did my part, i try to get u ta talk but u running away...what impression does that give me? u think 4 urself...y u keep draging this on? u can stay pissed but u dont even make an effort to try and talk to me...i tot u were a better person than that...u got time to bitch in ur blog but no time to face ur problem or send a simple text, even msn or facebook? come on la...asking me to belive ur lame excues that u hv no time is abit stupid...i guess u can forget our friendship now...trying to mend things now is worthless i dont see the point if im doing the whole thing n ur just ignoring...

-did venus blow your mind?
drops of jupiter-?

nailpolish

Deep Blue Sight
sailing the deep blue sea,
all by my lonesome
in my lonesome boat
waiting for the creatures of the blue
to take me down, down, down
into a place not known to mankind
this is where i will feel alive again
renewed and taken
something captures my sight

An Angels Harp
its the most beautiful sound yet
like a single not...hovering, unwavering
high above the others unmmovin
as the streem of steady low growl of the bass
pass it sits there,
the most beautiful thing
juz listening to it evokes amotion
able to move the mountaind of 'beor'
the mighty trees of 'wanwarlden'
and finally awaken the beast of its slumber

so youre brad pitt

feeling really dissapointed... just wanna talk n clear things out...whats the problem? i dunno if ur doin it to avoid me or not...it could be my wrong judgment...but no matter how u try to drag this on sooner or later we gotta face it...i know that this past days are not to good for you...so? lifes a bitch and u gotta deal with things you dont like sometimes...so draging this on will only make u even more angry...the more time we think about it the more pissed we get so the worst the situation gets so...this is my point...i tried getting down to things 2 times n both time u ignore...why? do u think its worth it were angry at each other? why are we even angry at each other?...just my question...

-stand up for what u say
shania twain-that dont impress me much
hugs n kisses

enough said

because this is hurting the people i love im letting it go...brushing it off my shoulders, like dirt...yes i am above all this.

go figure

diamond star ship

i need to go for a swim...this few day i think im gonna take a swim suit where ever i go cuz ppl tend to call me unexpectedly n ask me go swim...i need to borrow someones cool dsl cam to take pic of my beautiful boyfriend

cuz i hv taken sum pic of my younger sis b4 n they turn out kinda perfect so yea im planning on my darl...just that i need a cam 1st...haha...mayb borow fr alex again... idk n the next venue is kinda perfect i plan everything ad...

i feel like painting...like landscape...or either some contemporary art...cuz i love contemporary art...

-its just 'click'
howie day- collide
hugs n kisses <333

starry starry night

ok look if ur not happy with my post then why would you even bother reading it? why would you even bother coming back and checking to see if i continue dissing you? ok u want a piece of my mind? well ur gonna get it and dont say you dint ask for it

1. this is MY page - for YOUR little infant mind that cant think to much...the general defination is that this little page kinda belongs to ME....bummer for YOU ,I know rite?

2. in this space i am king - which means i rule and only i can set the rules. i say whats right n whats wrong. even if im wrong...im still right.

3.I am allowed to write, say, do, change, decorate anything I want.

4. YOU who are just a visitor get to ONLY READ. and think which i know is a little to much for you. bummer again

5.if you are unclear about what i said earlier please do read the HEADER and if you sadly cant find it, cuz it makes much more sence then yours. it says "MY mind MY world"

6.or u can even refer to my link bitch..it says deniselittleworld...go figure.

7.youre ok with me? well good for you but im not ok with you...bummer again!

my post are dedicated to no one and everyone...i write about things in general, rarely will i write about my daily life and wut coffee i had for breakfast in wut specific cup and how many calories i added to my body weight...c cuz those things i dont care about...i dont bother to record them down and think about them...i dont see the point or the good it brings out...

so if u do feel offended then good i was probably aiming at you and to all the people like you...u see, its just the way i work i will write what i like and think. it does not have to particularly be about a specific person unless i state...when i speak in a diff language infront of you. u think ur d only person i do it to? dont u think i kinda do it to alot others? why are you people so offended?

i know its your style to make everything i say about you...well im sorry if u feel that way...and im sorry you are immune to feeling that youre above all this..come on its a cruel world and it wont be me thats the only person that ur gonna be offended by...so please think...ur old enough 2

if u feel so bothered why then do you come back? just ignore me...i dont care...i wont feel any offence to have u not visit my page...i've been doing just fine before that anyway...you reacting the way u are just makes me even more happy...dont u see thats just waht i've been aiming for..GOSH!!


starry starry night
if i were a boy-beyonce knowls
hugs n kisses<3333333333>

rocking the nanny jammies

do u know how good it feels to have my convers'ed foot smudging all your preppy lipstick around?...yea i win

i know u realy wish you were me right now..i reli enjoy seeing you make a fuss about this...thats how much of a bimbo you are...

some people are so touchy

-communication is alot like the wind
waldorfworldwide-good charlotte
hugs&&kisses <33

i found a small potato

YES WHOOOOO!!!!! my fashion show is finally OVER!!! had a real great great great time...d venue was AWESOME, it set the mood just right. crazy backstage.

so in d morning woke up at 6.30 A.M then went ta pick up aron drove down ta pj pick up a few more friends n stuff...then went down to kl...(so cute my darl sleep beside me in d car snoring so loud summore...) anyway im just lazy ta write EVERYTHING taht happen down so im putting it down in point form yay!

-set up the place
-model arrive
-fitting for model
-lunch (d food SUCKED so bad so i din eat anything)
-dry rehersal
-with shoes rehersal
-get ready model hair & make up (SUPER LONG)
-set up more things at the venue
-stand by
-FASHION SHOW!!!

so i had a blast! it was really awesome had so much fun...of cuz all d ppl i love was there, thats the best part...so after the show hang out with my friends did some interview...took a million and 1 pics...then came the after party yay drank a little, dance with almost everyone there...we did jackass things like kissing a girl (omg)...IT WAS A FREAKING DARE

then after that we walked with alene n marcus to another club i dun rmb d name...i think it was maison?...haha danced with my darl...and that was the 1st time i ever i saw a real live pole dancer....so intresting...makes me wanna learn pole dancing...do some CRAZY stuff with my darl..so yea after that it was about 2am sumthing we went to mac.d all with red eye...ate a little then finally came home n slept till 2pm haha...


-rocking the house
the show must go on-moulin rouge
hugs and kisses

infant wizards will kill you in your sleep

FUCK!!! MY FUCKIN MALE MODEL BAILED ON ME!!!!!!!..

my fashion show is in 4 FREAKING DAYS and i have NO male model!!! die die die!!!i juz hope ricardo have sum free models that can work for me!!SHIT!!!
FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!-

*sometime when people speak in a diffrent language does not mean that they are talking bad or even talking ANYTHING a little bit related to YOU...so please dont have such a big head and dont let you ass overgrow your tiny pants...use your silly brain and think...imagine if u were to vacation to arab...then wat?u seriously gonna think everyone is talking about u?...come on seriously!!! dont think that ur that big and every1 wants to talk about u cuz NO one does...*

*/youre still a freaking infant so just try to controll your damn itchy pussy and stop sleeping around with every guy that gives you a chance...freaking cheap ass bitch...now u just look like a damn bitch on heat n that not a very pretty sight...mayb u do it cuz its d only time someone acctually notice you exist right?*

lots of love
-sitting here with nothing but your jacket on cuz i miss you
one foot wrong-p!nk
hugs and kisses<333

more teeth than a t-rexy YO!

so here a quick update on my live...

1 .my darl is leaving me for a week...he'll b back next wed...soo long...n i miss him already
2. my fashion show is NEXT friday im exited n scared shit-less at d same time..yay
3. my garments are about 93% done...yeah
4. i have 5 more illustration to go
5. im panicking about my male model status...he still not confirm with me...*dies*
6. i bought p!nk's new album that i've been wanting ta get for ever (im listening to it now)
7. my darl left me with 3 AAR tickets WHOOOOOO!!! yeaH!! 10 oct im ready ta party
8. i MIGHT b watching d ugly truth tmr wid alene...
9. ricardo's gonna hv a pool side bbq party soon n i cant wait...
10. i finally 3-G'ed with someone...other than my family yay

so yea thats the quicky 10 happening in my life now...tho theres more but this is it for now...
p/s : P!NK'S VOICE = PERFECT (she was always my biggest hero)

-please dont leave me
i dont belive you -p!nk
hugs and kisses <3333

i'll give you 25cents, including your guy

next time you think youre perfect...

TRY WALKING ON WATER BITCH

yay the stage is set
the lights are on
lets rock this town

thats all i gotta say about that

warning: live without boarders
super massive black hole-muse
hugs and kisses <3333333

in northpole they have seafood mafias

and so im feeling much better tqverimuch...hang out with my darl jus now...was so stressed at d start of d day but when i saw him today everything fell back to place...i dont even rmb y i was so fruss ystrday...dont get me wrong im still fruss...jus not THAT fruss...which is a good thing...

*when two lovers meet in the dead of the night to share their forbidden love, thats when its the strongest and most passion filled...just the idea of risk adds everything to sweet temptation and bliss wrapped in each others arm...thats the best moment lived*

*right before an innocent man is sent to the scaffolks and he hugs his lover and bask in her glory and sweet scent for the last time, thats when the world stops and every second of that bitter sweet memory would be forever etched into his and her minds....he will knowingly replay it in his mind as a sharp piece of metal is about to set his spirits free..while she will carry this memory to the day she sees him again in a better place*

you're my sweet temptation
kiss the girl-Samuel E. Wright
hugs and kisses ( love love love)

...

im not exactly in my best mood right now...i feel pissed at alot alot alot of ppl...sad, angry,stressed,dissapionted,defeated,lost...i really need to take a step back...everything is moving at a super sonik pace and i cant keep up...i wont mention details if not every1 will start being more of a bitch to me so yea...if u guys can take a hint then please stop bugging me and understand my situation here...i know we all cant understand ANYone EVER but u can c if someones falling apart...its freaking saturday...my ONLY day to chill and yet its been f**ked up by many people...i cant stand it..i cant even fall asleep cuz i got so many things still goin on...so yea im gonna go do d rest of my work now...

p/s: i lost my pencil box officialy now and 100 bucks of artline marker all gone (i think someone stole it)

underneath your clothes, thats my territory
i'll come for you-nickelback

so tired rite now but i still feel like i wanna update...cuz my darl make me tired...>.<...n i got classes tmr...

so yeap...ystrday had bbq...thx again every1 for coming...sry to darryls gang for abandoning them halfway...hope u guys not mad n enjoy the food!!. so 2 of my MOST dearest friends came over...nana n taryna, i hvnt seen them in like 87654423345689 years...so happi...anyway had fun..well atleast i did hahaha hapi merdeka every1!!! whoot...ok thats all i gotta say about that

at 1st i tot u were superrior..but now i see ur like a damn bitch on heat..yea...u hv no clue how much i wanted to break your face...okbai

everyday im loving u more and more
punk rock 101- bowling for soup
hugs n muacks <333

sometime we just...

some say ur never meant to grow up...
unlike you there, u damn wannabe's
right there u pushed me over the boarder
well now i c the fall wasnt to far
in this deep solitude
i feel...nothing...i feell absolutly nothing
i know i cant get rid of you
well i guess what they say about pest are true
ur gonna be there like a stupid price tag of life
like how u buy a pen n want to get the tag off
and instead u end up makind d whole pen sticky?
yeah thats what u worth...nothing..
so right there when u noticed that u could not
make my life hell
thats when ur life starts to fall apart
at the seems
u manage to get in my head
look whose the one troubled now
u laugh at me for being unable to step on
now look whos skirts caught
u cry for help
do i hear you?...yes i do
should i help u?...yes i should
will i help u?...let me think about it
now u quiver under my power
praying begging u were kinder
u feel insecure
well thats my power
one second of ur insecurity
to show ur weakness
was all i needed
scream all u like, be a bitch all u want
no one will hear u
there all gona cuz u chased them away
once ur at the top u stand alone
n thats where ur now
and ur scared...
i win

walking dead
chris brown- forever
hugs and kisses

tadpoles grapefruit yay!

WHAT THE FUCK???!!!


i just had ta get it outta my system...why do i let u get to my head? ur a NOBODY to me
i wished u'd just DROP DEAD

you think ur so cool? well i wonder what daddy would say if he knew what his precious little princess was up to

-why r you so obsessed with me?
schrei - tokio hotel
hugs & kisses <3

on the east coast a dwarf must have 3 yellow sock

everytime you love someone is because of something special

some u love them cuz of their personality -ricardo
some u love them cuz of there cool - sara
some u love them cuz of their playullness - aaron
some u love them cuz of their hair - evelyn
some u love them cuz of their randomness - melissa
some u love them cuz of their ability to love - momma
some u love them cuz of their smile - erick
some u love them cuz of the way they make you feel -noah
some u love them cuz of their skills - taryna (bsb)
some u love them cuz of the way they present themself - david
some u love them cuz of their passion - daniel
some u love them cuz of their pure awesomeness - georgie
some u love them cuz they are totaly diffrent from you - ah yi
some u love them cuz you can bully them senseless - domo eun
some u love them cuz of their crazyness - alene
some u love them cuz of their taste in music - wey liam
some u love them cuz of their taste in cars - papa
some u love them cuz of their taste in movies - marcus
some u love them cuz of their slang - neal
some u love them cuz of their photography skills - chun hien
some u love them cuz of their computer knowledge - alex
some u love them cuz of their jokes - darryl
some u love them cuz of their just themself - philbert
some u love them cuz of their singing voice - simon
some u love them cuz u share many awesome memory with them - nana banana

so these are the reasons why i love the ppl around me...if i missed your name just msg me...i will tell u why i love u >.<

-i love you the same way a geek love his rubix cube
waldorfworldwide- good charlotte
love and kisses <33333333333

if a fork was called a bubble what colour would a banana be?

jus cuz im doing one thing its does not relate all to you...you probably wonder whats wrong with me...

you dont like the words i speak
or the thoughts i think
or the songs i like to hear
or the way i sing
you dont like the way i walk
or the things i talk i talk
or the way i swing my hand
and i know you'll never understand
just because i walk like obi1-kenobi
u people talk
but u dont really know me
well im glad cuz i dont ever wanna be like you
there a place inside my mind you never get

i dont want to live your 7-2, yes! i dont wanna live your boring life....u parade around in your pretty dresses and heels but im running faster than you in my jeans and chucks...i could feel your stare on me like a damn magicians hypnotized kangaroo...u had a choice...youre already stepping on my tail fur, a little closer and i will bite...i seriously wonder whats in that penut size thing u claim be your skull...u think im really that retarded? OWH wait u do cuz, thats the highest level your brain can think of...i hope that ring he gave you turns your finger green...well some of my decisions sucks but at least im still young...

-let go HAVE SOME FUN
lotsalovefrommebeeotch (go figure)
hugs and kisses<333

blue munchkins will one day rule

so i saw something extreemly disturbing last night and my mental state of mind has been forever altered on the views of french people...and couples unable to give birth... so anyaway this post is a mix of alot of things but mainly is to show my my idols,heroes and role model...so here goes in no particular order

the man behind it all-tim burton

awesome tattooist- chris garver

awesome band-blink 182

my biggest hero, idol, role model-pink

awesome song writer/inspirational music-avril

radest tattooist in LA/Love everything about her-KAT VON D

sickest band-greenday

extreemly inspirational band,awesome song, meaningfll lyrics- good charlotte

u wish you could be like him- eminem

biggest idol- bill kaulitz

my fav historical icon- ann boleyn

MOST AWESOME stage preformer/AWESOME voice-kevin tarte

autumn scene- yiruma
-i already prove that i can be a real BITCH now i also wanna prove that i can sing like a mother fucker WHOO!!
hugs&kisses<3333333333

if d world was stuck in black n white i would parade around in a red dress

WHOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!! okayyyy...so i hv been a rebel lately haha not many ppl noe wut im up to so yea...but those who noe, i bet are super happy...doin *ahem* stupid things...haha SHHHH...ok so rite now im feeling super hyper idek y...must b that all juice my beloved dad made 4 me...n my dear bcome sick alrdy O.o n instead of being dead he come MORE hyper...alien child...anyway drink more water people!!! n dont get H1N1... anway heres what i really wanted ta say...wait for it..wait for it...

IM GONNA GO FOR A ED HARDY FASHION SHOW WHOOOOO!!!! YEAH!! WEEWOOWEEWOOWEEWOO
yeaps...this weekend...its gonna be hosted in a club...i dunno which one yet but i bet its gonna b awesome...i juz hope its at zouk...so yea this thurs im gonna go down ta klcc wid my lecturer n go do d styling/fitting/planning at ed hardy...gonna treat my eyes to ed hardy-ness...YEAH!!! n sat is d official day...well night actually...theres gonna be alot of fashion people,press,media bla bla bla...im nt sure but i think my teacher say that i get ta bring ppl in for free n drinks on d house...but thats not confirm yet...so if u guys r nice to me u mite get ta tag along......so yea thats pretty much all tat i wanted ta say...

by d way if u dint already noe ED HARDY is my ULTIMATE fav brand in d whole wide world n if anyone out there bought me ed hardy anything i would b d happiest gal in d world n i would love u for ever ahhaha...oh by d way...d cheapest shirt der is RM 399.99... so yea... eat ur heart out...smiles

viva la gloria-greenday
the night lit up like fireworks
hugs n kisses<333333333333333

if pigs could fly...i'd take up hunting

so u really wanna know whats on my mind? well here a fucken piece of it!

messed up life
a blessing? a curse?
i also dont know...all these problems weighing me down..i just realised all d while i've been living off other peoples mistake...

i got enuff to worry about...so please if you have got a fuckin problem just swallow it up, cry it out on ur fucken pillow, shoot yourself in a foot n dissapear...look here i've said my sorries...i've done my apology...i've paid my dept so will you please just STFU!!! GOSH why do i even bother? u made me look like a fool,u made me sink so low all d way dwn to YOUR lvl just to gain ur apology i made myself a phatetic mooron just so u will accept my damned apology...so look if ur not happy u can just go die okay? i really mean it...im taking it ALL back...its a little to late for you now so just GOW AWAY! okay?ur like a little annoying bug that makes me wanna buy insect repellent n blast it from the air-cond...at 1st u really got me ok.. i felt guilty...but now?come on!...how long u gonna carry on this phatetic act of yours? this shit is just turning old...u really can win an oscar for ur acting skills

i love my sisteres
i love him...get over it (i dedicated this sentance to many many many people)

because you loved me-celine dion
-all of this dont matter cuz now i've got you
hugs n kisses<333

i kissed a girl and *BANG* ...dies

so my head is pounding OMG...so i mite b goin swimming again later idk...i just hope my head stops pounding when i do...if not i'll b a partay pooper n that would be bad...must b from all the college stress idk...

i really need to the following for no particular reason
-shout at someone
-hit someone REALLY REALLY hard with my boxing gloves*wink wink*
-sleep
-swim
-fly
-paint
-draw sumthing that i like for myself n not for assignment
-play the guitar flawlessly
-jump of a cliff (n not die)
-meet edward cullen
-go karaokay-ing???
-play pool
-drink alcohol
-watch a freaking hilarious comedy (the kind that make u laugh till you cry)

yea thats pretty much what i need yay...ok im gonna go take a nap now...
ZzzZZzzzZzzzzZzZzZ

swing swing- AAR
-the birds will tell me the secrets of the world-
hugs and kissssses <3333

let it be...just let it be

can we please just let it be? let go of it...do u really see a point in fighting?...just freak out let it go...please im asking u guys...just look back, is it really worth it? and why u guys fighting about now? i also dunno lah...i mean come on u guys should know better then to let something as small as this hurt ur friendship...from what i see all this is just one big mess...everyone is individually misunderstood...but in d end NO one will understand another person completely so lets not make any more judgements...lets just let it go...

contagious-avril
-so i walk out in silence
hugs and kisses <333
denise

flabby tea spoon...weewooo

smiles.laughter.pasta.horror movie.work out....what more could a girl ask for?(trust me its way deeper than that)...

hate
tell me what it really means...does it last forever? when does it exist? how does it come to be?...is it really as bad as it sounds?does it have to be as bad?or is it all just overrated? why does everyone feel hate? do we choose it? or does it come naturally...d thing i wan to know is...can we forget it? give up?

why?why do u do that...honestly i admire you for it...u are one person unafraid to swallow their pride...let them have a go at the other cheek...a person has gotta love another so much just to do what u did...u dint need to lower yourself to that standard but u did...all i can say is that bravery is running so deep in your veins i can even smell it...u just let them humiliate you and u take it...from what i see youre gaining approval of someone...dont...let them come to you...he is not like everyone else..you dont have to please anyone...they will love you for who you are...u remind me so strongly of someone...anyone is so fortunate to have you in their lifes...i know i am...its good to know that good people still exists in this world...so here this is for you

cuz i can-pink
so is it gonna be like this forever?
hugs n kisses <333
denise

in my world people poop butterfly's yay!

ok o heres whats on my mind...im gonna be extreemly straight forward and blunt..please do be VERY offended/guilty if u've done me wrong lately cuz diz post is meant ta do that ta u...or do feel special n loved cuz u've done me good lately cuz i love u...n u hv not been like d rest of d jackasses lately... cuz this is 'my mind, my world' if u didnt want to know about it then y would u even read this? no names mention but i think u guys know who u are.

p/s: please dont ask questions

1.u have been the best...even if i never took d chance to get to know u for the younger part of my life.... i'll make it all up...i hope u appriciate everything i do...all d moments we share...all d dorky/goofy/stupid things...i'll try ta give u everyting u want...i honestly missed d times we spend at d old place in our own little world...where posters stared down at us as we drift to sleep n we imagines the world n the what if's...where we would create our own lifes in our mind...yes i still do think about those time n trust me there not gone...i know i dont say this often enuff but u really are the best...may d acidjunkies reign forever...

2.i just met u n already noone makes me feel as comfortable being myself...i am really really glad we met that day yes...we were so close ta not knowing d existance of each other but were here now and nothing can EVER change that...faith?luck? what ever it is im just glad for it...say what they want about us...as long as we know...u make me feel calm, exited, happy, glad, at peace, relaxed...the things u do make me admire ur courage,bravery,caringness,independence,n most of all your loyalty to friends even if they hurt you...

3.ARGGH!!! u know i like it n love it...why u had ta take it away??!!! y d fuck did u had to?! juz cuz u fucking can...well i show u what I FUCKING CAN...u know that i would be upset yet u still went ahead with that RETARDED plan of yours!!well i bet u think i have been tame u better watch it...i have not change one bit...oh no u have been gravely mistaken...u do this to hurt me?! just remember that i know how ta fucking hurt u back way worse...what im gonna do next u brought on urself!...from all this i have seen ur suffering n respected you but now u have push it too far...TOO FUCKIN FAR...i loved you and this is what u do to me...now u've broken this trust...i'll be a damn bitch for u to earn it back...

4.so u dont hv d balls to say it to my face? come on...whats your problem? dont u know how it feels? just to even feel it? or r u jelous cuz u cant share it? mayb u dont feel it yourself...i know that right now i might be gravely misjudging you ...but come on dont be such a hyppocryte what youre doing is not much right as what im doin...were all humans we all make mistakes sometimes we even know that were gonna make that mistake n ignore n d right way n make d mistake anyway...so now u hate me...but put urself in my position? i have tried to get it straight with u...u said ok but what this is i c? so u admit ur wrong? or u being a total hyppocryte again? goin back on ur own words...or is it a sort of revenge?please dont destroy what i have...cuz i never destroy what u had...


pink-boring <---awesome song!!!!

Uh that's hot
Iiiiiit's tasty
It's like a cupcake
It's cotton candy
It melts in your mouth
And lately
I been gettin hunger pains
When you lick your lips while you check me out

Fast car
Boring
Girlfriend
Boring
Got money
Boring
No-oh-oh-oh
Hot friends
Boring
Rock band
Boring
Not interested
No Tha-ank you

If you want me
You're gonna have to catch me
If you wanna touch my whoa-oa-oa
And if you catch me
You're gonna have to show me
How bad you really want my whoa-oa-oa

Yooooooou're Scrumptious
I kinda like it
I'm indecisive
I change my mind a lot
But you're hot (you're so hot)
But I think you kinda know it
Really hopin you don't blow it so bring it

You're tired
Boring
You're sore
Boring
You worked all day
Boring
Whoa-oa-oa-oa
Big boat
Boring
Black AmEx
Listening
Six pack
well, heh


If you want me
You're gonna have to catch me
If you wanna touch my whoa-oa-oa
And if you catch me
You're gonna have to show me
How bad you really want my whoa-oa-oa

Whoa-oa-oa-oa

If I let you catch me
It's because I think you're really cute
And if you don't get it right
I'mma be like really really mad

uh, insert rap here
12345678 Go
Go
That's hot

thank you-dido
if cotton candys where grey what colour would a magicians feet be?
hugs n kisses
xoxoxox
denise

sometimes its just really all about the dancing sandwitch

many people have collection and so i tot i'd share one of mine with you...i collect quotes be it a line from a movie,a famous quote,something out of a book,a pick up line,something scribbled on to the toilet cubicle what ever...here are some of me favorite quotes i got over a couple of years (some i made myself)

-stay gold
-you dazzle me
-yes, you are exactly my brand if heroin
-childhood is a kingdom where nobody dies
-your laugh is my favorite sound in the world
-my gift is my song and this one's for you
-how do you always have an opinion?
-i used to know the sound of a smile in your voice
-we dont need anything were just wasting time
-one things true there always a brand new day
-so go make it happen
-and so it goes....
-the show must go on
-never look back, never look down and never let go
-good morning i see the assassins have failed
-i leave bite marks ---> (sexy sexy)
-i live for the nights i wont remember with the friends i'll never forget
-dont cry rockstar you might ruin your make up
-i wasnt on a mountain when it came to me
-i dont want a conversation i just want to cry infront of you
-if god is a dj,life is a dance floor, love is d rhythm then you are my music
-as the sun sets it reminds me where i wanna be...at a PARTY rocking the night away with you
-everytime my phone rings and i see your name appear...my heart smiles (one of my all time fav)
-im helpless when you smile
-if i dont feel your heartbeat youre to far away
-i want to rip up parts of your shirt and scream at your boobs (just pure brilliant)
-i'll wait here forever just to see you smile
-i dont care if its the moon as long as youre beside me im happy
-youre voice was the soundtrack of my summer
-everyone has a right to be stupid but youre abusing your privileges
-somethings are worth fighting for, somethings are worth dying for, but somethings arent worth a shit at all
-to walk within the line would make my life so boring
-i need to know that i've been to the extreem
-milk does the body good but DAMN how much did you drink? (best pick up line EVER!)
-so knock me off my feet just to make me feel alive
-tell me does she kiss like i used to kiss you?
-the greatest thing you'll ever lern is just to love and be loved in return
-is it enough to die?
-who's gonna call on sunday morning's?
-never say never
- i can do what she can do so much better
-your cant spell slaughter without laughter
-ice ice baby

ich bin da- tokio hotel
turn around i am here
hugs n kisses <333
denise

japanese ninja kung-fu pants

im covered in paint (were repainting d outside of our hus)...to tired to move so all i can really do now is to blog...yea...im gonna go shower in awhile...so i wanna blog bout sumthing but i dunno wat so i hv come up wid a few topic n finally choosen 1 which is...d list of my fav psychopath/ gruesome movie of all time...this are movies i highly encourage ppl who like psycho/ brilliant/ gruel movies....

1.saw 1-5 (pure genius-ness)
2.pathology (awesome plot)
3.hostel 1 &2 (but i oni watch part 2 sister was to freaked out to watch part 1)
4.perfume (love d story line)
5.sweeney todd (love d musical music)
6.awake (another awesone plot/ storyline)

well i think i got alot more but thats all i can think about rite now...so yea...if u guys r bored go buy/rent/borrow or even dwnld if u must trust me u wont regret it...honestly i prefer this kinda category of movies then followed by thriller,comedy,romance...i mean its better then those meaningless movies they making at least in this u can actually c someone really making an effort to think about d whole movie n plot n deaths...so yea...lol i noe u mite think im sum psycho myself for liking such things but honestly im just curious/ facinated by what goes on in a psycho's mind so yea...

so if u guys hv awesome similar movie plz tell me...i like ta watch more ok babai

flightless bird- American mouth
-you cant spell slaughter without laughter-
hugs & kisses <333
denise

i can rock a grannypantie better then you

so one of my teacher had this brilliant idea to add knitting into our study...n so we went to get sum material fr d shop where OLD ladies were all sitting n talking...i felt soooooooo embaressed(cant spell) to be even standing in d shop...so then my teacher went to pick d knitting sticks n wool n ask us ta pick d colours..which were all mild colours...can u belive they dint even have BLACK?!!

anyway got back to class then we start knitting which felt really stupid n awkward...i mean knitting is for OLD PEOPLE!! n so we were all getting tangled n stuff...while learning how ta knit i hv developed a GREAT respect for little old ladies who do knitting cuz getting started is FREAKING hard...so then after like 2 hours of being a bitch...i finally started to get a hang of it...yay n now its AWESOME i mean d stuff u can do is just reli cool...i know...i know....i sound like a granny but its reli satisfiying(cant spell) to see what all my hard work has built up to...

so yea im kinda getting better but i can only do a scarf thing...not so pro to do sweater la...so free lessons to those that wanna learn...hahaha so i guess when im 80 yrs old, wrinkly, bored, half blind n have grand kids i'll probably spend my day knitting...i mean its an awesome past time..hahaha dam i sound like a granny...u should try listening to rock music while knitting..its real inspiring lol thats what i did....ok so here r sum bonus pic i took.(i know but this is d best camera i got in d hus rite now which is y sis fon =.='")

close up

capital M-E- taking back sunday
-i know d sound of a smile in your voice-
granny hugs & kisses (lovelovelove)
-denise-

penut better butterfly wings

yay yay people...sori if i abandoned this blog...but i juz ni reformatted my beloved baby (my lap top) duh...yea it was on d verge of coma so i asked sum friends to do surgery...so now my baby is all fixed up n awesome...haha...u guys better watch out my baby's gonna BLOW your mind!!!...ok yea im bored

anyway so my junior had a fashion show at inti-nilai which went as all fashion shows go...(a typical cycle) exited to chill to stress to boring to caotic to intense to blank to relax to proud... yay anyway went there was bored for 4 hurs doing nothing as usual played with d wigs n do stupid things...then d models finally came so did my work as make up artist damn d models can be reali bitch diva's...so yea got them dressed saw alot of boobies...then d show...blablabla...

anyway went to USJ4 leo iu ystrday...it was an intresting day...alot of intensity in d air...obviously lol (inside joke)...hang out wid aaron n eun (intense domo) lol haha was not expecting it but i saw my OLD OLD OLD buddies yay rhea naa,jenny n carmun...sadly taryna was not der...long time nvr c her ad...

these few days been having not enuff sleep damn...so tmr theres sum exiting news fr my teacher i dunno wut exactly it is but i guess it has sumthing to do with my clothes n design being send to italy n me goin der for holiday next year yeap...so its not confirm yet so plz dun get to exited...

on a diffrent topic how ever EVERY effing one der was so ridiculos with anticipation it was disgusting...falling off their seats to see how d 1st meet up would be like... do u guys seriously all think that i was born ystrday um HELLOW? i mean every freaking eyes were on both of us, even **** i could totaly c it in **** eyes...what? do ppl expect us to be all friendly hellohello?or mayb they all expect me to go over n say hi? be friendly? or be a total bitch? be a stupid? well that would hv been awkward...i mean i'd totaly love ta hv like a mind reading thing on that day jus to hear ppl stupid low shallow mind at work...i notice that many ppl r good at hiding feelings but they ALL SUCK at hiding expectation...i mean what u expect me to do? go right up ta *** n punch *** in d neck?...rip *** wrist veins out? smash *** blob of a head against d wall so *** brains will gloss d floor? or was it d other way round? *** coming up to me n do those things ta me?or mayb we we would suddenly all get along? *** was my old friend n were we best buds in kindergarden? now would that not be just sweet? come on ppl...u cant ALL be that shallow/stupid...another question i BET thats on EVERY one's mind even ****....do i feel treaten? its veri simple. no. y would i be? is it awkward? yea. u bet, since when was it ever NOT?gosh!

Wie Es Ist- Nevada Tan
-Kann und will es nicht riskieren dich und alles zu verliere-
hugs n kisses<333
denise

goop filled lamp

i feel like a freaking zombie rite now...i think im gonna sleep....i dun even know y im blogging...i juz have d urge even if i dunno wat im gonna type next...i belive that if u leave things as they are they will happen naturally...

low millions-eleanor (hvnt heard this in a loooong time)
-i really want this to work-
sQUEESeee n kisses *hearts*heart*heart*
denise


*nites* ZZZZzzzZZzZzZZzzzzzzzzZZZZZZzZzZZzzZzZzzz

if u look reli hard u can find a pizza bottle on the big toe of ur right index finger

soooooooooo yea this week been pretty intresting...d start of coll...stress...n other *ahem* unmentionable things which was also awesome....n yesterday was me first time EVER to a recording studio which by d way was AWESOME...so it goes like this...well long story short instead of goin ta makan we ended up goin ta wey liams coll...he's studying sum audio sumthing sumthing haha dunno wuts it called aaaanyway they hv like all those recording music thinggi n control board wit a million buttons that you always c in those artist recordings n stuff with d room n classic glass window n soundproove things n d mike n drums n guitar...so we decided to stay der with sum of wey liams friends which have like AWESOME voice...every1 der has like a super talent in music be it guitar,drums,vocals...so when i go der i feel so musical sumhow...so wey liam let me try playing drums n thats when i found out i have BAD hand leg coordination...yea reli terrible...so i was banging on those drums like a freaking 5yr old....i bet i was a disgrace of every1 der...but they were nice ppl so yea...so i jakun with EVERY thing der especially d controlboard...found out how ppl record stuff...saw one guy record drums...n how they set up d stuff...n they have this super huge speakers they call 5.1 surround sound which was another AWESOME thing so we played d untimate song linkin park-new devine haha (yea guys eat your damned foot!) i heard its on freaking mega surround sound WHAT UP!...ok i should shaddap now....babai...owh n btw i gotta wake up at 4 freaking A.M tmr morning n drive ta d freaking airport...yea u read rite...gosh 4 is like d time i sleep on saturday nites....so if u saw a thriller looking zombie tmr u noe its me...(ok tat was a lame joke)...i should reli stop talking now...bai

metro station-california
-shoot an apple of my head-
hugs n kisses <333
denise

if i could i'd go where ever you will go

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
From all the things that we are
But are not saying.
Can we see beyond the stars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love had never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?


eminem-beautiful
-was n would be- (go figure)
hugs&kisses
denise